eoys are over!

hurray! for my sec 4 sch life is coming to an end! at least for the most part of it ^^ eoys are over! chem was quite bad but ok lah just that i didn't complete everything ):

i see slack-er times coming...-ihope options won't be too taxing...- mingle2 has quite a lot of cool quizzes ^^"

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HAHAHA SUPER FUNNY MANNN like making a mountain out of a molehill! the subs aren't true of course but it's super funny


courtesy of the UnHappy Planet Index website, go and try it!

Happy Planet Index
Your personal Happy Planet Index (HPI) is 39.3, which is similar to that of countries such as Ireland, Palestine or Poland. Sorry to say that this is below the world average of 46, and about the same as the UK average. Your score is about the same as that of your country, 40.8.

Below is a breakdown of the various components that make up your HPI score.

You: 39.3
Average: 43.3
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Life Expectancy
Congratulations. Your life expectancy is above average for your gender and country. Whether it's eating well, not smoking, getting regular exercise, or just being lucky enough to have the right genes, you're doing something right. However, nobody's perfect and we could all improve our health a little! Aside from getting all the above bits of your lifestyle right, there are some more surprising factors that can influence your life expect - for example, giving up your car, avoiding living alone, moving out of the city or shrugging off stress.

You: 85
Average: 80.6
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Ecological Footprint
Your ecological footprint is 4.64 global hectares, or 2.58 planets. This is equivalent to the average in Austria, Netherlands or Hong Kong.

Your ecological footprint is below average for the country you live in.

You are using between and one and a half and three times your share of the planet's resources (assuming no resources are put aside for other species). This is an amount typical of people in many industrialised countries, though just below the average for the UK. As such, if you are living in an industrialised country, you are probably doing some things well and some things not so well in terms of reducing your ecological impact. Seven ways that everyone can reduce their footprint include:

It's obvious, but we have to say it. Conserve energy. Turn off the lights when you leave a room, buy energy-efficient bulbs and appliances, turn off your TV completely, rather than leave it on standby.
Reduce your waste. If there are ways to recycle where you live, try and do so. If you have a garden, start a compost heap. Re-use plastic bags. Give away clothes you don't use, rather than throwing them away. There are hundreds of little things you can do.
Live with someone! Whether it be your partner, family, children or friends, sharing your living space means sharing your ecological impact. It will probably also increase your well-being!
Leave your car in the garage. Car use has a huge impact on ecological footprint. Obviously it's easier for some people than others, but where possible, try to use public transport more. Or, even better, get on a bike, or simply walk!
Go local. Why buy tomatoes from another country, if you can get home grown ones? For those living in Europe - think about all those miles travelled by wine from South Africa and Australia, when Europe produces some of the best wines in the world.
You don't have to become vegetarian, but cutting down on meat, particularly beef, and particularly from animals fed by imported soya feed, is an effective step to reducing your footprint.
It has to be said that air travel is one of the biggest contributors to many people's footprints. For example, flying direct from London to Sydney and back would add 5.44 g ha to your footprint - that's the average Briton's footprint for an entire year. Flights with a connection add even more polluting air miles.


You: 4.64
Average: 5.37
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Carbon Footprint
Your carbon footprint is 2.39 global hectares, or 1.33 planets.

You: 2.39
Average: 3.24
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Life Satisfaction
You reported a life satisfaction of 6. This is just above our estimated world average life satisfaction of 5.9. At a national level, your score matches the means for Portugal, Iran and Vietnam. In Britain, just over a quarter of respondents reported a life satisfaction of 6 or lower.

You: 6
Average: 6.76
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Well-being
The new economics foundation (nef) recognises that there's more to life than feeling good, which is why our model for well-being is based on four domains ? personal feelings, personal functionings, social feelings and social functionings. 'Feelings' refers to your attitude to the way you, your future and society are. 'Functionings' looks at whether you have the opportunities to do the things that bring you well-being. Like with life satisfaction, a score of 5 is theoretically the middle score, but, given the way most people respond to surveys, is below average.

Personal Feelings
In this online questionnaire, personal feelings are assessed with two questions ? one testing your optimism and one testing your self-esteem.

You are optimistic about the future and probably also about yourself.

You: 6.08
Average: 6.05
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Personal Functionings
In this online questionnaire personal functionings are assessed with five questions ? two evaluating your subjective opinion on your health and how activity you are, the other three testing you for feelings of autonomy, purpose and worth.

In various ways, you are unable to function in the way you would like. You may be having problems with your health, feeling unable to make your own decisions, and/or failing to find opportunities to get involved in activities that give you a sense of purpose and ability. No doubt this is affecting your overall well-being. Is there any way to take more control over life, perhaps by making some space for yourself? Once you have done this, taking up different activities (sporting, creative, political, etc.) can provide an excellent focus for your abilities and offer a purpose. Voluntary work, in particular, can provide one with a strong sense of purpose and worth.

You: 4.69
Average: 6.16
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Social Feelings
In this online questionnaire social feelings are assessed with four questions ? three assessing your opinion of your community, whilst the last looks at personal relationships.

You are unsatisfied with, or perhaps indifferent to, the community within which you live. Sense of community is an important aspect of well-being. It is often lacking simply because there is little engagement taking place, as people lead atomised lives.

Another reason for this score, may simply be that you are currently unsatisfied by your personal relationships.

You: 4.4
Average: 5.69
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

Social Functionings
In this online questionnaire social functionings are assessed with four questions ? two assessing your job / studies, one your free time, and one your community participation. If you did not respond to the work / study questions, your score is judged purely on the other two aspects.

Your job / course is really not treating you well. Somehow it is at the same time dull and stressful! Either you're just going through a bad patch, or you really should consider moving on to somewhere else.

You: 4.16
Average: 5.6
[Average is of all online responses to this survey - not the average for your country]

haha super long post with random quizzes and the HPI - influence from ss c.k. (contextual knowledge) im not exactly very happy ne? thanks to singapore's wonderful education system. ^^"

bye bye bro

Hey that’s alliteration! (look at post title)

kk this post is dedicated to my dearest bro, so bro if you ever bother to read my blog you should be GLAD that there’s even a post dedicated to you! ^^

anw here’s LOVE from all of us, me mum dad, and we will miss u –I hope I rmb to- uhh and BON VOYAGE! yepp hope you will arrive safe and sound at uiuc, and hope you have fun there!

Gah im all envious alrd I want to go toooo! I mean to be rid of stress for a levels and all that is COOL and I can’t wait for my turn. –fun and play and I hope I get to go overseas too-

Ah well nothing much to say alrd, for those blurheads reading this post and not quite understanding it, it’s just bro going overseas for university. so fun righttt I wan go overseas too ): hmm b4 I forget must say that Philip sends his best regards to you. and do you want me to send you all those stupid photos on the camera? (of your macbook and crap like that)

p.s. to Gillian: the reason I have a phone in my bedroom is bcos there’s some free phone I forgot how come, so yah it’s put in my room bcos we alrd have a lot of phones around the house. also, im the “secretary/clerk/telephone operator” of the house, which means I pick up all the phones bcos everyone is lazy to get to one and they just bully me and get me to go get the phone. Yeah so a phone in my room would facilitate such picking up of phones. ^^”

my room

this is from gillian's blog.

how many windows are in your room? two windows
what color are your walls? white
hardwood floor, tile, or carpet? parquet
do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom? my room
what size bed do you have? single size bed
what does your comforter look like? blue and yellow coloured (current one)
is your room big? it's subjective isn't it? i would say ok, not really big but not too small either
is it clean? yeah kindof
do you have a night light? nope
do you have the following in your room:
[x] desk. yes
[ ] more than 3 sources of light. nope, only ceiling light and sunlight
[x] phone. yepp one. practically one in every room (to gillian: why of course not?)
[x] chair/dish chair. yes one
[ ] book shelf. nope my room is more for sleeping and stuff, book shelves are in study room (to gillian: why duh?)
[x] dresser. well one kindof, though nothing much is on it other than my fan and my badges and nametags etc
[ ] TV. nope, my mum don't believe in spending money putting a tv in our bedrooms and giving us free rein to become addicted to tv. esp since she insists bedroom is for SLEEPING and not for waking up middle of the night to watch stuff yeah, not that i really mind. tv is kinda boring.
[ ] CD player/stereo. nope all in the living room.
[ ] bean bag chair. doesn't seem to appeal to my parents at all, so it doesn't exist in our home.
[ ] computer/laptop. well as you should alrd know my bedroom is kinda for sleeping so com is in study room
[ ] posters. again my mum doesn't believe in vandalising the walls. haha anw i dun have any posters (a waste of money i think)
[ ] paintings. not in my bedroom, but in the living room and all around the house yeah. (those chinese paintings u know)
[x] pictures. not photograph those kindof pictures, but i have some picture of a sheep that my godmother had sewn for me when i was small. still hanging in my room.
[x] walk-in closet. walk in? well i suppose i can try walking into it...
[x] large mirror. not really that large, but large enough (about half the full length mirror)
[x] bed. HAHA yes DUH
[ ] drumset. uh. i dunno how to play drums and uh it would be a waste of money and space
[ ] bathroom. nope, that is only for the master bedroom ^^"
[x] clock. yeah it's kindof cranky and goes haywire once in a while but yeah generally accurate (i hope)
[x] clothes. of course. all the clothes i have are in my room, so no room, no clothes! (WHOA what a horrifying prospect!)
[ ] box of tissues. not a box, but i have a pack in my desk. just in case :D
[ ] guitar. no don't play guitar...
[ ] lava lamp. my mum isn't exactly a MODERN kindof person u know...
[ ] smoke detector. no...
[ ] piano/keyboard. not in my room, it's in the living room there
[ ] bongos. what's this?
[ ] a bin. nope i used to have one in my old house, but seems like my mum doesn't like dirty dustbins in bedrooms "where you SLEEEP U KNOW!" so yah
[x] locking door. well we have to lock doors once in a while right...?
[ ] can of soda. no soft drinks allowed in my room. i don't like soft drinks anw...
[ ] bottle of water. not usually, but sometimes if i am working in my room i might have one to drink from
[ ] playstation or another game source. if only. i have a deprived childhood u see
[ ] a blacklight. HUH? blacklight? i have enough radiation around thankyouverymuch.
[ ] something about your own country. -thinks hard.- i can try clearing out my desk and see?
[ ] awards. in some shelf in the living room
[ ] water polo ball. i don't play water polo
[ ] soccer ball. i don't play soccer either...
[ ] beach ball. uh i think there may be one in the storeroom
[ ] sofa. ...my room isn't THAT big.
[ ] empty liquor bottles. er hem. im underaged. anw even if i have any it would have been cleared out b4 my mum discovers them (and since she cleans my room everyday it would have to be cleared very quickly)
[ ] flag. hoho NO
[ ] stop sign. all these are weird
[ ] caution tape. weird weird weird.
[X] calendar. yepp. finally something more normal ^^

anw HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE! BON ANNIVERSAIRE SINGAPOUR! happy birthday singapore! happy holidays everyone...

something interestingly horrible i found

Terrible mutations may turn humans into plants or animals
Herbal cells may settle down and parasitize on the organism of a human or an animal

Geneticists say that mutations seriously change the set of chromosomes, and people with mutations can thus hardly be called humans. In Yerevan in the former Soviet republic of Armenia, 18-year-old girl Narine Aivasyan shocked doctors with her unusual disease. The girl complained about an abscess on her wrist that had been hurting her for a long period already. When doctors opened the bandage on Narine's hand they saw two very thin thorns sticking out of the hand.

The girl failed to enter a higher education institution after she left school, and had to help her mother about the house and assisted her in a store where the woman worked. The girl was fond of pot plants and devoted much time to looking after her plants. Once, Narine pricked herself on a cactus while watering plants. Some thorns got stuck in her wrist. The parents immediately disinfected the wound but it still festered and even expanded. Narine was reluctant to visit a doctor. She had to go to a hospital in a month when a point of a thorn emerged on the skin right on the place of the red wound. Doctors easily removed the strange object, but more thorns turned up on the same spot soon.

Head of the immunology and virology laboratory at the Armenia research center Tigran Davtyan says the world medicine has never known before that herbal cells may settle down and parasitize on the organism of a human or an animal. Deeper study of the thorns removed out of the girl's wrist confirmed their vegetative origin. It turned out that the thorns belonged to a cactus that many people had at home.

The only way to save the girl was to perform an operation to remove the fistula to stop the cactus from parasitizing all about the organism. The wound healed up after the operation and did not trouble the girl for four years.

Narine's mother says the girl could not recover from the shock for a very long period and feared that the thorns might reappear. The tragedy made the girl reserved and unsociable. But still she kept on looking after her pot plants.

One day Narine noticed her wrist turned red once again but she would not confess to her parents that the disease reappeared. The girl felt her forearm swell and soon a thorn as thick as a match burst her skin.

This time a fistula appeared in a sinew zone. Narine clenched her fists, the muscles pushed new thorns out and doctors removed them with pincers. At that, the wound was not bleeding. Doctors removed from 70 to 100 thorns from the girl's arm every day. But they still appeared later, which suggested there were two or three parasite cells still staying in the girl's organism. Doctors from many countries stated there was not a surgical but rather a microbiological problem.

When researchers studied the bigger thorns they arrived at a conclusion that they were no longer of vegetative origin. As a result of mutation, the patient got new unknown cells, some sort of a hybrid of a human and a plant. In other words, the young girl was turning into a cactus.

Experts believe the terrible metamorphosis sounds warning for mankind. “Evolution and progress seriously damage the human immune system. People become more vulnerable to unknown parasites and viruses,” Tigran Davtyan says.

Now the girl is 26. When Narine had blood poisoning some people rumored she died. But parents of the girl told doctors Narine was alive but felt too bed. The strange disease made her extremely apathetic and pessimistic as she knows that doctors obviously cannot help her.

In Kazakhstan, a woman from a remote village gave birth to her third son who turned out to be a very unusual being. The baby was covered with hair from top to toe. Only his cry resembling that of a normal baby proved that he was a human being. Ayaulym, the mother of the unusual baby did not reject him. She took the boy to the village where her family lived. The baby suffers from hypertrichosis, an infrequent genetic disease described in medicine literature. Patients suffering from it have too much hair on the face and body. There are just few people in the world having the diagnosis. Unfortunately, there is still no treatment for the disease.

Until the boy turned five, his parents did not take him to doctors. Being absolutely despaired they had no notion that some treatment for the disease could actually exist. The family lived in isolation, but neighbors soon learnt that a strange being resembling a monkey but speaking the human language was living next door.

Doctors say the boy did not at all feel shy when parents took him to the hospital for the first time. Ablai, this is the name of the unusual boy, is a very active child. Other children staying on treatment at the hospital got used to the unusual boy and even played together. Now the boy is nine years old. Unfortunately, Ablai cannot go to a public school. The local administration sent the boy to a correction educational institution though his intellectual abilities are normal.

People in Kazakhstan have already got used to the fact that healthy parents may from time to time give birth to abnormal babies. They explain the phenomenon with closeness to nuclear testing areas. There are 19 nuclear testing areas in the republic.

Student Alexander Rybakov from the University of St.Petersburg usually feels hurt when strangers mistake him for an old man. Sometimes even co-students at the University think he is an old professor because the young man looks very much like an elderly. At the age of eight Alexander for the first time felt he had some cardiovascular system problems. At the age of twelve, the boy had a bald spot on the head; the face was covered with a web of wrinkles by the age of sixteen. It seemed Alexander jumped over the traditional maturing stages and turned into a pensioner right after being a teenager.

At first, doctors registered that Alexander's internal organs were wearing out too quickly. At the age of 14 the boy's height was much lower than that of other children of his age. Many of callous senior students at school mocked at the boy. But Alexander was very wise for his young age and never took the mockery very much to heart. After graduation from the university Alexander will become a programmer which will give him a chance to work at home.

Viktor Michelson from the Russian Academy of Sciences Cytology Institute says there are two varieties of the ageing syndrome. When patients suffer from Werner's disease they all of a sudden begin to grow old in the young age. When patients have progeria, they look like very old people already at the age of 12. In both cases, people have their ageing gene affected. In other words, their biological clock goes several times quicker. The only treatment that medicine offers to children who turn into elderly is cure of senile diseases typical of the syndrome.

Several months ago, a 13-year-old girl who looked like a very old woman died of a stroke in the city of Orenburg. A boy from Kazakhstan became wrinkled overnight at the age of four.

Some researchers believe that decoding the ageing gene may solve the secret of eternal youth.

It is not clear for sure why babies come to this world being invalids. Geneticists state that inheritance and parents' mode of living are the cause of babies' inborn disability just in fifty percent of instances. It is known that 90 mothers of 100 reject their babies with inborn pathologies right after childbirth.

Doctors say that today half of babies in children's homes in Russia have inborn pathologies. It is typical of modern young mothers to reject their unhealthy babies. These young mothers at the age of 15-18 as a rule smoke a lot, take drugs and suffer from anemia and consequently cannot give birth to healthy babies. Even doctors persuade young mothers to reject their abnormal babies. It is a heavy burden for parents in this country to bring up invalid and abnormal children. The government pays miserable disability pension. Children having abnormalities will not be accepted to public schools even if they have normal intellectual abilities. But if attending a correction school, these children will never have a chance to enter a higher education institution and thus will not have a proper profession and employment. It is particularly distressing that children suffering from diseases and abnormalities unknown to medicine do not have a chance to be accepted in the society even as invalids.

Parents who reject their babies because of their abnormality do not realize that they deprive them of normal life immediately after birth. Parents should remember that they are responsible for their babies' fates. Even abnormal and invalid babies need love and care to survive in the world. Today, medicine may help cure many of slight inborn pathologies to give a happy life to parents and their babies. Parents are the only people who may help children with pathologies be brave and optimistic when they are not welcomed in the society.

20.12.2005, source: http://english.pravda.ru/main/18/90/360/16654_mutation.html

SCARY RIGHT! gosh imagine your cells mutate and u become a CACTUS! i would have gone and killed myself T.T bcos living on would just be a waste of time and effort and money (esp for all those operations) imagine all that PAIN and TORTURE and TEASING u have to endure! scary mann...

adding on to this, i found something quite interesting too!

Helacyton gartleri

The immortal remains of Henrietta Lacks.
When human body cells are removed and put into a cell culture, they weaken and die quickly, usually within about 50 divisions. Without the rest of the support structure—a heart, blood circulating, a digestive system and so-on—body cells can't survive. Body cells also age, so even if you were to simulate the body's environment in a test tube or petri dish, the cells would eventually perish anyway. The basic mortality of the cells reflect the basic mortality of the organism they comprise, which is why there's no fountain of youth or medicinal procedure that'll give you biological immortality.

There is, however, one human being who is biologically immortal on a technicality, and her name is Henrietta Lacks. In 1951 she showed up at John Hopkins Hospital in Baltimore, complaining of blood spotting in her underwear. Samples were taken of her cervical tissue and sent to a lab for analysis, which came back with a diagnosis of cervical cancer.

The cancer was caused by the Human papillomavirus, which is a sexually transmitted disease. Most variants of this virus are harmless, but some are known to cause cervical cancer, as in Henrietta's case. After her diagnosis and before attempts to treat the disease with radium, another sample from the tumor was sent to George Gey, who was the head of tissue culture research at Hopkins. Gey discovered that the cells from Henrietta's tumor would not only survive and multiply outside of her body, but they didn't age either. These cells were basically immortal.

And they're still alive, even though Henrietta herself died of the cancer on October 4th, 1951. Now, HeLa cells are about as common in biological research as the lab rat and the petri dish, and are still being grown in an unbroken lineage from the cells originally harvested from Mrs. Lacks in 1951. They're used in cancer research because a scientist can perform experiments on them that otherwise couldn't be done on a living human being. They were also used in the development of the Polio vaccine, making Henrietta somewhat of a posthumous hero to millions.

But say you're a scientist looking at HeLa cells under a microscope. They live independently of the body they came from. They reproduce (faster even than other cancerous cells). They consume, excrete, and do everything an independent living organism usually does. A thousand years from now there will still be HeLa cells multiplying and living, even some of the original cells sampled from Mrs. Lacks, even though Henrietta Lacks herself has long since passed away. Is this a new species?

In 1991 the scientific community decided it was, and blessed HeLa cells with its own genus and species: Helacyton gartleri, named by Van Valen & Maiorana.

That would make Helacyton gartleri an example of speciation, which is when a new species is observed developing from another. In this case, the development is from a chordate (homo sapien) to something that's more like an ameoba (a cross-phylum mutation), giving us an animal with a mostly human genotype, but which does not develop into a human-like phenotype. Since this event occurred in nature when the papillomavirus transformed Henrietta's cells, and not in the laboratory, it's a strong piece of evidence supporting Evolution (although not one that suggests you could go from an ameoba to a chordate, which would probably take more than one mutation).

the immortal remains of henrietta lacks. this is even more gross and eurgh. >.<

source: http://www.disenchanted.com/dis/lookup.html?node=1860

my birthday!

i just realised that ppl in their right mind would probably blog about such a significant event in their lives - their birthdays. hence im going to blog about my birthday, albeit one day late (since i just realised i should blog haha)

first of all, great thanks to everyone! it was indeed a special day! loads loads happened and despite all the terrible geog presentation and several scrapes and hits from floorball (more like the floorball sticks), it turned out not bad

i got loads of presents, like the most in my sec sch life, possibly even in my life. hmm i just can't rmb if i got presents in pri sch, but i know i didn't get in p6. i got loads for farewell instead hahaha...yep i must really thank kb for wanting to make my day special -and getting ppl to call and sing random birthday songs hahaha-

next yr i'll make your birthday a special one! though don't expect a telescope haha it will be way too ex mann.

yes there were a lot of ppl who made it a special birthday ne? hence you deserve special thanks for that astro book! -winks at 2 particular ppl who were simply so blur and erhem had conflicting opinions-

thanks to shekaye! the apple fudge candy thingy hahaha so funnyy; to juniors for being so nice: xinjia! harry potter book rocks man! you totally rock you actually got it in time!!!; gillian for getting the laser pointer bcos she couldn't get the green one haha and jovina for drawing such a creative and the CUTEST card i've ever seen! it's really the best card i've ever received! your drawing is so pro! ^^ -hugs to all of you-

thanks to eileen for trying to fatten me up -without avail hoho- and yuling for the nice cd with all the ff songs! and wenyi for the cute mug and blaws for that CUTEEE panda -love!!- and qw + blaws for that notebook!

*random sidenote: <3 scitaré exco! im glad elections got postponed! now i feel happy again lalala...

and to yuling & co for that russian restaurant trip that eventful day (:

and to kb and co for that harry potter trip yet another eventful day (:

a very big thank you to all of youu! you all made this day a really special and memorable one indeed. -the speciallest birthday ever- ^^

ah yes and my mum just changed all the toilet doors to some new better quality doors bcos the old doors apparently may have termite invasion or something. so ya now our toilets are dominated by the smell of wood! those woody wood wood. must get used to the smell...and the new look of the doors.

oh yah very impt thing. gillian! you are like posting random comments on my past past past blog posts i think T.T please do indicate your name! or i'll be wondering what kindof weird stranger is that anonymous person posting such random comments hahaha so just put gillian! and i'll know it's you! same to blaws too if you post comments ^^

plus i realised that everyone seem to have inanimate objects as bfs and gfs/husbands and wives(qw with her pipa, kb with his telescope, daniel with all the bio tb, chem tb, piano, guitar, good A grades etc... -.-") i should have some inanimate object as bf too. haha maybe like...-thinks-

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um can't think of anything in particular. when i think of it shall declare it as bf! ^^" im sure blaws will have a whole list as bf (insects? math tb? bio tb? all the science tb? astro books? astro notes? dizi? -the list goes on forever-)

harry potter: order of the phoenix

today we went to watch harry potter movie 5 - order of the phoenix! thanks to kb for treating us! rich person eh ^^

anw the movie wasn't too bad, u won't exactly feel disappointed by it la, just that it was a bit screwed since it is much shorter than the book. but this happens for all the harry potter movies so yah can't be helped. plus cho chang so poor thing! she's like got so little screentime? the longest screentime was like the kissing part -.-" poor thing la

then luna lovegood so much screentime! she is like always talking to harry potter in her so called dreamy way that sounded kindof like a bimbo, what with her blonde hair and blue eyes. i expected her to be like violet in charlie and choc factory - short hair, looks weird and all, but in the end she so pretty -.-" if you nv read the book you would have thought that luna and harry will end up together. (they are like together talking even more than hermione or ron talks to harry)

yah and poor hermione and ron has pathetically little role in the movie too... a lot of emphasis on harry. yeah it's how it's supposed to be oso, bcos this movie is about him battling with his emotions and all. however they could have built more on that, by letting harry voice out his thoughts and stuff instead of just looking angry or frustrated. doesn't illustrate much to those who nv read the book. esp he should have voiced out his anger and fears about dumbledore more, and not just looking frustrated-ly at him.

dumbledore should have a bit more role too. umbridge is quite good though. esp the cough and eh hem! HAHA she's positively irritating and hatable! they should have emphasised more on the detention too, as well as the twins' grand farewell. no swamp whatsoever T.T

andddd SNAPE! WE <3 SNAPE! hahaha his younger self looks kindof quite cute too! why everyone wan to ostracise him! he's niceeeeeeeee. bahhh and i just realised that harry nv wondered about his father bullying snape. as in in the book he was very shocked that snape was right all along about how horrid his father was, and he wanted to find out whether it is true and why isit his noble and great father actually did such horrible things etc. and oso his frustration at sirius for seeing him as his father all the time. he should have expressed these key major emotions and concerns!

yepp other than that really not too bad lah. although the whole thing quite gloomy and all, with gloomy black and grey and brown colours 90% of the time. the nice pink frills and cats of umbridge were in fact nice for a change. yeah the end part was lame, im sure ppl who nv read the book would be totally confused by what's going on. esp since they skipped loads and they just wanted to show the main stuff and not elaborate and explain them for too long. and they skipped loads of the scenes and places! and ppl too! they so cheapskate! it's alrd earning so much they should have a higher budget to include the characters and places mah! i was looking forward to seeing ron grabbed by brains T.T and the baby head death-eater...

bellatrix isn't as beautiful as i thought she should be, but i guess it's to show her hysterics and stuff from azkaban lah. neville's parents look kindof weird and not authentic english or something, and i thought sirius was supposed to be stupefied and not adava kedavra-ed by her b4 he fell through the arch! oh well crapp lah. i guess it's to make things simpler for ppl, that he is killed and his body is just gone in the arch. not that he wasn't killed and yet he's not coming back. haha

yepp not too bad, you ppl should go watch if you haven't. im just trying to let the harry potter ppl earn more money so that they have a higher budget for the 6th movie and portray all the necessary and major stuff instead of being cheapskate. haha and also to power the economy!

bleh

Your Love Type: ISFJ

The Nurturer In love, you are quietly intense, devoted, and tend too hold on too long. For you, sex is a way to get closer - and a way to take care of your partner. Overall, you are altruistic and eager to please your sweetie. However, you tend to also be non-confrontational and secretly frustrated with relationship issues. Best matches: ESTP or ESFP

What's Your Love Type?

iNFj

Your Type is
INFJ
Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging
Strength of the preferences %
11 25 50 56
You are:
slightly expressed introvert
moderately expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
moderately expressed judging personality

The Portrait of the Counselor Idealist (iNFj)

The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.


Mohandas Gandhi and Eleanor Roosevelt are examples of the Counselor Idealist (INFJ).

More information about INFJs here.

if you want to try and see what your personality type is, try this website!
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm

I just love Astronomy!!!

D-C-B-A-F-G-E!
Tele-S-C-O-P-E!
Messier, IC, NGC!
Oh Be A Fine Guy Ki-ss Me!
86164 per spin!
I just love Astronomy!!!

interesting 7-beat rhyming Astro chant created by kb. haha now everyone is using it as their nick? not bad lah hor quite catchy...

live earth day today! 070707 so wear green and save the earth! reduce, reuse and recycle!

liar game is a really nice j-drama. you ppl should watch.

plus sleeping early is good! -advocates early sleep- don't understand why guys like to sleep late (most of them at least) even when it isn't necessary. and then they sleep during lessons and miss out all the impt stuff. it's totally warped, the sleeping cycles. it will become a habit and stick! (which is BADDD)

feeling: randomness. music: crucify my love by x-japan

ishi's dead

hey guess what? i just saw the newspaper and ishi's dead!? yes the guy from superband, in the band, soul, teaches dance and all and jes sie loves him etc etc...

he's my bro's friend too. to think my bro just talked to him last week. ishi mentioned he wanted to commit suicide and stuff but i mean, if he's talking about it surely he'll be FINE RIGHT? i totally can't believe he actually went and did it.

WHO KILLS THEMSELVES OVER RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS? totally wasted. bright future ahead, 26 years old, diploma in sound mixing-engineering, great job at dancing, plenty of fans and shuai4 enough for many girls to want to be his gf (jes sie's one) and he's got plenty of stuff to do!

sigh. so wasted?

life is so fragile? so easily gone? like that? why would one want to die just like that? i mean i thought of dying and all b4 but in the end there was always something holding me back, holding me to life. to think he actually survived 26 years just to give up like that? like WHAT THE?!^$%@@

i don't believe it!

now i know how it feels to have someone u know dead. sudden shock indeed.

p.s. i nv thought of carbon monoxide poisoning. it's rather cool and unique, but apparently quite the trend in japan for commiting suicide and stuff. well you ppl don't try it.

it's not worth killing yourselves over stuff that really can be solved. it's not worth the effort, not worth the time wasted on thinking about it, not worth your precious life. rmb, no matter what happens, there's always ppl you care about you, whether you know it or not. for one thing, i do. if you have any problems, talk about it, don't think you can solve it just by suicide. it's selfish, cowardly, useless. think of the brighter days ahead. think of me...

think of me, think of me fondly, when we say goodbye...

some quizzes

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

wow? i totally nv expected so high? o.O

You Are In a Decent Mood

You aren't turning cartwheels, but you're having a pretty good day. Some ups, some downs, but overall you're coming out ahead. And who knows? Tomorrow could be even better!

What Mood Are You In?

kindof ok mood im in lah. so it's quite true ^^"

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

what's bothering me? stress, life, school, the feeling of imsodead. sigh.

You Are Teal Green

You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you. Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible. While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks. Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have.

What Color Green Are You?

i feel flattered.

You Can Make 53% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

You certainly have this dating thing down - and you know how to charm most people. And when your charm seems broken, just think back to what has worked in the past. You have the tools to make almost anyone fall in love with you - you just have to put them into action.

Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You?

ha.ha.ha. i haven't had crushes for ages, if not i can actually go and try it out. ha.ha.

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with Your negative traits: Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down. Your ideal partner: Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt! Your dating style: Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another. Your seduction style: Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship. Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild. Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac. Tips for the future: Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you. Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing. Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first. Best color to attract mate: Aqua Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

eew. "Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac."?!! -shakes head in disbelief-

NTU-NUS Astrochallenge 2007

actually I didn't really want to blog about astrochallenge but well, considering that it is a very impt event in my life and probably will stay as one of my unforgettable memories, I think it's significant enough to be left in the pages of this blog. (u noe, metaphorically)

ahh where do we start?

ok we'll start from Friday. day 1, it was quite ok, the mcq was really hard >.< (as compared to NYP) I had to leave 8 blank bcos I had no idea how to do them at all and im bound to get them wrong and have marks deducted yepp. the rest I think I had quite a number of wrongs. heh I was quite certain I'll get negative marks, but in the end the guy said our mcq scores were quite high (i couldn't believe it at all!) . data response ok lah there was pro gl and blaws doing all those calculations and drawing the graphs (: and so I think it was quite good. ^^ esp the 200 mark question (which hci didn't really do as I heard)

surprise round was NOT fun at all. super boring, everyone was dying with boredom and the questions are super chao1 ji2 difficult? (for lousy ppl like me lah) I was guessing all the answers bcos 50% chance of getting them right mah haha (but 50% of getting wrong too so haha whatever) it ended up quite good bcos there was this bp guy in my group and he answered like more than half the questions right. yepp so we ended up being second, just one station behind stacey's group!

project round umm...was hoping for better response from the judges but well we didn't get to finish our script and, u know, emphasise that it's an ALUMINIUM BLANKET COVERING which we very nicely wrapped for them to see in the middle as an example, and NOT glass. yeah it's just that we wanted them to see the interior so we didn't wrap the rest =P oh well kindof crappy. I wonder what the judges thought of it. not too bad I hope?

ah so on Friday we were convinced that we wouldn't get into the finals (b4 that we had a bit of hope) but since we saw the difficulty of all the qns of the first three rounds, we were freaked out and decidedly agreed that we had only 0.00000000000000001% of getting into finals (b4 that was 0.001% ^^". it would be more than a miracle. thus, all of us didn't mug at all! yeah so here comes the nasty surprise.

so I was settling myself comfortably into my seat to watch the other groups do the finals (I was really excited and hoping that both ri teams would be there to battle it out. it would be interesting mahh) and yeah talking to blaws about my balloon and random stuff when i caught "raffles girls school team 1" (literally caught, since I didn't really pay attention to the announcement). my first thought was: oh NO. we're SO DEAD.

yeah and I immediately prompted blaws to get calculator and pencil box and um waited for qw and bhu to defreeze from their shock and yeah trying to get over MY shock and disbelief and yes it was a pretty bad surprise. caught like that was not exactly nice... but at first I was really excited and thinking HEY WE GOT INTO FINALS! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! IT'S MORE THAN A MIRACLE! 0.00000000000000001% happened!!

in the end the finals got more and more boring and dreary and draggy and all. bcos we couldn't answer 99% of the questions and we didn't want points deducted. we were determined to keep our score above 0 and at least lose with a positive score =P um yeah the speed round was the worst! the music was irritating and distracting and pressurizing whatsoever and just getting on our nerves. esp the part that went BOM, BOM BOM, BOM, BOM BOM. T.T

we couldn't answer a lot of the questions and we had to guess. oh but I knew one question very well! just so happened that I studied constellations fervishly, so I knew that bootes is not part of Argo Navis ^^ that was easy. the rest was bad. a few the others knew lah, but esp the multiple answers ones we like got every one of them wrong? except for one I think... and all the calculation questions we got wrong T.T dunno what's wrong with the calculator or something but we were too nervous and stuff

luckily we still got a positive score of 13! (how unlucky)

as for buzzer round, we couldn't answer a lot of questions (or even if we could, we weren't sure so we didn't press the buzzer) the worst thing is, the questions we could answer (like 3 of them only?) we pressed but always RI or BP would have pressed first or something. I guess their fingers are glued to the buzzer T.T or their reflexes were faster or they were spamming the buzzer (this must be it). SIGH la. esp the 9 planets one it's so easy! and the speed of light thing! we could have answered those easily but for RI's reflexes T.T apparently they pressed the buzzer at the same time as the visual cue or something. the visual cue appeared at the same time as the buzzer sounding leh...

and the worst worst worst thing is that we knew the sun theory thingy! (what was the most widely accepted theory about how the sun produces energy b4 they found out it was nuclear fusion -something like that?-) qw was like isit gravity? then the answer was GRAVITATIONAL CONTRACTION. im sure if we said gravity we would have gotten a few points yikes. I think we really need to learn much more about the formulae and how to apply and stuff like that.

we were sigh so lousy. how could we even get into the finals in the first place? with third placing some more...data response must have saved us =P and since hci didn't really do the 200 mark question that must mean they are really pro in the mcq and other rounds la! not like us anyhow 混 into the finals one.

yah lah kb you're right we really did get into finals. haha so are we, rj did get into finals too! don't worry about it, RJ astro rocks! get over your disappointment soon k? you've done the best you can, and it really can't be helped. it's not really who's in the team, but more of who you're facing. it's really a lot on luck too, and not just brains. don't be too depressed over it. you guys are really pro alrd! you ppl at least put up a nice fight against the others and yeah had "keen competition"… not like us rgs. we must be the only exception that didn't put up "keen competition". we were like pass for every question, and wrong for every other. T.T

you ppl at least got a significantly high score lor! not like us 13 points only? if you are alrd so depressed then we'll have to go commit suicide alrd lah. haha yes it WAS embarrassing. BP team 2 was like laughing at us everytime we pass and when we got wrong. and they clapped and cheered everytime we got right for speed round (which made me feel really insulted, bcos we had so few right that they must cheer for us? how nice.)

oh well we have to better prepared next time. even if it is a miracle, we have to prepare for the tiniest chance…still, yay! we are pro enough to get into finals! and proer than many other teams! -hugs to bhu qw blaws gl and our juniors for supporting us!- you juniors better get into finals next year! finals ahh! I believe in you guys and you have the potential to excel and expandd! -nods-

all in all, quite a fun and interesting astrochallenge this yeah, despite all the bad feelings. it's just contradictory that you can have so much fun in the midst of boredom and embarrassment heh ^^

on a sidenote b4 I forget: CONGRATS TO CHAMPIONS OF ASTROCHALLENGE RI ONCE AGAIN! you ppl are prooo so keep on winning BP! ^^

les vacances!

Les vacances sont ici! Mais je ne suis pas que je peux faire...

Im totally bored out at home, watching anime and movies and stuff, generally procrastinating my homework T.T not that i really don’t want to do my work, but im totally dragged out all the time such that I have no time to ENJOY so the only time I have is to relax -.-"

Just got back my results today, just as bad as I expected. Sigh im so dead now...I hope my dad won't mind the bad results >.< I MUST WORK HARDER FOR THE LAST TERM OF THE YEAR! Esp my chem. And English! And maths I have to pull them all up no way im going to let some screwy pt and spa and compre pull it all down. HUMPH

-glares-

C'est pas mon défaut!

- cherica signs off in defeat.-

some interesting quizzes

You Should Get a MBA (Masters of Business Administration)

You're a self starter with a drive for success. You'd make a great entrepreneur.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

Hey not bad! That’s exactly what I want! ^^

You are a PC

You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything. Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done.

Are You a Mac or a PC?

Ok kindof right too ^^

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Ohno I have the exact same result as my bro!!! >.< what’s cult classic anw. T.T

music medley!

whee i mixed this music medley thingy up. haha first attempt at it so kindof lame and all. esp the transitions super abrupt blah but nvm im happy. ^^

try and guess which songs are in there. hee =P

blahh watch my daemon change!

hee so cool ellenor is so cuteee! such a beautiful name like mine -cherica- ^^ kindof weird that ellenor is male =.=" but well yah try it! haha so cuteeee! mouseyymouse!

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

i agree. im super lucky thus far (for all my superb marks from being in rgs all the way to now) and my luck is starting to fail me. WHYYY?

hence died for my sciences. i HATE spas. whatamigoingtodoforw10? imsodead. T.T -goes to a corner and cries-

WE WON!!!

today is a wonderfullest and greatest day in history, for i won my FIRST TROPHY IN MY LIFE! we won 3rd in nyp astro!!!! im totally stunned and still in disbelief >.<

it was really just luck...we guessed a lot of the answers and we just kept safe and didn't buzz in at the buzzer round at all while the other schools kept spamming the buzzer. like this bpgh actually minused 55 marks for answering qns wrongly, while ri and nus high kept answering qns correctly ending up with like 200++ points and 196 points respectively. then we rgs only answered one qn in the WHOLE buzzer round bcos we were forced to -bcos no other team knew the ans and we chose the qn- so yah blaws anyhow guessed and it was RIGHT! haha in the end rgs got 120 marks out of pure luck and guessing and a bit of strategy.

we actually knew some of the answers, just that we nv dared to press the buzzer so the other schools always pressed the buzzer first. ri is REALLY PRO u know they totally owned bp this yr WAY TO GOO!!

haha and the good thing is that we were the only girls in the final round. there were ri, nus high, vs, acsi, and bpgh, but ALL GUYS! that means us rgs are pro enough! yay blaws qw + gill you all ROCK! <333

-HUGSSSS-

THANK GOODNESS WE DID NOT MALUATE OURSELVES TOO MUCH AND OTHER GIRL TEAMS DIDN'T GET INTO FINAL ROUND INSTEAD OF US [shows that rgs not too bad after all (:]

haha our juniors are prooo! and we must really thank bpgh for answering so many qns wrongly ^^ and for not daring to spam the buzzer enough plus thank ri and nus high for spamming the buzzer so much and owning the whole round. we must really really thank nyp for having a final round + let the top 6 teams get in and not just 4! (bcos i believe rgs was 6th team) and for them not to count in the quiz scores to determine the champion teams!

only bcos of these reasons that we managed to win 3rd! behind ri (champions) and nus high (2nd)! we were really lucky and our mugging paid off! in fact it was like only 2-3 hours of mugging on my part last minute last night?

i must last of all, thank certain-unknown-person for contributing list of words such that i could mug smartly for astro and answer some quiz qns correctly, possibly contributing to us getting into final round!

WHEE IT'S A MILESTONE IN HISTORY!

im bursting with joy, literally. totally fun and unforgettable, although we were too nervous and cold and giggly and laughing at random stuff and acting really childish and uncool being first time on stage at astro competitions, it was fun! sad that we can't take part in nyp anymore. ): 10th nyp competition <3!

thanks to all who helped in one way or another hahaha...

plus nature week is finally over. can we not doooo the mosaic anymore im sick of itt.

what's this thingy for anw

1. grab the nearest book.
2. open the book to page 123.
3. find the fifth sentence.
4. post the text of the sentence on your blog along with these instructions.

'"Perhaps he should have sprinkled his cow with stolen holy water like Farmer Dan," Grandmother said, chuckling.'

i wonder if dialogues are counted as the sentences leh heh. dunno what this is about anw just taken from blaws' blog. ^^"

friday the thirteenth

friday the thirteenth holds some significance to me. i have no idea why.

happy birthday my dearest gl!


When you were one year old, she fed you and bathed you.You thanked her by crying all night long.

When you were two years old, she taught you to walk.You thanked her by running away when she called.

When you were three years old, she made all your meals with love.You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.

When you were four years old, she gave you some crayons.You thanked her by colouring the dining room table.

When you were five years old, she dressed you for holidays.You thanked her by plopping into the nearest.

When you were six years old, she walked you to school.You thanked her by screaming "I'M NOT GOING!".

When you were seven years old, she bought you a baseball.You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbour's window.

When you were eight years old, she handed you an ice cream.You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were nine years old, she paid for piano lessons.You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were ten years old, she drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another.You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were eleven years old, she took you and your friends to the movies.You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were twelve years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.You thanked her by waiting till she left the house.

When you were thirteen, she suggested a haircut.You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were fourteen, she paid for a month away at summer camp.You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were fifteen, she came home from work, looking for a hug.You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were sixteen, she taught you how to drive her car.You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were seventeen, she was expecting an important call.You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were eighteen, she cried at your High School Graduation.You thanked her by staying up partying until dawn.

When you were nineteen, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus and carried your bags.You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so that you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were twenty, she asked if you were seeing anyone.You thanked her by saying "It's none of your business".

When you were twenty one, she suggested certain careers for your future.You thanked her by saying "I don't wanna be like you".

When you were twenty two, she hugged you at your college graduation.You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were twenty three, she gave you furniture for your first apartment.You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.

When you were twenty four, she met your fiance and asked about your plans for the future.You thanked her by glaring and growling "Muuhh-ther, please!".

When you were twenty five, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were thirty, she called with some advice on the baby.You thanked her by telling her "Things are different now".

When you were forty, she called to remind you of a relative's birthday.You thanked her by saying you were "really busy right now".

When you were fifty, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.And then, one day, she quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on your HEART.

goodbye

i've decided. i'm totally sick and tired of this life. i shall end this once and for all...goodbye.

not that anyone would actually miss me. heh and i won't even have to do ss pt (that's the best). au revoir tout le monde.



in case you really think im going to jump, haha you've fallen for my trick!
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!!!!!!!! ^^"

meme

Your Birthdate: July 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

some random quiz

My Personality

Neuroticism	84
Extraversion	30
Openness To Experience	24
Agreeableness	21
Conscientiousness	3

You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. You can be very easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be extremely sensitive and emotional. As a practical person you like to think in plain and simple terms. Others describe you as down-to-earth, practical, and conservative. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising and you have less concern with others' needs than with your own. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

Test Yourself Compare Yourself View Full Report Click here to take the most insightful personality test.

not exactly what i hope i would get, but not exactly wrong ba...?

all those who still read my blog...i wonder who does anymore. -.-"

anw say goodbye for a week...i'll be away till 15th march. i hope i won't regret my decision. >.<

What DNAngel Guy Are You?


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it's coming back to me.

what i wanted to say, died at my lips and tears welled up in my eyes.

forget it.

at first i was afraid to tell the truth. but i did anw. it was a bad mistake. went terribly wrong from the start...

now, thinking back, it isn't that bad. while ignorance is bliss, telling the truth is like a burden off my chest. while things get awkward for a while, at least i got my message across.

i hope.

crap.

p.s. it's got NOTHING to do with love. not that way la. =.="

holidays so far

the hols so far have been boring and interesting. so far there's been smp extension lab attachment, going to blaws' house twice and playing card game with her + learning how to play snap -subsequently winning blaws rather easily-, wep, and nus engineering quest. oh and the canopy tree trail thing. and of course eating sleeping reading watching tv playing games. haha

nus engineering quest was fun, and uhh talked to two ppl from risc which is an amazing feat. for the sake of scitare la -glares- and blaws can't rmb why she is pissed with risc. hahaha. since she can't rmb why, she should stop being pissed with risc and start cooperating with them and treat them cordially.

canopy tree trail walk at macritchie was tiring but fun oso la. we got to see a collection of insects and scorpions of various species. -eeks- although i hate insects and are afraid of them, they are actually quite amazing and pro-looking dead and as specimens. a pity blaws wasn't there. we walked through the rough trail about 7-8km. would have been 10km if not for our luck at getting a hitch-hike on a little bus on the way out. hahaha. there were some air-rifle shots from the ns camp, but well didn't get shot. saw a lot of weird plants and animals, particularly a pair of squirrels that i suspect were mating. making very loud noises and ya in the cover of a tree, though we could still make out the shapes. =P too bad for privacy. they were right next to our trail haha.

the tree trail walk was super short as compared to the 5km walk there. like 400m? but it was dizzying and scary as i had a bit of fear of heights. i thought i was going to fall over anytime. T.T or drop something down. it was super high up. we climbed up super high from the beginning lor. up and down and up and down. had lots of lactic acid in my legs by the end. =P ya then we went to eat roti prata after that. was super full and went home "tired but happy". cliche yepp but true. ^^

bleh scitare and ssef work is piling up >.< can't imaging how sec 4 life will be.

wep was boring in a way. it was at thomson paediatric clinic. all we did was file casenotes, find casenotes, register, measure weight and sometimes length of the babies, give queue numbers, sit in several consultations, follow on several trips around the wards, watch how drips are done, and generally do odd jobs like faxing stuff, stamping names and make sets of forms. boring and easy to do actually, and interesting in a sense. then again im not a professional, that's y it's a bit boring. it's all paperwork...

still easy and dun need to use brains. several times there were misfiled casenotes and that caused everyone to go into a frenzy searching for them. sometimes they can't be found due to the sheer number of casenotes. >.< of course with us around we are forced to find them. sigh

half the time we are ignored and all we do is look and see what the nurses are doing. only one nurse was frendly and never forgot me. the others were ok la. still i have a feeling that we are causing more trouble than providing help. >.< one good thing about all those casenotes is that you get to learn about interesting names and surnames =P and of course i get to meet a lot of children and babies and proud parents. haha i got several smiles from the parents bcos i was smiling and playing with the babies, and the babies smile of course. though sometimes they cry at the pain of an injection by the nurse, but they stop very soon.

interesting fact learnt: babies love to wail and sound like crying, but somehow there aren't any tears. = they are just making the crying wails but nope, not crying at all. haha so ya they stop "crying" very easily. but of course sometimes they are really crying, hard. haha

oh and there's this sign that says: "All our staff in this clinic have been vaccinated against Flu. Have you vaccinated against Flu yet? Please approach any of our staff regarding the vaccination." and then the next minute one of the nurses started sneezing. and she sneezed about 3 times. we all couldn't help but laugh. hahaha vaccinated against flu and yet having flu? unlucky ba...haha vaccination no use. probably different strain.

not much to say alrd la. sleepover at my house this weekend for scitare action plan and ssef report. sigh la why is almost everyone overseas alrd. im going overseas at the end of dec, sometimes around christmas bcos my bro only has 4 days leave and he can use them all plus christmas hol plus hari raya hol plus new year day hol plus weekends then can make two nice weeks of leave. ya so i must finish ssef b4 then, and the forms...yikes >.<

i dun want to go to the same place againnn. my mum seems to like shan tou a lot, but we always go there!!!!!!!! and hongkong oso. i don't mind hongkong that much la, didn't go hk for 2 or 3 yrs alrd. but we went shantou just 2 yrs ago! and last yr we didn't go anywhere. sigh la my mum is so biased. the only places she like = china, hk, thailand. possibly malaysia but not like she's ever brought us there. blah.

hols are here

hurray for the holidays are here!

eoys are over and results are out. not too bad la but i shall not reveal anymore to certain geniuses like BLAWS. and im glad that at least ONE person reads my blog ^^

and generally so far the hols have been smp and reading and sleeping and eating and watching tv and playing games and going out with my mum. which is rather boring but i don't mind the break from studies. it's quite nice too to be able to do anything i want -except the smp part- ya smp extension for ssef next year. oh well it's quite crap and everything but it can't be helped. and let me try and remember. i must remind blaws to COLLECT THE FORMS on friday. if blaws is reading it, be reminded.

hmm and today we went to the nobel prize exhibition thingy and some lecture by a nobel prize winner (professor t'hoofe or something likethat?) for physics. i don't know what he won the prize for. probably something about particles bcos he was talking about it, then he talked about black holes -my favourite!- and stuff like hawking's particles and other theories. and the probability of white holes.

haha qw and yong joo were late to they were forced to go some IT lab watch on web cam. and since the microphone is malfunctioning half the time, the volume of the professor was greatly varying. therefore they couldn't hear much hahaha. and ya qw's sources whatever they are are indeed rather reliable. oh well and for the past week i realise that during term time in nus, nus ppl eat super early, even up to 11++, and there will be LOTS of ppl from 12 to 1pm, so it is advised that you do NOT go there to eat during this period of time. im not sure about 1pm to 2pm, but i think there is a lot of ppl too. particularly seems like nus ppl lunch break is that time.

queues are super long during those times too and no tables or seats available unless u want to share with someone. T.T and i do pity those ppl clearing the trays and plates at the collection place for they have to work like robots, methodically taking plates and trays and sorting them super quickly and without rest. mmm.

i find lots of ppl doing wep during this hols. makes me feel interested in trying out working. and i actually forgot that someone worked b4. T.T and i nv knew that yongjoo went to find work at swensen's and mcdonald's. heh.

oh well this is crap. im just blogging for the sake of my beloved one and only reader-of-my-blog. under her specific and repeated request of course. ^^ so be honoured. hohoho. wishing everyone an enjoyable and fun-filled holiday. and perhaps merry christmas and happy new year in advance. =)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

hmm sounds rather not bad...

exams are over.

the holidays are just round the corner.

this super duper ultra extended long weekend, many things have happened. i have decided to pick up my books again...it's been so long since i have really enjoyed myself in the world of fantasy, adventure and mystery. yepp and i went to bishan library.

it was lovely and new, and there were many ppl there. lots of books, but not enough. didn't have the variety i expected, but well, good enough i suppose. borrowed even more books for the hols. but i feel that the holidays are very empty. i always do. it's like i have nothing to do, no school, no cca, no nothing. i don't really mind it, but i miss having nothing to work towards. perhaps just reading and more reading.

i love reading.

i wanted to forget her, but i decided to stop escaping it and to face it. i guess perhaps, she wanted to forget me too, like i did. she's still the same, yet changed, perhaps. my fault? perhaps. but deep down it was everyone's fault really. u can't blame anyone exactly.

i made the right choice. i should face it and acknowledge it, and not just forget everything. this may have been a blessing in disguise, though i really want to know what the blessing is. i can think of a few, but it doesn't seem enough for this to have happened. i shall never forget this. i want and don't want to forget, but what can i do?

no. don't forget. don't ever do. if you do, you are a coward just escaping from the truth.

isn't that who i have always been?

tears.

sometimes u think tears come and go, and that's the end of that. you chuck it to the back of your mind and think about it perhaps, but no more tears. i thought that. i was wrong. once the eoys are over, once i could have my mind capacity free again from the numbing routine of study study study, i thought. i dreamt, and i thought. and tears came again.

why?

because i realise how much i hated it, how much i hated that, then how cowardly i was. there's a good side to everyone, but also a bad side. i must say that it's so easy to succumb to the bad side. to hate them. to hate her. to hate myself.

hate.

why hate? hate leads to anger, and anger just leads to more hate. isit worth it?

tell my brain to stop hating. it's impossible, impossible, impossible. when you can't stand it anymore, you just do what your eyes always do. pleurer.

i realised i can type up to 90 words per minute! im so pro right? and i actually did not too badly for french killer eoy! i couldn't believe it and i was like muttering c'est impossible as i looked down the marks for each section. and i actually passed the redaction! i didn't noe the format of letter writing, and i didn't even finish it! gosh. c'est impossible. mais c'est vrai. je suis contente.

i find myself getting more and more rebellious. due to the hate. i indeed, finally have run out of patience. told you my weakness is impatience. i couldn't tolerate it, and i burst. i exploded, and hurt everyone around me, including myself. in a way, im like a suicide bomber, who instead of achieving her goals, have ended up bombing herself only. the others are all running to safe distance and shooting at me now. hate comes to nothing i guess.

but i couldn't take it. i take different stands, different points of view, different ways of tackling it, but i got shot down all the same. sometimes it feels like a battlefield, a war that i can never win, a war that im alone in. but there's an even more vicious battle i must win before i can win anything else, and that is the battle within. it is a raging, fiery battle of which the consequences would be the loss of my sanity and mind. either way i doubt i would be able to win and conquer, perhaps till my dying day.

i find myself playing the word death much too easily. like it means nothing. yet it means everything. how can i play with such a word like that? it's awful. but i still do it. doesn't that mean im awful then?

when you are at a loss of what to do, what to do? i can only take comfort in the sole source of enjoyment i have now...my books. but even that is so easy to be taken away from. i think the problem is indeed with me. if others can tolerate and keep their mouth shut, i should continue to be able to do so. just shut up and keep quiet. being rebellious has no use, it only inflicts more harm and while they know that you have a mind of your own, it doesn't help that they hates that fact.

perhaps i should have been born stupid and ignorant. in a place where there is no competition and it's ok to be just yourself. perhaps if i never knew the existence of suffering, of enjoyment, of anything at all, i would be able to be content with what i have.

stop taking things for granted. everything you have outweighs what you don't. no that's not true. just be grateful for what you have now and stop being greedy. i can't help it i am a greedy and selfish person. not to mention lazy, impatient and has a fiery temper. i need control and tolerance.

the source of the problem leads back to decades ago. there's nothing i can do now. live on, and live my life to the happiest. i doubt i will be able to do that. i want music. indluge in music and books, and forget about the truth. forget about the world and forget about everything. but it's no use to deceive yourself.

no use.




p.s. i am not depressed or what. just been thinking loads these days. too much time to think so thinking too much i guess. it's not against the law to think right? it better not be anyway. that's y being stupid and ignorant would spare all these trouble. sometimes i just think too much into things. just call me stupid crazy and lazy. right you win, i lose. doesn't that make everyone happy? a simple word sorry solves everything, yet it's so difficult to say it. to someone who speaks it like drinking water, the word carries no meaning anymore. yet if it makes everyone happy, why not? right you win, i lose.

about yourself

thanks to kenneth's blog (:

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on your Blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. I drink powdered milk, two cups a day.
2. I only realised the existence of the health booklet in p2.
3. I never had a best friend until p4.
4. It was clinically proven that I had hearing problems.
5. I love my brother.
6. I was so proud of myself because I read Lord of the Rings in pri 4.
7. I stole my friend's watch before. In fact, I stole loads of things before.
8. My first trip to anywhere in Malaysia was last year. Johor, to be exact.
9. I had the happiest birthday in my life when I was 7.
10. I love planes, I love to sit on a plane, particularly SIA.
11. I had a pet hamster when I was in pri sch.
12. I hate all seafood.
13. I only knew the existence of handphones in sec sch.
14. I am pro at chinese chess. I always win it (:
15. I wanted to go to nygh, but i changed my mind in the end.
16. I lived in Hongkong for 5 years before.
17. I had my first and deepest scar when I was 2.
18. I wear a different watch everyday.
19. If I have to choose between being frozen to death or being burnt to death, I would choose the former.
20. I thought committing suicide was crazy, but later on I didn't mind dying anymore.

so which do you think is true? comment if you want.

the 5 ppl shall be...any 5 who reads my blog and bothers to do it. see im so nice. ^^