i still dream about him eurgh. once in a while i will dream where he is my romantic partner and we do things together or talk about something. today i dreamed he and i were on the same ship, we were in a huge group playing puzzle games and i was going around solving some of them. as usual, he was better than me at it and eventually caught up to me and talked a bit. this scene was probably influenced by the boat party i went for two weekends ago (he was there).
then the dream became a shipwreck, though i found a small boat and moved all the important puzzle pieces there, and he somehow made his way onto my boat.
then the dream became one where he (*italics means it's him, not my dad) and i were escaping with my "dad" in a deep forest (and we're all dressed in chinese olden days gear, think 古装戏). my "dad" (who didn't look like my dad at all, but some old man with a long beard) kept throwing out a rope to kill someone or do something bad, and he kept stopping my "dad" by wrapping the rope around his neck. after three times my "dad" got pissed and just pulled hard and his whole head popped off, and the whole forest turned into a red river of blood.
at that moment i screamed (at least in my head, i hope i didn't scream out loud), it was definitely a nightmare to see someone you love/loved/care about die in front of you, especially when it's unexpected and he was totally killed without malicious intent by my freakin dad!!
i think that was a scene based on the hateful eight lol. better not watch so much violent shows, it's getting to my head and really screwing with my feelings. T.T
i wonder how long it will be before i stop dreaming about him.
