ishi's dead

hey guess what? i just saw the newspaper and ishi's dead!? yes the guy from superband, in the band, soul, teaches dance and all and jes sie loves him etc etc...

he's my bro's friend too. to think my bro just talked to him last week. ishi mentioned he wanted to commit suicide and stuff but i mean, if he's talking about it surely he'll be FINE RIGHT? i totally can't believe he actually went and did it.

WHO KILLS THEMSELVES OVER RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS? totally wasted. bright future ahead, 26 years old, diploma in sound mixing-engineering, great job at dancing, plenty of fans and shuai4 enough for many girls to want to be his gf (jes sie's one) and he's got plenty of stuff to do!

sigh. so wasted?

life is so fragile? so easily gone? like that? why would one want to die just like that? i mean i thought of dying and all b4 but in the end there was always something holding me back, holding me to life. to think he actually survived 26 years just to give up like that? like WHAT THE?!^$%@@

i don't believe it!

now i know how it feels to have someone u know dead. sudden shock indeed.

p.s. i nv thought of carbon monoxide poisoning. it's rather cool and unique, but apparently quite the trend in japan for commiting suicide and stuff. well you ppl don't try it.

it's not worth killing yourselves over stuff that really can be solved. it's not worth the effort, not worth the time wasted on thinking about it, not worth your precious life. rmb, no matter what happens, there's always ppl you care about you, whether you know it or not. for one thing, i do. if you have any problems, talk about it, don't think you can solve it just by suicide. it's selfish, cowardly, useless. think of the brighter days ahead. think of me...

think of me, think of me fondly, when we say goodbye...