sick

First, I must say that this is indeed a very bad time to be sick and NOT go to school. Especially, on a friday, with basketball SA [not that i care. i wouldn't have taken pe even if i went to sch], english SA and physics EOI, and CIP.

I will have to take the english sa and physics eoi after school or something. and take cip on another day.

questions i have in mind now.
- anyone else absent? [i seriously doubt so. why be absent on a day that is so...impt!!!!!]
- how long are the eng sa and the physics eoi? [so i can set a time with ms linn and mr. tan respectively. obviously not very nice.]
- anyone is taking cip on another day from our class?
- any homework? [only for history i guess, since it's the only exam-free lesson. only good thing about friday is that it's mostly exams and u noe u are not missing much lessons.]
- as for pe, who hasn't taken the basketball sa? im sure there's some ppl who are sick or something. and with mr. chee's favourite lectures, i believe not many people are assessed in the end.

All right. to real business. basically now i am sniffing and coughing like mad -partially due to the cold rainy weather- and also having weird temperatures that fluctuate up and down whenever my medication takes effect and it's time for yet another dose of it.

Let's go back to thursday night. it's been another normal night for me, with my fever and cough -yes it is normal for the past at least 10 days- and i couldn't really concentrate on studying for physics. so i studied for a while, and fiddled with rs, and then went to sleep, thinking i will study more physics b4 school the next day. i OBVIOUSLY have to go. or else i will miss two tests. i will NEVER miss them for anything.

of course, except for parents. just so happens that on thursday i feel worse than usual, and my temperature soared to 39.2 degrees celsius. it's fine for me, i can simply go to sleep and wake up the next day and go school lah, but NO. to my mum it's as though i am being fried in the oven.

she start to fret. i tell her i had fever about 11 days ago, on my birthday 17th july, yes and it continued for a while and i recovered from it for a few days b4 having it again somewhere on the day b4. and im fine, really a sleep will be fine. and i was so sleepy, since i was sick and needed rest and all. mind you i took plenty of nap earlier on that day, and skipped french -for the FIRST TIME!!!!!- bcos i wanted to go home and sleep. -sobs-

apparently my fever always escalates whenever i take naps. yes and i feel all feverish and i wanted to sleep. but no my mum refused to let me sleep. at approximately 10.30pm, at which i should have been at dreamland because of my sick state, she places a cold pad on my forehead. and it's juz like putting ice on ur head. and it's so cold that after a minute or so i push it off.

it makes my whole head ACHE with coldddddness, freezing cold, and also numbbbbb. it's horrible. then my mum refused to turn off the lights, bcos she claims that she shall call my father who is out for dinner to bring me to the hospital. she went on and on nagging about how long my fever and sickness has been going on, and it will fryyyyyyy my brain alive, and demand that i shall NOT go to school -to which i wince in fear and argue that there are tests!-.

and my mum pounces on it and goes AHA! ok she didn't but she says all the more i should rest and not fry my brain further or something like that. i was so upset and just wanted to sleeppppp. couldn't they leave a poor sick one to rest! and after several more doses of head-numbing and aching cold pads, with the lights still on, i couldn't sleep. and finally my mum got rid of the cold pads and used my face-towel.

it's much better, cooling but not too cold. basically my mum got me to change into some clothes and started packing my water bottle and a jacket in case i felt cold and stuff like that. oh and my previous medications. she is practically positive that i have some unknown germ in my lungs and stomach that is causing this unceasing fever and cough, as well as a full stomach everytime i eat something.

yes i feel extremely full when i eat anything. and feel like vomiting, esp after coughing very hard. and slightly breathless and my lungs are practically bursting. -dies- and my father decides it's pneumonia, while my mum thinks it's dengue fever. though i don't have the rashes. i have plenty of mosquito bites though. i have very sweet and attractive blood.

basically at around 11 plus i get sent off in my father's car to NUH, and eventually to children's emergency. i had to wear this mask. by then my temperature has dropped to 37.4, which is what i predicted would happen had they left me sleeping in my comfortable bed at homeee. they should have at least sent me on saturday, with all the tests overrrrrrrr!

my mum was nagging about how it will become worse and i will have to be admitted to hospital, and get showered in COLD FREEZING WATER. and how bad it will be. she loves exaggerating. she was exaggerating to my dad about how my eyes fall upwards and my face is very pale and my lips are very red. =.="

and i went to the fever facility, where i took my weight and it's 43.5kg! i guess it's bad bcos it means that my muscles are losing weight. nvm but they took my blood pressure and stuff like that, then left me trying to sleep in that uncomfortable chair.

it's straight-backed, so i can't get comfortable lying down. so i leaned to one side, and the other, but the mask is very annoying, and it's extremely hot breathing up ur spectacles all the time due to the mask. it's just like the mask is trapping all the heat around my mouth and nose. GAH.

anyway i tried to sleep, and spent a longg time there, watching some other little girl sleeping on a nice comfortable bed, with her mother patting her and her father reading some book by the side. my parents were walking around the place and standing around my booth. yes there are like booths with a wall separating different booths, and mine is no. 11. yah and there's this biohazard bin and a cleaner came around in a mask and gloves and tongs picking up litter and throwing them away into a yellow bag. and stuff like that.

basically the nurses there are pretty nice, and they are rather friendly. but i waited, and waited, and waited in that stifling mask and the air-con that is not very nice and the chair that is uncomfortable, until around 1am. finally a doctor came. it's a female! i don't like male ones anyway. she's doctor ng and very nice. and she asked me and my parents about my condition, and we juz told her lah, and showed her my medication and stuff like that.

then she checked my heartbeat and lungs and breathing and stuff like that, and asked me about my coughing and my fever and about how i feel very full after eating just a little food. although i was very hungry b4 eating, the sighting of food and eating it makes me feel bloateddd. and water, too.

anyway, she asked me to take a blood test and a x-ray to check for any germs or viruses that is in me. yah so eventually i am given this cup that says "SPECIMEN" on it and my mum says it's to take my urine sample. =.="

i never took urine samples b4 and i am disgusted with the idea. bcos i didn't want to dirty myself or my fingers with my urine, but it couldn't be helped. just so happens i felt urgent. it turned out fine, and i didn't dirty myself. -beams- success! then had to change into some weird robe and took the x-ray. then after going back to sleep -or trying to go back to sleep- i had to take the blood test. i was happy bcos it's what i have been waiting for!

i am familiar with blood tests and are not afraid of them, and so im happy. and the nurse was nice and treated me as though im a kid afraid of injections -heh im not- and she took the injection, and i was looking at it. it was sooooo cool. i didn't feel scared. weird. i used to feel scared. and it was painful, but i didn't wince either. and then she pulled the needle out of my flesh, and put this cotton over it and asked me to hold it, and i did. it felt better than the initial injection, which hurts the most. and then she put the plaster over it. and she was shaking my blood sample, probably to get it mixed or something. heehee.

something like using the microtubes and stuff in bio.

and while i was stoning on the chair i was thinking about physics stuff. gamma rays are shortest and the whole order to radiowaves. to think of it, i have to find mr. tan to do the eoi. i hateeeee making up for stuff. esp alone. bcos i don't like to. humph.

anyway, by that time it's around 2plus, and i went to my car to sleep, it's more comfortable bcos i could lie flat on the back seats, and waited for the x-ray and blood test results. eventually my father got my medicine, and the results, and a MC that declares me unfit for 5 days, until tuesday. and since it's alrd 3am when i reached home, it seems quite impossible for me to go to school on friday.

once i reached home i plopped onto bed and went to sleep. of course not b4 my mum giving my medicine. then i had a heavenly sleep that is dreamless until 8am my mum woke me up for another dose of medication, and at 9am again. it's sooo irritating when i want to sleep. but my poor mum and dad, they slept later than me but woke earlier than me. and my dad called the school or something. i couldn't be bothered. sleep was best.

for almost the whole day i slept. although there were homework i could do. but basically i was too tired. or it was simply comfortable lying like that. and i just fell asleep. haha and i read my book at night. and then went to sleep. although i felt very hungry. sleep is the best bcos u don't feel hungry. my parents give me food in small portions so i won't feel too bloated and full. and now i feel hungry all the time until i get to eat food.

sigh. i think flu is catching up with me. i hope i can go to school on monday and recover by then, but my mc is until tuesday...

racialy harmony day celebrations

Hello.

For the past week, I have been awfully sick. With high temperatures of at least 38, i am having fever as well as cough. occasionally sneezing. but mainly cough. anyway, i went to the doctor's place -influence from french structure- [clinic] and waited for around 1 hour. -AND I FORGOT TO BRING MY BOOK ALONG! SO I WAS SITTING THERE COUGHING ALONG WITH 10 OTHER PPL.-

basically, i got an mc, and plenty of medication. the medicine tasted horrible. and he gave some cough syrup. like im a kiddddd. kiddddds take cough syrup. adults take TABLETS. but i have some anti-inflammation thingy, syrup and panadol, to be taken thrice a day, and some lozenges to be taken 4 times daily.

basically, those medication are NOT effective. heh.

plus today racial harmony i ate a lot of fried and veryyyyy sweet stuff -until i felt like puking it out...it's so disgustingly sweet!- and basically ate everything the doctor asked me not to. im supposed to avoid sweet food, fried food, spicy food, and drink warm water. of which i did the exact opposite. and since the water cooler water is cold, yeah u noe.

and i have an mc! but i didn't use it. but i became really sick towards 1pm. and i stayed in class to finish science ws. ended up being really frustrated bcos i want to eat lunch! and oso though i could do it quickly. but yah. im really impatient and all. plus i felt awfully sick. and blaws was saying she had slight fever -hah i bet i spread it to her, or maybe ck or suvee or sorn-

then she touched my forehead and exclaimed that mine was muchhhh hotter than hers! and i felt hers and thought it was normal. but she said she felt dizzy and kept walking around. i was different. i had a headache and felt dizzy too, but if i walked around i would feel worse. i had to sit down and rest. but well science ws...

anyway it's supposed to be due today, but i decided to hand up on monday. heehee.

hmm...track finals was eventful. only our track ppl went bcos not enough tickets. national stadium is under renovations, so they used choa chu kang, which is really small! so we had only 50 tickets. for the WHOLE team. plus teachers and stuff. so it was really squeezy.

then some person asked us to go sit with rjc, -yay! bcos we chose seats that's very far at the end, and cedar's flags blocked our view. heh.- and rjc was sitting near middle. next to hci. and of course hci was veryyyyyyy loud! i really admire their enthusiasm. they had the most no. of flags, banners, and they painted their faces yellow and red, or rather the counsellors did, and they brought all the sec ones plus the counsellors lah. so it's a really big crowddd.

and they were really enthu. they cheered very loudly, covering poor raffles. although the raffles ppl who led the cheer were very enthu too. yah. but our sch have only one measly flag. heh.

uhh yah. and i had sore throat, but i still cheered anyway, and realised that i have a dreadful cough bcos i cheered. gahhhhhh. and then now im very sick. and then i have piano tmr, as well as my piano concert on sunday! and im not even nervous! ok i am, im nervous bcos im not nervous at all about the concert. =.="

gah, i will become nervous right during the concert and play wrong notes! esp it's a duet, with celeste again! now we are the duet pair who always play during the bimonthly concerts. haha. we have mo4 qi4. hee.

wish me luck for e cough and fever and headache and generally my sickness. then i don't have to worry about coughing in the middle of playing. >.<

paris lost ):

ahhh...paris lost the bid to host 2012 olympics!!! i am devastated! sigh...all hopes of going to paris for olympics is dashed. but, on the other hand, at least paris managed to avoid having a terrorist attack. London is really pitiful, six bombings all in the same day! oh dear...all those poor innocent people hurt and dying, it makes my heart ache just seeing them on the news.

i wonder if anyone my father or brother knows is hurt over there.

anyway, there has been quite a lot of stuff to do, and i still have to finish my geog pt, and there is a history sa coming up, and a lit fa, as well as the lit sa next next week. and of course track i wish everyone good luck for track nationals! esp chew min, who got into the semi finals for 100m! it's tmr though...GOOD LUCK! BONNE CHANCE!

haha well, i didn't feel quite happy ytd...in fact, i broke out at my father. poor father, im really sorry. i didn't mean to be so horrible and mean, yelling at u and shouting at you like that. i was in a really bad mood to begin with, and my father actually went through all my homework AGAIN. i told him not to b4, and yet...and then he interrupted me in the middle of my work, and i was really upset. and i simply wanted him to leave me alone for a while and give me some peace to do my stuff, but the more i asked him to go, the more he refused.

i guess he's juz like me, he's juz as stubborn as i am.

it was bad. i feel really bad. one part of my mind was asking me to simply listen to him and say yes yes yes and then he will leave after that. but the other part, the one i listened to, it was very impatient and made me pour out all the anger and moodiness and all the upsetting feelings i had. i simply said what i was thinking at that time. "please leave me alone!" although there were times where i said this rather calmly, he refused to go, and wanted to know what is wrong. he wasn't even scolding me, why was i so angry?

i was angry because he didn't follow what i said, and leave me alone at peace.

and then during dinner, he told me to control my anger and stuff like that. i was really upset. and i can't help it. im still young, i still have a long way to learn how to control my anger and curb it. i just can't calm myself down the right way when im really angry. sigh.

now i have yet another weakness i can add to the long list of weaknesses. hotheadedness.

at least i can say i have some conscience and i felt very very very sorry afterwards. when i was extremely calmed. and i forgot loads of what i said and what he said. that's how i am. i always forget upsetting stuff after a while. but i rmb parts of upsetting stuff too. the impt parts, the gist of them, and they stay with me forever. i have nailed a hole inside my father's heart. no matter how i try to make up for it, there will always be a hole there.

i am really sorry. really sorry.

but there's nothing i can do now. it is all because of my pride, and dignity, and i refused to say sorry. all i can do now is just be as nice to my father as possible. he may be gone any moment, for all i noe, and i really should be nice to him while i still can. you never know when you can just lose people. i always keep in mind to be nice to my father, but i just always forget. why is it that difficult to rmb? i've got to rmb. before it's too late for me to regret.

anw, rgs open house coming up. i have to perform some chinese song for the keyboard music. all because of lc and yinfei larh! they refused to play it and insisted on singing instead. they KNEW i loveeee singing! humph. nvm. lc better rmb to bring the music score. i have to start learning it. i have a piano concert on 24th july. coming up soon! and im playing a duet with celeste -again. yes again- i believe we have a lot of mo qi, and we play well with each other! and she's really nice to be with. yep.

and my birthday is almost here! it's on 17th july, this sunday! -hinthint- it's a very obvious hint indeed. but oh well. im rather narcissistic after all. and yeah, i don't noe what i want. a mp3? but that's really ex and no one will be willing to buy me one anyway, so forget it. it's too ex. money? haha juz joking. er...i noe blaws is giving me raisins. >.< i want books! anything lah. what matters is your sincerity and thought. haha

i wish my bro will give me something for my birthday. bcos im giving him one, -but he doesn't noe that-, and he nv gave me a birthday pressie b4! -neither have i- i shall see. but he says he will purposely forget my birthday. so that's quite hopeless lah. but he's given me quite some things b4 alrd. im really grateful to him. as in he didn't give them to me on purpose, but he gave them without thought. but im really grateful lah. he'a really a nice person.

i shall read many books. hope rgs win the blogging championships. vote ppl! sms "vote nibc pos" to 96183799, and each sms is charged at the regular charges. thx! ^^