I realised I’ve changed over the years, and especially by being with my bf. I didn’t notice it until I hung out with my parents for 2 days in Busan. I used to be super talkative and attention-seeking with them, almost needy of their attention. This was back when I was in primary and secondary school, though bits of it still showed up even up to two or three years ago.
I distinctly remember my dad chiding me multiple times that I should calm down or talk less, there’s no need to get excited about stuff. But this time being with them, I’m happy and excited but a lot more detached, like I no longer need their attention or validation. Whatever they say is up to them and it’s their prerogative, almost nothing to do with me. I just let their comments slide off my back, and I’ve become less talkative. I’m mostly listening to my parents chat and talk to me, and ask me questions.
I’ve become pensive, calm and quiet...just like my bf! I don’t know if it’s to do with being an independent adult and understanding that my parents don’t have to affect my demeanor and identity and thoughts, or if it’s to do with being with a calm person like my bf. It could also be to do with my getting used to working with older, calm adults at work too, and learning to take on some of that. Maybe an element of detachment and knowing it’s only for 2 days makes it easier for me to not revert to my old self too. I have no idea, but either way I very much prefer the way I am now.
It definitely seems like I’ve changed, though my core is still that excitable, talkative self (as my bf and other close friends very well know).
