thus far

today's the most unfortunate day of the year thus far.

for the first time in jc life, i feel sad, almost depressed, even. like really really sad emo kindof sad, not just one moment of unhappiness that passes over really quickly. it's like even though there's several things i can be happy about, there's still this weighing down of sadness on my shoulders, on my head, like a dark cloud hanging over me.

it's like, SADNESS + unhappy things > little happy things

what's more the rain is back. just to dampen more of my spirits.

sigh.

i should stop being so absent-minded these days.