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it's coming back to me.

what i wanted to say, died at my lips and tears welled up in my eyes.

forget it.

at first i was afraid to tell the truth. but i did anw. it was a bad mistake. went terribly wrong from the start...

now, thinking back, it isn't that bad. while ignorance is bliss, telling the truth is like a burden off my chest. while things get awkward for a while, at least i got my message across.

i hope.

crap.

p.s. it's got NOTHING to do with love. not that way la. =.="

holidays so far

the hols so far have been boring and interesting. so far there's been smp extension lab attachment, going to blaws' house twice and playing card game with her + learning how to play snap -subsequently winning blaws rather easily-, wep, and nus engineering quest. oh and the canopy tree trail thing. and of course eating sleeping reading watching tv playing games. haha

nus engineering quest was fun, and uhh talked to two ppl from risc which is an amazing feat. for the sake of scitare la -glares- and blaws can't rmb why she is pissed with risc. hahaha. since she can't rmb why, she should stop being pissed with risc and start cooperating with them and treat them cordially.

canopy tree trail walk at macritchie was tiring but fun oso la. we got to see a collection of insects and scorpions of various species. -eeks- although i hate insects and are afraid of them, they are actually quite amazing and pro-looking dead and as specimens. a pity blaws wasn't there. we walked through the rough trail about 7-8km. would have been 10km if not for our luck at getting a hitch-hike on a little bus on the way out. hahaha. there were some air-rifle shots from the ns camp, but well didn't get shot. saw a lot of weird plants and animals, particularly a pair of squirrels that i suspect were mating. making very loud noises and ya in the cover of a tree, though we could still make out the shapes. =P too bad for privacy. they were right next to our trail haha.

the tree trail walk was super short as compared to the 5km walk there. like 400m? but it was dizzying and scary as i had a bit of fear of heights. i thought i was going to fall over anytime. T.T or drop something down. it was super high up. we climbed up super high from the beginning lor. up and down and up and down. had lots of lactic acid in my legs by the end. =P ya then we went to eat roti prata after that. was super full and went home "tired but happy". cliche yepp but true. ^^

bleh scitare and ssef work is piling up >.< can't imaging how sec 4 life will be.

wep was boring in a way. it was at thomson paediatric clinic. all we did was file casenotes, find casenotes, register, measure weight and sometimes length of the babies, give queue numbers, sit in several consultations, follow on several trips around the wards, watch how drips are done, and generally do odd jobs like faxing stuff, stamping names and make sets of forms. boring and easy to do actually, and interesting in a sense. then again im not a professional, that's y it's a bit boring. it's all paperwork...

still easy and dun need to use brains. several times there were misfiled casenotes and that caused everyone to go into a frenzy searching for them. sometimes they can't be found due to the sheer number of casenotes. >.< of course with us around we are forced to find them. sigh

half the time we are ignored and all we do is look and see what the nurses are doing. only one nurse was frendly and never forgot me. the others were ok la. still i have a feeling that we are causing more trouble than providing help. >.< one good thing about all those casenotes is that you get to learn about interesting names and surnames =P and of course i get to meet a lot of children and babies and proud parents. haha i got several smiles from the parents bcos i was smiling and playing with the babies, and the babies smile of course. though sometimes they cry at the pain of an injection by the nurse, but they stop very soon.

interesting fact learnt: babies love to wail and sound like crying, but somehow there aren't any tears. = they are just making the crying wails but nope, not crying at all. haha so ya they stop "crying" very easily. but of course sometimes they are really crying, hard. haha

oh and there's this sign that says: "All our staff in this clinic have been vaccinated against Flu. Have you vaccinated against Flu yet? Please approach any of our staff regarding the vaccination." and then the next minute one of the nurses started sneezing. and she sneezed about 3 times. we all couldn't help but laugh. hahaha vaccinated against flu and yet having flu? unlucky ba...haha vaccination no use. probably different strain.

not much to say alrd la. sleepover at my house this weekend for scitare action plan and ssef report. sigh la why is almost everyone overseas alrd. im going overseas at the end of dec, sometimes around christmas bcos my bro only has 4 days leave and he can use them all plus christmas hol plus hari raya hol plus new year day hol plus weekends then can make two nice weeks of leave. ya so i must finish ssef b4 then, and the forms...yikes >.<

i dun want to go to the same place againnn. my mum seems to like shan tou a lot, but we always go there!!!!!!!! and hongkong oso. i don't mind hongkong that much la, didn't go hk for 2 or 3 yrs alrd. but we went shantou just 2 yrs ago! and last yr we didn't go anywhere. sigh la my mum is so biased. the only places she like = china, hk, thailand. possibly malaysia but not like she's ever brought us there. blah.

hols are here

hurray for the holidays are here!

eoys are over and results are out. not too bad la but i shall not reveal anymore to certain geniuses like BLAWS. and im glad that at least ONE person reads my blog ^^

and generally so far the hols have been smp and reading and sleeping and eating and watching tv and playing games and going out with my mum. which is rather boring but i don't mind the break from studies. it's quite nice too to be able to do anything i want -except the smp part- ya smp extension for ssef next year. oh well it's quite crap and everything but it can't be helped. and let me try and remember. i must remind blaws to COLLECT THE FORMS on friday. if blaws is reading it, be reminded.

hmm and today we went to the nobel prize exhibition thingy and some lecture by a nobel prize winner (professor t'hoofe or something likethat?) for physics. i don't know what he won the prize for. probably something about particles bcos he was talking about it, then he talked about black holes -my favourite!- and stuff like hawking's particles and other theories. and the probability of white holes.

haha qw and yong joo were late to they were forced to go some IT lab watch on web cam. and since the microphone is malfunctioning half the time, the volume of the professor was greatly varying. therefore they couldn't hear much hahaha. and ya qw's sources whatever they are are indeed rather reliable. oh well and for the past week i realise that during term time in nus, nus ppl eat super early, even up to 11++, and there will be LOTS of ppl from 12 to 1pm, so it is advised that you do NOT go there to eat during this period of time. im not sure about 1pm to 2pm, but i think there is a lot of ppl too. particularly seems like nus ppl lunch break is that time.

queues are super long during those times too and no tables or seats available unless u want to share with someone. T.T and i do pity those ppl clearing the trays and plates at the collection place for they have to work like robots, methodically taking plates and trays and sorting them super quickly and without rest. mmm.

i find lots of ppl doing wep during this hols. makes me feel interested in trying out working. and i actually forgot that someone worked b4. T.T and i nv knew that yongjoo went to find work at swensen's and mcdonald's. heh.

oh well this is crap. im just blogging for the sake of my beloved one and only reader-of-my-blog. under her specific and repeated request of course. ^^ so be honoured. hohoho. wishing everyone an enjoyable and fun-filled holiday. and perhaps merry christmas and happy new year in advance. =)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

hmm sounds rather not bad...

exams are over.

the holidays are just round the corner.

this super duper ultra extended long weekend, many things have happened. i have decided to pick up my books again...it's been so long since i have really enjoyed myself in the world of fantasy, adventure and mystery. yepp and i went to bishan library.

it was lovely and new, and there were many ppl there. lots of books, but not enough. didn't have the variety i expected, but well, good enough i suppose. borrowed even more books for the hols. but i feel that the holidays are very empty. i always do. it's like i have nothing to do, no school, no cca, no nothing. i don't really mind it, but i miss having nothing to work towards. perhaps just reading and more reading.

i love reading.

i wanted to forget her, but i decided to stop escaping it and to face it. i guess perhaps, she wanted to forget me too, like i did. she's still the same, yet changed, perhaps. my fault? perhaps. but deep down it was everyone's fault really. u can't blame anyone exactly.

i made the right choice. i should face it and acknowledge it, and not just forget everything. this may have been a blessing in disguise, though i really want to know what the blessing is. i can think of a few, but it doesn't seem enough for this to have happened. i shall never forget this. i want and don't want to forget, but what can i do?

no. don't forget. don't ever do. if you do, you are a coward just escaping from the truth.

isn't that who i have always been?

tears.

sometimes u think tears come and go, and that's the end of that. you chuck it to the back of your mind and think about it perhaps, but no more tears. i thought that. i was wrong. once the eoys are over, once i could have my mind capacity free again from the numbing routine of study study study, i thought. i dreamt, and i thought. and tears came again.

why?

because i realise how much i hated it, how much i hated that, then how cowardly i was. there's a good side to everyone, but also a bad side. i must say that it's so easy to succumb to the bad side. to hate them. to hate her. to hate myself.

hate.

why hate? hate leads to anger, and anger just leads to more hate. isit worth it?

tell my brain to stop hating. it's impossible, impossible, impossible. when you can't stand it anymore, you just do what your eyes always do. pleurer.

i realised i can type up to 90 words per minute! im so pro right? and i actually did not too badly for french killer eoy! i couldn't believe it and i was like muttering c'est impossible as i looked down the marks for each section. and i actually passed the redaction! i didn't noe the format of letter writing, and i didn't even finish it! gosh. c'est impossible. mais c'est vrai. je suis contente.

i find myself getting more and more rebellious. due to the hate. i indeed, finally have run out of patience. told you my weakness is impatience. i couldn't tolerate it, and i burst. i exploded, and hurt everyone around me, including myself. in a way, im like a suicide bomber, who instead of achieving her goals, have ended up bombing herself only. the others are all running to safe distance and shooting at me now. hate comes to nothing i guess.

but i couldn't take it. i take different stands, different points of view, different ways of tackling it, but i got shot down all the same. sometimes it feels like a battlefield, a war that i can never win, a war that im alone in. but there's an even more vicious battle i must win before i can win anything else, and that is the battle within. it is a raging, fiery battle of which the consequences would be the loss of my sanity and mind. either way i doubt i would be able to win and conquer, perhaps till my dying day.

i find myself playing the word death much too easily. like it means nothing. yet it means everything. how can i play with such a word like that? it's awful. but i still do it. doesn't that mean im awful then?

when you are at a loss of what to do, what to do? i can only take comfort in the sole source of enjoyment i have now...my books. but even that is so easy to be taken away from. i think the problem is indeed with me. if others can tolerate and keep their mouth shut, i should continue to be able to do so. just shut up and keep quiet. being rebellious has no use, it only inflicts more harm and while they know that you have a mind of your own, it doesn't help that they hates that fact.

perhaps i should have been born stupid and ignorant. in a place where there is no competition and it's ok to be just yourself. perhaps if i never knew the existence of suffering, of enjoyment, of anything at all, i would be able to be content with what i have.

stop taking things for granted. everything you have outweighs what you don't. no that's not true. just be grateful for what you have now and stop being greedy. i can't help it i am a greedy and selfish person. not to mention lazy, impatient and has a fiery temper. i need control and tolerance.

the source of the problem leads back to decades ago. there's nothing i can do now. live on, and live my life to the happiest. i doubt i will be able to do that. i want music. indluge in music and books, and forget about the truth. forget about the world and forget about everything. but it's no use to deceive yourself.

no use.




p.s. i am not depressed or what. just been thinking loads these days. too much time to think so thinking too much i guess. it's not against the law to think right? it better not be anyway. that's y being stupid and ignorant would spare all these trouble. sometimes i just think too much into things. just call me stupid crazy and lazy. right you win, i lose. doesn't that make everyone happy? a simple word sorry solves everything, yet it's so difficult to say it. to someone who speaks it like drinking water, the word carries no meaning anymore. yet if it makes everyone happy, why not? right you win, i lose.

about yourself

thanks to kenneth's blog (:

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on your Blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. I drink powdered milk, two cups a day.
2. I only realised the existence of the health booklet in p2.
3. I never had a best friend until p4.
4. It was clinically proven that I had hearing problems.
5. I love my brother.
6. I was so proud of myself because I read Lord of the Rings in pri 4.
7. I stole my friend's watch before. In fact, I stole loads of things before.
8. My first trip to anywhere in Malaysia was last year. Johor, to be exact.
9. I had the happiest birthday in my life when I was 7.
10. I love planes, I love to sit on a plane, particularly SIA.
11. I had a pet hamster when I was in pri sch.
12. I hate all seafood.
13. I only knew the existence of handphones in sec sch.
14. I am pro at chinese chess. I always win it (:
15. I wanted to go to nygh, but i changed my mind in the end.
16. I lived in Hongkong for 5 years before.
17. I had my first and deepest scar when I was 2.
18. I wear a different watch everyday.
19. If I have to choose between being frozen to death or being burnt to death, I would choose the former.
20. I thought committing suicide was crazy, but later on I didn't mind dying anymore.

so which do you think is true? comment if you want.

the 5 ppl shall be...any 5 who reads my blog and bothers to do it. see im so nice. ^^

stressed? ?desserts

ok im getting on quite well with stess. im looking forward to end of year. as in all exams for the yr to be over. i realised being in ip isn't less stressful. instead, it's worse bcos we have more exams and these exams MATTER. without o levels our normal daily lives are HELL. ok not that bad. at least i've survived ^^

just finished geog test today. and got past the horrors of first two weeks of term 4. next up is french eoy this fri, then all the way to the eoys in week 6. by then im sure every other sch has finished eoys and are celebrating alrd T.T while we poor girls still struggle.

pfft. soon. counting down to 27 days later. when eoys are officially over.

oh i should be counting down to my grade 8 piano exam results too. my fren got it back, and guess what? she passed and passed by 17 marks. she said she screwed up. right like i believe. heh she's PRO la. wonder what her screw up was. sigh wishing and hoping for a miracle to happen.

do miracles ever happen?

breaking point

everyone has a breaking point.

for me, perhaps that was it.

the last straw happened, and everything just came crashing down. the tears just came, and everything that made me happy was diminished to the unknown depths of my mind. shouldn't tears have limits? no, tears still came when i thought there were none left.

where did my optimism go? my usual cheerful self that i display when im in front of ppl?

no i have had enough of pretense. i couldn't take it anymore. it was just too much for me to take it. what "it" is, i have no idea. i don't noe, and i can't be bothered to know anymore. i just noe that im very very tired of trying, striving and going for things when even if i do get it, they are nv what i really wanted in the first place.

i go through much troubles, trying to overcome all the obstacles, and yes i do overcome them. i achieve my goals, but they were nv my intended goals really. it was always changed a little, but well it was cause for happiness all the same.

was.

now i don't noe how to feel. i think it might have been the weather...it was simply too cold and gloomy. i shut myself in my room and sat on my bed in darkness, listening to my mp3 and trying to sing along. it helped a bit, and it helped clear my mind.

i could slowly think through everything and decide.

i have decided that i will not fall. i will not give up. this is just how things happen, and i have to learn to deal with it. whether i like it or not.

im going to prove that i have a high pain threshold. i noe i have a super low one, and i can't stand pain, can't stand blood. but now im going to DEVELOP one even if im not. and i shall try to learn to be ambidextrous. though im sure i won't achieve this goal yet again. my injury isn't serious enough.

mind you, don't ever shake my hand ok. it hurts like hell when u squeeze or shake my hand. esp ppl who love to do that squeezing thing that hurts a lottt even without injury.

i can't move my finger without hurting. i can't make use of that muscle without hurting. i can't play the piano without hurting. and in every single piece, i have to use that finger and stretch like siao for about, 100 times in total? not forgetting the scales? where u have to stretch until ur fingers are going to break?

im just going to try my best and i'll tell the examiner. i won't cry bcos of this pain, i don't care. im going to be able to bear this pain and stop being such a spoilsport. whether im going to fail or not, i'll just accept it. exams don't matter that much to me anymore. i just hope that this will recover soon, i miss playing the piano properly...it better not be permanant...

ysc was fun. loads of things were fun. court shoes were torture, blazers were suffocating, and ties were strangling. but they really make u look pro, and i felt pro. it was a wonderfully great experience, and we got merit award! unexpectedly. can't wait for ssef next yr. i so <3 our poster!

blaming. regrets. despair. i hate myself for all that. can't i just forget about all that and focus on what i should do? it's just all my bad points appearing at the same time, the hot-headedness, the stubbornness, the selfishness, the depressingness parts of myself all coming out at the same time. there's more, i can't think of, but comeon! cheer up! it's not the end of the world!

yeah i noe it's not the end of the world. even now, i believe that this wasn't the real breaking point. it's not serious enough to be one. it just felt like one then...but now, perhaps it was just a break i needed to take. there's still a long way to go, and im still young. undoubtedly, more troubles will come, and not to worry. i'll stand fast and overcome them one by one, albeit any breaks i need to take to move on.

yep. anything is possible as long as you are still alive. anything is possible as long as there's still that shimmer of hope, that bubble of hope. yeah?

enough is enough

as you grow older, you find yourself bombarded with many many things. many unexpected things.

you just have to learn to deal with it.

and you learn.









hopefully, you don't give up, then you'll learn.








for me, i think i have grown more mature over the years in rgs. i think im super stressed up, but this forces me to learn.

here are the things coming up:

math test = this wed
show and share -REMEMBER FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!- = this wed
ysc = this sat
deadline for ss pt
chem pt
and physics pt = week 2
piano exam = week 2 tuesday
geog test = week 3 monday
french eoy week 3 friday
eoys = week 6

and countless other unnamed stuff.

im going to be real busy this coming weekend.

just hope im not falling sick. i am getting headaches whenever i think hard about something and get focused, ie. when i do homework, pt, and generally anything stressful.

like my stressful life isn't stressed enough, i have yet more problems. but i can settle them, right? yes im sure i can.

even piano has let me down. i can only take comfort in songs. singing. singing has let me down b4, and since then im afraid of it. but no choice. singing is still my love. <3

ahh such a crappy post. i don't blog much, and when i do, it's when i want to organise my thoughts i guess. whoever is reading this must be 满头雾水 by now. forgive me. im sorry.

meme

ok me being quite bored is doing this. and mind you my com is super screwed, hard disk spoilt so not much music available. only plenty of rainie yang's songs ^^ and some angela ones -i dun even like- and generally jap songs and stuff. sigh i miss my old playlist ):

turn on Windows Media Player/Winamp/whatever you use
as MP3 and put it in shuffle mode. For every question, press "next song".
Enter title to answer the question.

1. How does the world see me?
My Graduation (uhhhh. is that good?)

2. Will I have a happy life?
Time goes by (i suppose i will as time goes by? >.<)

3. What do my friends really think of me?
What's left of me. (o.O they think of me by what's left of me? what IS left of me?)

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Rumbling Hearts (hahaha i suppose that's yes? =P it's quite a nice song though)

5. How can you be happy?
Planetarium (= i need astro in my life! haha)

6. What should I do with my life?
Jewel Song (uhh by looking for the jewel -and stuff about remembering-?)

7. Why must life be so full of pain?
Pandora. (yes bcos ppl keep opening pandora boxes despite knowing it's not right)

8. Will I ever have children?
fragile (omggggg. does that mean im fragile or my children are??? i wannn children ):)

9. Will I die happy?
Ballade Pour Adeline. (haha i suppose that's yes? or maybe not. after all this song sounds like an elegy for someone dead =P)

10. What is some good advice for me?
保护色. (uhh it's telling me to protect myself? err...)

11. What is happiness?
口袋的天空. (hahaha it's all in the pocket. just a hand's reach away ^^)

12. What's my favorite fetish?
Never End. (uhh that i believe that things will nv end? so not true lor.)

13. How will I be remembered?
单眼皮. (hahaha by my single eyelids? i think i have hidden double eyelids. oh well definitely dun want to be remembered by that. i would rather be remembered by my eyes ^^)

14. What is your love life like?
乖不乖 (>.< i wonder how obedient my bf will be...)

15. What's your life motto?
My faith. (ahaaa finally one that is somewhat logical and makes sense. i think it's kindof true hahaha)

16. What do your parents think of you?
找不到. (ehh i can't be found? hmm perhaps my heart and mind can't be found by them...as in they don't understand me. hmm. I LOVE THIS SONG BTW)

17.What's your favorite hobby?
White Love. (uhhh. finding a bf during white christmas? or do u mean innocent love. T.T no idea it's some jap song i don't understand. haha but it sounds not bad la)

18. What does your best friend really think of you?
Temperature. (what the...? what about my temperature? -.-" this is so accurate la)

19. What's the worst thing about you?
喜欢你没道理. (errr that i like ppl for no reason ah. is that a bad thing? haha)

20. Describe your mind
Bridge. (hey quite accurate! im a bridge for ppl and frenship and stuff! and for learning stuff! yay)

21. How will you die?
只想爱你. (uh by loving someone to death and not getting the love back? that's sad. i don't want to have unrequited love ): i love this song too btw!)

22. How does your crush feel about you?
Someday we'll know. (ok im still waiting for that day? ya i really wonder what my crush feel about me =.=")

23. What is your wedding going to be like?
Fragile Heart. (awww i shall protect our hearts no matter what! hahaha)

24. What about your honeymoon?
芥末巧克力. (uh i haven't tried it b4. isit nice? i guess it means trying new stuff and challenging ourselves to fun stuff? for the adventurous ppl i guess...)

25. Describe the last day of your life
Bidama. (some jap song by ai otsuka that's super upbeat and catchy. does that mean it's going to be happy? or perhaps it's going to be unknown since i don't noe what bidama means T.T haha)

26. Why does life suck?
Neko Ni Fuusen (translation. a cat with a balloon. uhhh so life sucks bcos cats have a balloon? perhaps it means that when animals act like humans and um take balloons?)

27. Why does life rule?
失眠的睡美人. (ehhh bcos sleeping beauty loses sleep waiting for her prince charming? errrr. maybe it rules bcos everyone's waiting for THE moment of love...btw this song is lovely too ^^)

28. What will you be famous for?
暧昧. (COOL! i'll be cool for my ambiguity! kindof nice and mysterious ^^ one of my favourite songs too!)

29. What's the craziest thing you'll ever do?
U-Boat. (i suppose it has to be. since i have no idea what u-boat is. probably some kindof boat. i hate the sea anw.)

30. Will you achieve your goals?
Yesterday and Today. (ok me being so procrastinator i will achieve my goals for once, yesterday and today. =.=" how wonderful)

31. What will your future job be like?
Aimer. (o.O for those who don't take french, it's to like. i hope it means i will like my job.)

32. And your party life?
Amrita ("Translated as the elixir of the Gods, from original Hindu mythology of a drink that could bestow mortality." definition found from google. it's a super sweet jap song. i love it (: so perhaps my party life is sweet?)


33. Overall, will you be happy?
Life is like a boat. (goodness. i alrd said i hate the sea. if it's like a boat won't i be horrified to death. =P if it's a nice big luxury cruise where i can have fun all the time and the boat won't sink then i don't mind, though ^^)

34. Or will you just deal with it?
Birthday Song. (!!!!! i'll deal with it by growing yet another year of wisdom, celebrating my birthdays? oh well a super happy song anw, so should be that im happy la. haha)

overall this meme thing is super inaccurate la. crap. oso bcos i have a lousy variety of songs. i once tried this with my comprehensive playlist and it was better. i rmb it was rather accurate then. haha ohwell.

stupid quizzes.

Zn... Zinc
You scored 25 Mass, 39 Electronegativity, 55 Metal, and 0 Radioactivity!

You have a strong sense of the communal good and you aren't too demanding. You know better than to mess with the powers that be. You value being surronded by the right people, but don't care too much about what people beyond your group think of you. You are also the last element to be mentioned in every vitamin commercial, and have gained recognition throughout the 50+ community as the very symbol of "completeness." Hmm, you might be good at taking care of sick people, but that might be hogwash too.



My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

	You scored higher than 99% on Mass
	You scored higher than 99% on Electroneg
	You scored higher than 99% on Metal
	You scored higher than 99% on Radioactivity

Link: The Which Chemical Element Am I Test written by effataigus on OkCupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

The Sonnet Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf) Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed? Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance. Your exact opposite: Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so. You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls. ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth CONSIDER: The Loverboy

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

k this is super lame T.T i better go do proper work now. zinc is odd. plus the 99% thing is super inaccurate. i mean, my radioactivity is 0 =.=" shouldn't that mean it's higher than everyone else's by 0%?

plus watch the music video in the previous post! it's nice. ^^

过敏 sensitive by rainie 杨丞琳

for some reason i love sad songs. whether im happy or sad, i love to listen to sad songs. i guess that's y i like rainie yang's songs. she sings quite a few sad songs.
one of my personal favourites as follow:



i guess at the last part she's supposed to be jumping off the building?

new music

decided that this blog needs some nice music. the only one i could find is this song "Aimer" from Roméo et Juliette. super touching lyrics and melody. Definitely my favourite french song.

Roméo et Juliette:

R: Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est monter si haut
Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

J: Aimer c'est voler le temps
Aimer c'est rester vivant
Et brûler au cœur d'un volcan
Aimer c'est c'qu'y a de plus grand

R,J: Aimer c'est plus fort que tout
Donner le meilleur de nous
Aimer et sentir son cœur
Aimer pour avoir moins peur

R, J, Chœurs: Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est monter si haut
Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Aimer c'est voler le temps
Aimer c'est rester vivant
Et brûler au cœur d'un volcan
Aimer c'est c'qu'y a de plus grand

Aimer c'est brûler ses nuits
Aimer c'est payer le prix
Et donner un sens à sa vie
Aimer c'est brûler ses nuits

Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est monter si haut
Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer...

haha shall not be bothered to translate. the lyrics generally are metaphors and mushy stuff about love. touching. i'll never forget this song.

minesweeper

im feeling weird now and is simply playing minesweeper. actually i should be doing homework and mugging for the tests coming up but well didn't feel like doing anything worthwhile, so well here i am blogging ^^" why are we forced to retake english! ahhhh saddddd. sighh i dun want to sit through the whole 1 hour 40 min paper again, esp summary ): i mean all the efforts we put in for the previous one was wasted.

argh shall not think about it. things to rmb!

week 9 mon: math SA2 + chinese SA1. later on go through eng previously-summative-turned-formative assessment.
week 9 tues: chem SPA
week 10 mon: photo-taking -rmb!-
week 10 tues: english compre -sigh again-
week 10 thurs: chem EOI

perhaps going watch da vinci code somewhere around post exam period to celebrate. -cheers up-

i think that everyone is a leader in a way, just that u dun need a leadership role to show it. in daily life u can do it. of course it is difficult to show the leadership in everyone. u need initiative...but i must agree that monitors blah aren't always leadership roles, but that doesn't mean they cannot be. some chairpersons and prefects can really lead the class and even the whole school. especially since they are holding the title, they take more initiative to lead, they have the licence to lead that kindof thing.

ok im going go to sleep. -plonks flat on face out of fatigue-

wheewheewhee

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Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

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lalala. HAHA yes indeed im rather lazy! me have slothness.

time to revise eng/math/chem/physics/chinese/bio. that's a lot. :O

boink---by cherica

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

ahh philo test tmr. crap. go study le. byeeee.

love, cherica.

boreddd

holidays are realllyyyyyyyyy boring! i actually kindof miss school. but i like holidays only when i get to go to other countries and learn new interesting things and have fun and enjoy myself! not when im stuck at home with that thick -and a leetle boring- book and my computer. nothing to dooooooooo.

and my brother isn't around to play games with meee. sigh.

anw i watched harry potter 4 ytd with blaws, and it was rather nice. although i think they should have elaborated more on the quidditch world cup, get a thinner-and-younger-looking viktor krum, and shorten the first task a leetle, and get ron to change his hairstyle. hmm. yah, but overall it's quite good, and i rather enjoyed it. oh and they should do more on the last part where crouch junior confesses. under the influence of the veritaserum.

they missed out totally on the house-elves as well as Ludo Bagman!!! Winky and Dobby didn't appear at ALL. nor did the thousand galleons. leetle stuff like that that makes the story more convincing and complete. probably it's difficult to make those house-elves thingies and introduce so many characters, when many other new characters are introduced alrd. like rita skeeter and cho chang and fleur and krum and the two schools.

the frenchy accent was terrific! and madame maxime and fleur absolutely look frenchyyyyy. heh. and i wonder why madame maxime is taller than hagrid, and didn't get angry with him, nor state that she has "big bones" when he asked her which of her parents are giants. i quite looked forward to that part u noee.

especially for those who didn't read the book b4, they will wonder about the priori incantatem thingy, about how mr. crouch died -killed by his son-, stuff about crouch junior like how he escaped from azkaban and so on.

lala. cedric's not bad-looking, and i think yinfei will be sad that malfoy hardly appeared in the movie, like only one scene or something. haha. qw likes cedric! ^^ well, harry looks weird, and blaws, do u still think his neck is fat? =P i like snape! yes i agree with blaws, he reminds me of may tan! hee. snapeysnapeysnapeysnape! and poor hermione looks like she's going to cry half the time, and the yule ball was nice. though it was too short. it's like b4 u noe it, hermione quarrels with ron and orders ron and harry up to bed. haha.

but it's a good movie anyway, so do go watch if u haven't alrd.


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heh. im normal. indeed.

drama nite

Drama nite is finally over! well we got third, but it's better than getting fourth! heehee. we won 204! i can't believe it, our class was practically bouncing up and down when we realised we got third. i mean it's just third but we were like we got first. =.="

well, we got into the top four classes and to perform on drama nite, and that's a wonderful feat alrd, for our class. >.< well but it was kind of fun, except there were too many blackouts. i think we should have left the lights on and the props ppl can just move about while we keep quiet. then dawn can move the light sticks for us to continue. at least it doesn't seem such as long and biggg pause that everyone start talking and get restless. yah. and i love qw's exaggerations! they were so funny that the judges were laughing. i saw the principal laughing! hee.

yepp. and i keep remembering bits and pieces of the play after drama nite! what to doooo. i practically memorised the whole script. and during drama nite poor yanyee was the only one to say "the mother said". the rest of us forgot to! poor yanyee. >.< ah well. maybe i should type out the script here? this way i will never forget it. yep.

Jack and the Beanstalk

Jack and his mother lived in a house
So dank, so rank, it frightened every mouse
Vines crawled
Spiders trawled
Windows were shattered
Every nook tattered
[Each cranny battered]
It was a pitiful excuse for a farm
And the state of their finances was much cause for alarm.

Jack's mother said," We're stony broke!
Go out and find some wealthy bloke,
Who'll buy our cow, just say she's sound,
And worth at least a hundred pound.
But don't you dare to let him know,
That she's as old as billy-o."

Jack led the old pink cow away
For this old girl would someone pay?
Over the hills and far away,
A magician appeared, possibly gay.
Jack thought," I've got me some prey."
He parked old daisy and began to say,
"I've got here, sir, one heck of a cow!
The sight of her udders will make you go wow!"
The magician wrinkled his nose, he stroked his chin,
And said," Though all I've got is this one bean,
My bean here she's full of fight.
All she needs is one short night,
To grow oh so high,
Transcending the sky!"
"I'll take it!" Jack cried.
Slapping the pink cow on her back.
"Off you go!" he said with a grin,
"I've got myself a mighty bean!"

Jack returned home over the moon,
He couldn't stop grinning like a loon.
And said, "Oh mumsie dear, look what your clever little boy has got.
I've got, I really don't know how,
A super trade-in for our cow!"
The mother said," You little creep.
I'll bet you sold her much too cheap."
When Jack produced one lousy bean,
His startled mother, turning green,
Leaped high up into the air and cried,
"I'm absolutely stupefied!!!
You crazy boy! Do you really mean,
You sold our daisy for a beannnnnnn!?"
She snatched the bean, she yelled "You chump!"
And flung it on the rubbish dump.
Then summoning up all her power,
She beat the boy for half an hour,
Using (and nothing could be meaner),
The handle of a vacuum cleaner.

At ten pm or thereabout,
The little bean began to sprout.
By morning it had grown so tall,
You couldn't see the top at all.
Jack cried, "Mum, admit it now!
It's better than a rotten cow!"
The mother said," You lunatic!
Where are the beans that I can pick?
There's not one bean, it's bare as bare!"
"No, no! You look up there!
Look very high and you'll behold,
Each single leaf it solid gold!"
By gollikins, the boy was right!
Now, glistening in the morning light,
The mother actually percieves,
A mass of lovely golden leaves.
She yells out loud,"My sainted souls!
I'll sell the Mini, buy a Rolls!
Don't stand there and gape, you little clot.
Get up there quick and grab the lot!"

Jack was nimble, Jack was keen,
He scrambled up the mighty bean.
Up, up he went without a stop,
But just as he was near the top,
A ghastly frightening thing occurred --
Not far above his head he heard,
A big deep voice, a rumbling thing,
That made the very heavens ring.
It shouted loud,"FEE FI FO FUM
I SMELL THE BLOOD OF AN ENGLISHMAN!"
Jack was frightened, Jack was quick
And down he climbed in half a tick.

"Oh mum! Believe you me
There's something nasty up our tree!
I saw him mum! My gizzard froze!
A Giant with a clever nose!"
"A clever nose!" his mother hissed.
"You must be going round the twist!"
"He smelled me out, I swear it mum!
He said he smelled an Englishman!"
The mother said, "And well he might!
I told you every single night
To take a bath because you smell.
But would you do it, would you hell!
You even make your mother shrink
Because of your unholy stink!"
Jack answered, "Well if you're so clean,
Why don't you climbd the crazy bean."
The mother cried," By gad I will!
There's life within the old dog still!"
She hitched her skirts above her knee,
And disappeared right up the tree.
Now would the Giant smell his mum?
Jack listened for the fee-fo-fum.
He gazed aloft. He wondered when
The dreaded words would come. And then...

From somewhere high above the ground,
There came a frightful crunching sound.
He heard the Giant mutter twice,
"By gosh, that tasted very nice,
Although...(and this is grumpy tones)
I wish there weren't so many bones."
"By Christopher! By gum!
The Giant's eaten up my mum!
He smelled her out! She's in his belly!
I had a hunch that she was smelly."
Jack stood there gazing longingly
Upon the huge and golden tree.
He murmered softly,"Golly-gosh,
I guess I'll have to take a wash,
If I'm going to climb this tree,
Without the Giant smelling me.
In fact, a bath's my only hope."
He rushed indoors and grabbed the soap.
He scrubbed his body everywhere.
He even washed and rinsed his hair.
He did his teeth, he blew his nose,
And went out smelling like a rose.

Once more he climbed the mighty bean.
The Giant sat there, gross, obscene.
Muttering through his vicious teeth,
(While Jack sat tensely just beneath)
Muttering loud,"FEE FI FO FUM
RIGHT NOW, I CAN'T SMELL ANYONE."
Jack waited till the Giant slept,
Then out along the boughs he crept
And gathered so much gold, I swear
He was an instant millionaire!
"A bath, does seem to pay.
I'm going to have one everyday!"

THE END.

haha rather funny at some parts. yippee! i typed it all out myself! from memory! ^^
add in some exaggerated expressions and actions, loudness and softness, some imagination, and expressiveness, as well as props, et VOILA! that's our 2nd runner-up play! heehee, gl didn't have to memorise any lines, and yet she's the main character---the beanstalk! haha. "Jack and the Beanstalk" yeah? the beanstalk is in the title!

yah we had gl moving down and up when Jack or the mother was climbing up and down respectively. yah so u imagine Jack is actually moving up rather than the beanstalk is moving down. haha. i think the judges gave us some points for that creativity. :)

And I will miss all of you 207! We've been together for 2 years, and though there had been plenty of differences, it had still been a wonderfully great time together all the same! I wish all of u all the best, and good luck for the many years to come! -that includes me too. heh ^^-

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With friends: I prefer people who are careful with their money and who make plans ahead of time. I like my friends to be loyal, dependable and on time. I am serious about love and show it in many practical ways.
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p.s. seee. my brain is GOLDEN in colour. and it's rather rare, with 18% of people having it! hee. blaws' is green and mine is gold! ^^

we got in!

yes we got into drama nite finals as the top 4 classes. hurray!

it was really unexpected, provided our horrid class spirit and stuff, and our play wasn't THAT good. in fact, 209's was nicer than ours, and better. but they didn't get in bcos they exceeded the time limit by two minutes i think. apparently it's a hugeeee mistake to exceed the time limit and stuff. while our play is too short. only 5 min plus when the time limit is 8 minutes! yes, so we were asked to lengthen our play and stuff for the finals. i hope we won't be 4th, at least let us get third? after all, it's our last last last event of the year that we will ever be able to do together as a class 207!

sigh i guess i will really miss all my classmates. but it can't be helped. there's bound to be times of separations and reunions. i hope that some of my classmates get to be in the same class as me next year. but it's a whole new bright future ahead of us! sec three beginning i shall bond and have loads of friends! and hope for SMP. >.< yes and stuff.

yah loads to look forward to i guess. and wish us good luck for drama nite! it's totally unprepared and getting worse by the day. >.< yay i memorised my parts! heehee. oh i forgot to mention that i am choral speaker. in the middle-pitch group. and im not the main one lah, just the back row one. i always laugh when qw makes all those exaggerated gestures. even though im on stage and performing. =.=" i hope the audience will laugh like i did. but during prelim rounds they only laughed at the beanstalk! they said that the beanstalk was really cute, growing up and down. haha.

yah and the giant was scary and convincing. hurray for jill and her unending props and costumes! yah and the make up and stuff. jill has practically anything and everything to do with drama at home. haha.

yep. so that's about all. wish us good luck! by right it's the last day of school ytd, but monday there's still drama nite performance, and we have to go school early at 9am so we can rehearse. then rest our voices in the afternoon then go full-force for drama nite! all the best, 207!

freedom at last!

yes freedom at last! we went to french fest after our last exam on friday, and it wasn't very interesting, but well, it's quite fun anw. there were some shows with ppl dancing on stage, and we walked around taking goodies. bhu was swooning over some very cute french guy, and there were another french one who spoke to us that was very handsome. and blaws went and got his autograph! for some weird reason. for fun lah, then we all oso asked for his autograph lor, since he was signing for blaws. haha it was so funny.

yah, and i changed blog music. this is arabesque no. 1, by claude debussy. nice? haha.

hope we will do well for netball carn. off i go to play! ^^

eoys

yes i know i know my eoys aren't over yet. but i felt like blogging, and so here i am. so far the eoys have been terrible, with most of them being horrid, like i couldn't finish or it was too difficult or i didn't know how to answer or that kind of thing. tmr's left maths. hope that can do well. i haven't been doing well in maths for the past year. this is my last chance.

oh well. i don't want to think about eoys.

anw, i realised there's french fest all over singapore.

Revel in the culture and lifestyle of France at this inaugural French Festival in Singapore! In an effort to reinforce the image of the French business community in Singapore and continue to build the ‘France’ brand, The French Chamber of Commerce in Singapore together with their partners will put together a 5-day exhibition at Civic Plaza. The exhibition will showcase various French products and services brought to you by Elle Magazine, Club Med, Air France, Renault, Peugeot and many more. Highlights of the exhibition include high-end fashion shows by Jean Paul Gaultier, Kenzo and Givenchy, and other activities which allow you to sample and peruse the various booths that are located within the exhibition. So come on down to Civic Plaza from 19 to 23 October for an authentic French experience.

just an example. just go google about french fest and there's loads of stuff. this ngee ann city one is just one of the events. here's more:

The French Affair with Singapore

13 October -30 November 2005

Organised by the French Chamber of Commerce with the support of the French Embassy and the Alliance Française in Singapore, this festival targeted at Singaporeans, is a way of expressing our appreciation for the warm hospitality received here, as well as our wish to share with Singaporeans French culture, heritage and savoir-faire.

It is also meant to provide an opportunity to get to know and appreciate France better in all domains ranging from culture to high technology, fashion to food, and from wine to tourism.

France and its cultural heritage

1) - Exhibitions :

From 13 October 2005 to 17 January 2006 :
Alliance Française in Singapore
Orchard Road
Royal Plaza on Scotts Hotel

13 - 30 October 2005 at Alliance Française :

“Morceaux choisis” by Dominique Perrault, winner of the Mies Van des Rohe Prize in 1997. Some of his works can be found at the Alliance Française in Singapore and the National Library in Paris.

5 - 13 November 2005 at Alliance Française :

exhibition of paintings entitled “Harmonies” by Marc Rambeau. A bridge between Asian technique and Western tradition. His works reflect his life experiences and cultural curiosity.

27 October to 17 January 2006 along Orchard Road :

Exhibition of 110 photos by photographer Yann Arthus-Bertrand entitled “Earth from above”. This exhibition displayed along the grilles in the Luxembourg garden was admired and appreciated by thousands of Parisians and tourists alike. It has met with success in all the major capitals it was displayed in.

5 to 30 November 2005 at Royal Plaza on Scotts :

Exhibition by Karen Joubert entitled “Dream and Passion”. Ms Joubert is a painter belonging to the new genre where expressionism and new pop art meet.

2) - “Innovation-Creativity” From 19 to 23 October 2005 At Ngee Ann City - Civic Plaza

In an air-conditioned tent of 1,500 sq. metres:

French expertise and know-how will be displayed. Visitors will be able to browse stands showcasing tourism, wine, media, transport, aeronautics, automobiles, fashion, that highlight the French spirit of Innovation, Creativity and Quality, and which have contributed to France’s success. Numerous attractive prizes will be given to visitors by the exhibitors.

3 major events will take place within this exhibition space. A podium 28 metres long will be used to showcase the latest Autumn-Winter collections of three fashion designers: 19 October for the opening evening event: Jean-Paul Gaultier 21 October fashion show sponsored by Pernod Ricard: Givenchy 23 October for the closing evening: Kenzo

A VIP evening event organised by Club Med, in association with Mastercard, will take place on 20 October.

A show specially created by the Club Med teams will be presented every evening of the week as well as two times a day during the weekend.

3) - 21st French Film Festival in Singapore From 24 October to 6 November 2005 At Alliance Française and Cathay Cineplex Orchard

The latest French films, of which some have yet to be released on commercial screens in France, will be presented for two weeks. Some world renowned French personalities will be invited to come to Singapore on the occasion of this event.

4) - Food Festival From 19 October to 6 November 2005 At Front Plaza - Plaza Singapura

Carrefour will organise in an air-conditioned tent, a food festival where gastronomic products and French wines will be displayed. Culinary demonstrations will be conducted by French ladies who are happy to share their family recipes.

The Alliance Française will give some French courses to “learn how to speak French in 5 minutes”...

yeah, anyone interested u can go. look at the last line! alliance francaise will give french courses! in 5 minutes! goodness. >.< anyway the above reminds me of advertisements. it's from tourism board. Uniquely Singapore.

not forgetting french twisters! inspiration from the froddish twins -exchange glances with blaws- [froddish shall be how i differentiate them from other twins!] and blaws. googled and found some website with loads on it. click here! haha.

"Bonjour Madame Sans Souci
Combien sont ces six saucissons ci et combien sont ces six saucissons là?
Six sous Madame sont ces six saucissons ci et six sous aussi sont ces six saucissons là!"

translation: "Hello Mrs Without Concern
How much are these six sausages here and how much are these six sausages there?
Six pennies Madam are these six sausages here and six pennies also are these six sausages there!"

yep yep. everyone good luck for ur exams. for those who have finished, hope u have done well. ^^ tmr is going to be freedom!

french eoy tmr!

tmr is french eoy! i am extremely worried.

i had a dream this morning, [somehow i awoke in the morning] or rather nightmare. some things happened in the dream on the morning of my french exam, and then somehow i realised i was late at three o'clock, then somehow the time of exam had been 4 pm, then somehow my mum and brother brought me to bugis where there were soooooo many people and traffic and we moved like turtles, and there is some maid waddling along right in front of the car =.=" and then my mum realises i want to go bishan, not bugis, then she asked me to take mrt there! i was soooo worried and scared i took a taxi and rushed all the way to moelc and reached at 5.30pm. by then, all the students have finished their work and is checking, i think the paper was supposed to end at 6pm. and it was the scariest and horrifyingest thing that could EVER HAPPEN. and i had to be awakened by my mum, bcos i apparently had ignored the alarm clock, so tight my nightmare had gripped me.

it was very scaryyyyyyyy and it felt so real, although the details were blurrish. im so afraid something like this will happen!

not that it will. i won't let it anw. it's so impossible. bugis?!

anw, bonne chance pour ton examen demain, tout le monde! for the benefit of those who don't understand, good luck for your exam tmr, everyone! this is more for sec 2 german and jap students. haha yeah. off i go to mug for french!

you're squiffy

hee An Inspector Calls is over! i can say that my favourite quote is "you're squiffy." this is NOT influenced by blaws. hee.

lit. test was ok...just that everyone else seemed to have written much more than i did. like blaws wrote 3 and a half, gaosi 3 and one quarter, and yinfei 12 pages!!!!?????? left line of course, but 6 pages...!? and i wrote a pitiful 2 and one quarter pages. nvm. i wrote about the same amount as eelyn. ^^

i wonder if anyone did the third qn. it's really challenging. i won't be able to crap it. really.

and im not sure if my essay is good. it is rather lacking in quotes, since i didn't memorise much quotes about inspector, but loadsssss about the birlings. =.=" nvm.

oral was ok. just that i didn't mention my personal experience. and eric lau was nice. he laughed twice. shall not elaborate. generally ok and he nodded vigorously at times. plus im the first person, so he seemed very eager to try out all his qns. >.< like he's asking me at least 5 qns! he was scaning his beloved list of qns, looking for one to ask me. and everytime i thought it was over, he asked another qn! =P horrible. it seemed eons b4 he reluctantly said "that's all." orals was quite relaxing actually. hmm.

and rs is horrible. shall not think about it.

lala i want to climb to the very toppppp of the rock wall! but it's not quite likely as our class is given too little time! bcos of all those holidays and stuff. sighhhh. i want to climb to the top! but i only managed to reach the overhang. which is like blaws, 3 blocks above the red line. however, it was alrd very scary, and i got tired when i stopped there looking for a foothold, without avail. and ended up holding on mostly with my trembling and not-at-all trustworthy hands.

sigh. if only there are nice footholds. however, that lane is the easiest, so yah. it's quite easy to get up there. but im tallll. and i could see so highhhhhhhhhh. and the first person i saw was qw. =.=" i was yelling "FALLINGGG!!!" many times. as my hands about to break off and no one replied me. instead, i heard something about "the puple one!" >.<

finally, eelyn the great -hurray!- said something like "fall on" and then i did. and i bounced about for a while b4 trying to do the L-shape thingy that os keeps ranting about. haha. falling is fun! and much less tiring than holding on there with one foot on the wall and two hands holding on desperately. bah my arms are weak.

however, there is no more chance of climbing, except for assessment. hope i get to go on the easy lane, so that i can try to climb up to the top. if not...then too bad...haha

yes and i hope someone from our class at least manages to reach the top!

boink. boink. boink. 100 000 000 000 000 is actually one hundred trillion! it takes one hundred trillion of atoms to fill up one square area of sides one cm. hee.

and googol is 10^100. which means there are one hundred zeros behind a "1" and yah. haha and google was supposed to be googol, but bcos of a spelling error, it became google. i think google sounds nicer than "googol".

it sounds like some weird monster-cum-ape-cum-hairything-like giant. yah. and sounds so primitive and un-civilised.

left eng. summary, geog. ws, chem. assignment and some new ws. and rsssss has two things to do. shall not elaborate as blaws -glares- will comment about how i should not tell others what i do for rs. like others will care. it's what they have to do too...

nighty

here's stuff about sunsets! it's really interesting, about why sunsets/sunrises are pinkish, orangish and red. haha: click here

yes and now im officially a member of scitare! lalala im sooooo happy! i shall be less ignorant in the future! and noe more sciencey stuff! hee...

Where are the secrets to the universe kept?

The answers do not lie in technology.

Technology is but a stepping stone to the next question.

We are fueled by a restless imagination; an endless sense of wonder that has brought our world closer together and led us ever deeper into space.

What we've discovered along the way is that all the secrets to the universe are contained in the boundless reaches of the human mind.

computer studies

well, this must be the first time i blog in com studs. hmm am bored and i don't want to do geog homework [which i brought to com studs], so here i am. lalala.

i am wonderful at multi-tasking. The teacher doesn't teach us anything these days! everyone just do whatever they want. >.< i wonder if this is good...and our lit. teacher is absent today. another free block this week. ytd was our history teacher, a great favourite in our class, esp. a certain someone. hee. 207nners will noe what i mean.

boink! i have rsssssssss to annotate by tmr! humph it's such a big pile. i have to do lots more for rs. this is so maddening! all by next tuesday!

i am crapping.

oh! tonight is National Science Challenge!!!!! everyone must see! rgs is in it today!! at 7.30pm tonight, channel 5. go watch it! i missed last week's one, but it didn't have rgs. blossom was ranting about how mgs was better than swiss cottage, but in the end swiss cottage got in instead of mgs. well. it's not fair that boys are better than girls in science! gah. but acs got out too. so yeah. not all boys are good in science. or rather, good ENOUGH.

i just realised that gifted students have a harder time than others. as in our lives are really stressful and full of activities all the time as compared to other schools. im sure other top schools have the same case. like in this report that is about gifted children being more stressed, one case is about how a girl has to cope with her CCA, french lessons, and her upcoming piano practical exams all at once. sounds so familiar, right?

it's exactly what most students in top schools go through. weird, though. i didn't quite think that it is stressful. until RS CAME ALONG. this is a nightmare! that lasts for months and months and never gets done! there's just a neverending list of things to do. it's like we do research, then interviews, then surveys, then on and on. now it's more research and the report and annotating all the research. it's like for everything we do, there's other things to do, as well as more things to work on what we did! gah.

i won't want to be a researcher or a scientist if this is what i have to go through. everyday of my life till i retire. i hate reports. more than graphs. yes, and i hate graphs. curve graphs esp. it gets all messy and wrong, and u have to do it again. and it takes such a long time!

all right. this should be enough. better work on my geog now. it's due tmr. >.<

>.<

it's sept hols! heehee i haven't blogged for ages yes and loads happened since i last blogged. but i guess time flies, and im lazy, and also, life's interesting! even in peaceful and harmonious singapore. haha and i love books! -that's random by the way-

yeah and i have finished homework. but i shall list out the stuff to be done:

-chi. yue du bao gao [4 of it]
-chi. yue bao hou gan xiang [aug.]
-rs stuff
-Lit. handout [on relationships blah]

yeah that should be it. of course not forgetting my books and at the dolphin bay. hee.

so much homework! eeeeeeee. i just want to read.

yay tmr has march of the penguins! chinese version. bcos blaws and i decided that if it's french we will be too busy looking at subtitles that we miss the nice nice pictures of those cuteeeee penguins! so we will take the chinese one. at cathay! but me want to go with my mum to suntect city for the food exhibition! from alllllll over the world! imagine sushi, salad and ice cream! and pasta and nice chinesey food and westerny food! gosh. -an attempt at imitating blaws. :p-

yum yum. lalala it's my grandma's birthday today! but it's the nong li one lah. my brother loves to mutter to himself recently, esppppppp when he's around me. weird, non?

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hee of course im brilliant in english! bcos im clever ^^

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ooh this is interesting...counselor! how apt :) it's quite true. except for the creative part. and maybe the perfectionist part. -glares- hah. throughout the whole quiz i gave conflicting answers, bcos that's how i felt like. sometimes i am outgoing and sometimes i keep to myself. i guess that's why im a "complex person". heehee. 2% of the population onlyy! hah! im rarer than blaws! yay!

boink

sorry for not posting for such a long time. i can't be bothered to. and was too engrossed reading. anyway, happy belated birthday, singapore! it's crappy but oh well. look at this

it's interesting. and highly amusing as it really looks like national day mtv. it's some scenes selected from stephen chow's movies, and they fit so nicely with our national day song! esp the chorus part! the dance moves are HILARIOUS. heehee.

hope that blaws will recover soon. she believes that i caused her to be sick and had spread her my disease, and is very upset that she can't go to school. poor blaws. her cough is abnormal. bcos i didn't cough so much as she did. i didn't like coughing anyway, and even if my throat itches, i don't want to cough so i don't. but sometimes u juz have to cough. and you cough and you cough and you cough.

and hurray. everyone around u has juz got ur virus! -bounce- i think this is what happened to blaws. however she is coughing soooooo much. i don't believe i coughed as much as she does. she reallyyyyyy should have gone for x-ray! it might be pneumonia u noe. and apparently it isn't dengue fever.

good for her. but you don't have to have rashes even if u have dengue fever. it depends on how u react to the virus. and different ppl react differently. haha. that's quoted from my bro. something like that.s o ppl beware. recently there's loads of aedes mosquitoes around choa chu kang and yishun area. i always attract mosquitoes and they juz love making a wonderful meal out of me. it can't be helped. im sweet. :)

well, there are loads that happened, but i don't want to blog them so there. juz feels sad that my mum keeps harping about my piano teacher and stuff like that. and im reading too much books until i feel guilty now. like i don't do any homework but sit there and read and read and read. and my mum going on and on in the background is really distracting. gah.

ahhh we have lit test and maths test this thurs and fri respectively!!! >.<

next week it's french contrôle 3! and there's hist test. next tues and fri respectively.

then there's geog test on week ten. to sum up our term three. trust me. throughout the whole of this term three, we had some kind of assessments each and every week. whether they are pts or written tests. at least one. and most of the time it's around 2 or three. sigh.

im sure term four won't be very relaxing either. in fact, it will fly past in a blur, juz like term three is, -hello it's the middle of august alrd????!!!! sept hols are coming up- and lots of preparation and revision for eoys. shudders. then it's dec hols and then it's sec 3 and a new year begins again. eeks.

shuddershuddershuddershuddershudder.

am feeling weird right now.

i have no idea what to do. i feel my life is meaningless. no im not depressed. i want to be happy. but i keep thinking of all the things i dislike doing but HAVE TO DO for the rest of my life, b4 i can finally graduate and become an adult. things like tests and assessments and essays and essays and essays and oral exams and cca and homework. and lack of sleep -that's random. i seriously need more sleep.-

so yah. and hope everyone have a great time doing i don't noe what. and good luck for the upcoming tests. >.<

sick

First, I must say that this is indeed a very bad time to be sick and NOT go to school. Especially, on a friday, with basketball SA [not that i care. i wouldn't have taken pe even if i went to sch], english SA and physics EOI, and CIP.

I will have to take the english sa and physics eoi after school or something. and take cip on another day.

questions i have in mind now.
- anyone else absent? [i seriously doubt so. why be absent on a day that is so...impt!!!!!]
- how long are the eng sa and the physics eoi? [so i can set a time with ms linn and mr. tan respectively. obviously not very nice.]
- anyone is taking cip on another day from our class?
- any homework? [only for history i guess, since it's the only exam-free lesson. only good thing about friday is that it's mostly exams and u noe u are not missing much lessons.]
- as for pe, who hasn't taken the basketball sa? im sure there's some ppl who are sick or something. and with mr. chee's favourite lectures, i believe not many people are assessed in the end.

All right. to real business. basically now i am sniffing and coughing like mad -partially due to the cold rainy weather- and also having weird temperatures that fluctuate up and down whenever my medication takes effect and it's time for yet another dose of it.

Let's go back to thursday night. it's been another normal night for me, with my fever and cough -yes it is normal for the past at least 10 days- and i couldn't really concentrate on studying for physics. so i studied for a while, and fiddled with rs, and then went to sleep, thinking i will study more physics b4 school the next day. i OBVIOUSLY have to go. or else i will miss two tests. i will NEVER miss them for anything.

of course, except for parents. just so happens that on thursday i feel worse than usual, and my temperature soared to 39.2 degrees celsius. it's fine for me, i can simply go to sleep and wake up the next day and go school lah, but NO. to my mum it's as though i am being fried in the oven.

she start to fret. i tell her i had fever about 11 days ago, on my birthday 17th july, yes and it continued for a while and i recovered from it for a few days b4 having it again somewhere on the day b4. and im fine, really a sleep will be fine. and i was so sleepy, since i was sick and needed rest and all. mind you i took plenty of nap earlier on that day, and skipped french -for the FIRST TIME!!!!!- bcos i wanted to go home and sleep. -sobs-

apparently my fever always escalates whenever i take naps. yes and i feel all feverish and i wanted to sleep. but no my mum refused to let me sleep. at approximately 10.30pm, at which i should have been at dreamland because of my sick state, she places a cold pad on my forehead. and it's juz like putting ice on ur head. and it's so cold that after a minute or so i push it off.

it makes my whole head ACHE with coldddddness, freezing cold, and also numbbbbb. it's horrible. then my mum refused to turn off the lights, bcos she claims that she shall call my father who is out for dinner to bring me to the hospital. she went on and on nagging about how long my fever and sickness has been going on, and it will fryyyyyyy my brain alive, and demand that i shall NOT go to school -to which i wince in fear and argue that there are tests!-.

and my mum pounces on it and goes AHA! ok she didn't but she says all the more i should rest and not fry my brain further or something like that. i was so upset and just wanted to sleeppppp. couldn't they leave a poor sick one to rest! and after several more doses of head-numbing and aching cold pads, with the lights still on, i couldn't sleep. and finally my mum got rid of the cold pads and used my face-towel.

it's much better, cooling but not too cold. basically my mum got me to change into some clothes and started packing my water bottle and a jacket in case i felt cold and stuff like that. oh and my previous medications. she is practically positive that i have some unknown germ in my lungs and stomach that is causing this unceasing fever and cough, as well as a full stomach everytime i eat something.

yes i feel extremely full when i eat anything. and feel like vomiting, esp after coughing very hard. and slightly breathless and my lungs are practically bursting. -dies- and my father decides it's pneumonia, while my mum thinks it's dengue fever. though i don't have the rashes. i have plenty of mosquito bites though. i have very sweet and attractive blood.

basically at around 11 plus i get sent off in my father's car to NUH, and eventually to children's emergency. i had to wear this mask. by then my temperature has dropped to 37.4, which is what i predicted would happen had they left me sleeping in my comfortable bed at homeee. they should have at least sent me on saturday, with all the tests overrrrrrrr!

my mum was nagging about how it will become worse and i will have to be admitted to hospital, and get showered in COLD FREEZING WATER. and how bad it will be. she loves exaggerating. she was exaggerating to my dad about how my eyes fall upwards and my face is very pale and my lips are very red. =.="

and i went to the fever facility, where i took my weight and it's 43.5kg! i guess it's bad bcos it means that my muscles are losing weight. nvm but they took my blood pressure and stuff like that, then left me trying to sleep in that uncomfortable chair.

it's straight-backed, so i can't get comfortable lying down. so i leaned to one side, and the other, but the mask is very annoying, and it's extremely hot breathing up ur spectacles all the time due to the mask. it's just like the mask is trapping all the heat around my mouth and nose. GAH.

anyway i tried to sleep, and spent a longg time there, watching some other little girl sleeping on a nice comfortable bed, with her mother patting her and her father reading some book by the side. my parents were walking around the place and standing around my booth. yes there are like booths with a wall separating different booths, and mine is no. 11. yah and there's this biohazard bin and a cleaner came around in a mask and gloves and tongs picking up litter and throwing them away into a yellow bag. and stuff like that.

basically the nurses there are pretty nice, and they are rather friendly. but i waited, and waited, and waited in that stifling mask and the air-con that is not very nice and the chair that is uncomfortable, until around 1am. finally a doctor came. it's a female! i don't like male ones anyway. she's doctor ng and very nice. and she asked me and my parents about my condition, and we juz told her lah, and showed her my medication and stuff like that.

then she checked my heartbeat and lungs and breathing and stuff like that, and asked me about my coughing and my fever and about how i feel very full after eating just a little food. although i was very hungry b4 eating, the sighting of food and eating it makes me feel bloateddd. and water, too.

anyway, she asked me to take a blood test and a x-ray to check for any germs or viruses that is in me. yah so eventually i am given this cup that says "SPECIMEN" on it and my mum says it's to take my urine sample. =.="

i never took urine samples b4 and i am disgusted with the idea. bcos i didn't want to dirty myself or my fingers with my urine, but it couldn't be helped. just so happens i felt urgent. it turned out fine, and i didn't dirty myself. -beams- success! then had to change into some weird robe and took the x-ray. then after going back to sleep -or trying to go back to sleep- i had to take the blood test. i was happy bcos it's what i have been waiting for!

i am familiar with blood tests and are not afraid of them, and so im happy. and the nurse was nice and treated me as though im a kid afraid of injections -heh im not- and she took the injection, and i was looking at it. it was sooooo cool. i didn't feel scared. weird. i used to feel scared. and it was painful, but i didn't wince either. and then she pulled the needle out of my flesh, and put this cotton over it and asked me to hold it, and i did. it felt better than the initial injection, which hurts the most. and then she put the plaster over it. and she was shaking my blood sample, probably to get it mixed or something. heehee.

something like using the microtubes and stuff in bio.

and while i was stoning on the chair i was thinking about physics stuff. gamma rays are shortest and the whole order to radiowaves. to think of it, i have to find mr. tan to do the eoi. i hateeeee making up for stuff. esp alone. bcos i don't like to. humph.

anyway, by that time it's around 2plus, and i went to my car to sleep, it's more comfortable bcos i could lie flat on the back seats, and waited for the x-ray and blood test results. eventually my father got my medicine, and the results, and a MC that declares me unfit for 5 days, until tuesday. and since it's alrd 3am when i reached home, it seems quite impossible for me to go to school on friday.

once i reached home i plopped onto bed and went to sleep. of course not b4 my mum giving my medicine. then i had a heavenly sleep that is dreamless until 8am my mum woke me up for another dose of medication, and at 9am again. it's sooo irritating when i want to sleep. but my poor mum and dad, they slept later than me but woke earlier than me. and my dad called the school or something. i couldn't be bothered. sleep was best.

for almost the whole day i slept. although there were homework i could do. but basically i was too tired. or it was simply comfortable lying like that. and i just fell asleep. haha and i read my book at night. and then went to sleep. although i felt very hungry. sleep is the best bcos u don't feel hungry. my parents give me food in small portions so i won't feel too bloated and full. and now i feel hungry all the time until i get to eat food.

sigh. i think flu is catching up with me. i hope i can go to school on monday and recover by then, but my mc is until tuesday...