Friday, June 10, 2005

holidays

Your Years at Hogwarts
by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:Hufflepuff (Yellow and Black)
Subject you are naturally best at:Defense Against the Dark Arts
Your favorite book:The Standard Book of Spells Grade 1 by: Miranda Goshawk
Pet you bring to school:Dalmatian Rat
You are most known for:Who you are dating.
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Congratulations Cherica, you are...




'PoiPoi' Apple Lim of verypoisonouslady.blogspot.com


You look like a stereotypical bimbo outside but its a different story inside. You're a nice, simple, proud and straightforward person who believes what you're doing is right. You don't change people, and you love them for who they are. Your primary goal in life is to be happy, next to being pretty. You have your detractors but you don't let them bring you down. You go out of your way to help others out even before they ask, and for that they love you.



Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?



weird girl. bimbo on the outside. right. =P








Your Birthdate: July 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense.

Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise.

You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease.



You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them.

A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.




This is extremely accurate. Not sure about the last sentence, but yes im rather sensitive. And go look at blaws' blog with her quiz results. it's quite accurate too. heh.

It's the second week of the holidays. the end of the second week. I am not doing my homework, and juz lazing around reading my books, trying out gunbound [yeah i juz joined it], and watching inuyasha. hmm.

If only there's no Maths pt nor research studies! nor chinese pt to worry about, nor the chinese yue du bao gao. now i need to do quite a lot of things.

RS
-1 reflection
-1 lit review
-1 annotated biblio

Maths pt
-waiting for lyn to send me her graphs so that i can work on hers and come up with two graphs.
-er. decide whether the line graph i did is acceptable. we need to decide on the colour and format of the graphs and all! i don't like excel graphs. >.< -meet up for first maths meeting Chinese pt
-meet up for first chi meeting
-1 group ppt on introducing the school, presentation in class
-1 individual ppt introducing my home surroundings and environment to my friend from china

Chinese
-4 yue du bao gao
-1 7-eleven yue du bao gao
-yue bao hou zuo ye: for the last week of may

er that's about it. the things to be done. well, the chinese stuff, chinese pt and maths pt can be left until after hols. rs not sure. oh well. but they have to be handed up all the same.

well, i don't know how to play gb! it's horribly weird. and i end up shooting myself half the time. =P someone help me!

i want to watch charlie and chocolate factory! blaws wants to too, so we can go together! yep, and blaws' posts are interesting. im going to watch hitchiker's guide to the universe! it has an interesting storyline, and nice effects.

plus a 6L gathering on thursday. and sl on monday. sigh and piano duet practise. sigh. busybusybusy. and the maths and chinese groups are both deciding a date to meet up for the pts.

i want to go eelyn's house! for her vcd collection of 海豚湾恋人. hee.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

reflections. heh

On the first day of my service learning onsite service at the student care centre, my partner Guo Ling and I organised activities for the children there. We were in charge of English, and so our activities were related to the subject English. I was very nervous, as I was not sure what the children would think of me, that the activities would bore the children out, that they would not listen to me, that they would be very mischievous and would play tricks on me and so on. But it was my first experience contributing to the society in some way, and also interacting with so many children, so I was excited too.

I was afraid to face the children alone, and preferred doing the activities with Guo Ling. Fortunately there were not too many children there, only about 39 children in all, ranging from primary 1 to primary 6. Most of them were lower primary children, and there were fewer upper primary children, so we could put them all into one classroom, or into the office to watch a movie. There is a VCD player there, but no DVD player.

There is a nap time for all the children from around 1.30pm to 3pm, during which we are also invited to sleep with them. Thus, we actually do not have to have any activities during this time. Mr Hans suggested that we can actually have our activities afterwards, like from 3pm to 5pm. He also told us that we could stay until anytime we want. But that day Mr Hans sent only the p1s up to sleep, and those who wanted to sleep also went to sleep. Then the rest can do the activities. Although Mr Hans says that the children can skip their nap, the activities are going to be on a daily basis for the whole of June holidays, so he wants the children to have their nap everyday if possible. Thus, we can cut down on our boring activities, and we can prepare treasure hunts during their naptime and then have it organised after their nap.

When we asked Mrs Hans whether we can bring them to the void deck, she said no, that we would disturb the neighbours and the children would make a lot of noise. But we can use the amphitheatre and basketball courts. However, she thinks that any outdoor activities would best be done in the morning before the children’s baths. She says it could be organised from 9 – 10am, and the children get sweaty and dirty then they could take their bath. Then eat their lunch afterwards. But the problem is that is too early for our onsite service. So we probably will not do that, and try to do everything within the centre.

For example the treasure hunts, we can do it all around the centre, such as in the classrooms and also the dance studio which is quite big, around 1 and a half the size of a classroom, and it is also the place where the children take their nap. But Mr Hans does not want any activities that involve running inside the classrooms, as there are many tables and chairs and the children will knock into them and hurt themselves. We can also move the tables to the sides so that the middle is empty, and then organize our activities. We had our icebreakers like that in a circle in the middle of the classroom, and we played Wacko. The children enjoyed themselves very much, and they love playing games a lot.

We can play games with them the whole day and they don’t mind. We played Wacko for more than an hour, and although we planned to play concentration and taboo, we ended up not playing them at all. We learnt through the hard way that we should not give the children boring activities. They are easily bored and they talk all the time. Unless it is something interesting and the activity involves them, or captures their attention, e.g. Wacko. Otherwise, they would keep on talking and playing among themselves. The good thing is, Mrs Hans is there and she keeps them quiet for us. Guo Ling and I are not very outspoken, and are not able to keep all the children quiet despite our efforts. So Mrs Hans was a great help as she can control the children well. Since she is around she repeats our questions for us so that they pay attention.

The children were not very interested in quizzes, even though there were prizes. The majority only answered when Mrs Hans asked them, instead of us, because they were talking so loudly they could not hear us, and some were even doing their homework. They are very restless too, and have a short attention span. I was very worried and exasperated that the children are so energetic and keep on chatting among themselves instead of listening to us, and they are reluctant sitting with people other than their closer friends.

The children definitely will be bored to death if we lecture them on this and that, or if they have to write essays. They have their own homework to worry about already, and the naughty ones keep disturbing other the other children, tickling them, poking them, punching them etc. There is a duster in each of the two classrooms, and one marker in one of them

It was really scary at first and they made fun of our names, but since children are like that, I do not take it to heart. When they are having fun, I myself have fun too and I actually enjoyed it as much as they do! Overall I enjoyed the session quite well, as everything went very smoothly. It gives me a great sense of achievement to have finished my session successfully and to see the children’s happy faces especially. In the midst of teaching them, I had fun as well and learnt a lot about teaching children, such as we should not give them assignments to do and bore them out. Instead, we should organised games and activities from which they can learn as well as have fun in the most interesting and creative ways.

I am happy at the end of the session, because I know I have made a difference in the children’s life and they had enjoyed themselves because of me. The activities brought the children closer together, and they learnt many things that they never knew about us, as well as their friends all around them. They also interacted with each other and were able to work together with each other as a team. This made me happy, and I am looking forward to the next session I am having with them.


that's my reflections for the first session of my service learning. at bukit batok cc, the student care centre on monday. u get the idea of how it was. plus some crap at the end as it's a reflections after all. haha. well tmr im going for yet another session, and the last sentece above isn't really true, bcos im not very looking forward to the next session, but oh well. heh

ytd i went to join the track and field camp. i cuoldn't go bcos i haf sl, so yeah. sigh. and i can't go tmr for the leadership camp at my primary school. a lot of my ex-classmates are going, but i can't. again bcos of sl. it's very exhausting u noe, keeping up with ur schedule, keeping up with the sl activities, keeping up with the children esp. i was soooooo tired by the end of monday. and even moreeeeee more more more more tired by the end of ytd.

now im going to talk about ytd. apparently track ppl are not very disciplined. or most that is. i am very disciplined. -beams- they all woke up late. so we were behind schedule. supposed to have briefing for the challenge by 9am, but ended up briefing at 9.30am. and preparation for challenge. we set off at around 9.55am to the first station, which is at bedok jetty.

in our group there's only 5 ppl, which is so not fair, bcos other groups had more, like 7 ppl! anyway, there's jane, kimberly, weiling, me and irmelia. 2 sec 3s, 2 sec 2s, and 1 sec 1. quite an interesting combination. haha well, we don't noe where bedok jetty is, so the wonderful kimberly called up her many friends. it's amazing how big her network of friends is.

she called up so many ppl and we compiled different routes to get there. we were supposed to get the victoria school and take some underpass and then u will get there. diff routes include: u can take mrt to bedok and change bus there. forgot what bus. u can take mrt to dhoby ghaut and change bus to get to some school that her friend is and she will direct us from there. u can take mrt to paya lebar and change bus.

well we met all the other groups on the mrt train, so after exchanging info, we decided on the last route. to paya lebar. and we spent ages waiting for the bus, and even longer than ages on the bus to bedok jetty. or rather, to VS. then finally arriving VS more than an hour later, we walked aimlessly, ok other than the two seniors in front who looked like they knew the way, we walked. and walked. and walked.

walked for around 20 min in the hot sun, and occasionally in the shade in some ulu looking road and then along a road that seems to be a highway. weird walking along highways isn't it. the so-called underpass happened to be 20min walk away from VS. haha how funny. yeah right we could haf juz gotten to VS and juz take the underpass.

how in the world are we supposed to know that the underpass is so far away!!!

got to some kind of park finally. thought that bedok jetty is somewhere around. there was a lagoon or something like a big pond there. very murky, dirty, unclear, muddy and greyish looking one. the water is so...not nice. by this time it's about 11.30am. the sun was very very hot. and no wind. walked another...let's say, 5 minutes? thashi and i decided to walk faster so that there would be more wind and yeah we walked faster. trying to catch up with the two seniors in front. very far in front.

walk walk walk.

after another 10 minutes,we caught up with the two seniors. and we saw the sea. finally. so bedok jetty HAS TO BE SOMEWHERE THERE RIGHT? right.

well there was this lagoon ville or something like that. forgot the name. there's some hawker centre there. and a carpark. ok that's good. civilisation.

walk walk walk.

this is juz like those movies or shows where the characters walk aimlessly in the desert, not knowing where to go, where they were going, whether it's correct or not, and the sun was so hot and shining very brightly. it dehydrates us and makes us feel hopeless and u start hallucinating...STOP. we didn't get to that point yet. but yeah i was thinking of that. we were dehydrating and feeling hopeless though. my limited water supply was running out.

walk walk walk.

another 5 minutes later, we see a bike/roller blade rental shop. and sells some drinks and food too. the other side was a kayak rental shop. there's some canal in front with a short bridge across, and railings. and uh it stinks. and there's this bird sanctuary which has a sign that says "Beware of falling coconuts."

There's not even a coconut tree in sight. lots of trees yes, but not coconut trees. and no birds either. weird. i would be more scared of bird's droppings. they should be a sign, "Beware of falling bird's droppings." haha ok there's some police car there too. no policemen in sight though.

oh and by then u can see the jetty! hurray! however, it's very very far away, and u can see it bcos it's one longggg thing sticking out over the water. brown in colour from far. woody looking. looks like about 1 plus km in front? or more. maybe 1.2km.

doesn't matter. it gives me hope anyway. but it also makes me feel hopeless. bcos i can see that the jetty is still a long way away. very very long way. by then my legs were falling off, and my feet hurt. aching. tired.

ok about 10 minutes later, we arrived there, and i plopped onto the ground. so nice to rest my feet. but the sun's shining and there's no shade. very hot. after a while i joined the others to go to the bike shop there to buy drinks. well, that's a big mistake. bcos it's so far away. another 10 minutes walk there and then 10 mins back.

should haf rested there at the jetty, but sigh i needed a drink. a cold drink. so bought h2o and took a straw -to prevent swirling of drink in the mouth- haha and then went back to the jetty. we ate lunch, but i didn't realise it was lunch then. we shared oreo biscuits and potato chips. that's all. i was hungry then. haha well, it wasn't much of a lunch, but it had to do. we should haf eaten an apple or something.

then in our groups, we played against another group to see who would get the clue first. we had to try to take the bottle and run back without being tagged. then u get one point for ur group. oh and our station master [abigail] labelled us 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. then she called whatever number then that number run out. since either we kept being tagged or we kept standing there glaring at each other waiting for them to pick up the bottle so we can tag them, she kept changing the labelling. haha

she called us by our events, like sprints, jumps, long-d. she labelled us using a, b, c, d, e. she labelled us using f, g, h, i, j. yeah it took ages. then finally the other team won, 3-2. sigh. they got the clue first, and they set off. abi told us that they were setting off in the wrong direction by accident, so haha! we knew the direction to go! yeah!

well we were to be given our clue 5 minutes later. so we sang songs entertaining her. so she will up our marks. and yeah. the clue to the second station was "located at a big obstructive object nearby".

so we walked. and we walked. we considered trees, the bike rental, the kayak rental, and then eventually we reached the hawker centre. and we decided it should be there. since the hawker centre to biggg. and there was a group there alrd. so we hurried there and yup it's a station!

we were supposed to finish 3 bottles of 1.5 litre mineral water. in the least possible time. they will time us. good way to prevent us from dehydrating. we split it by pouring into our own water bottles [of course they were empty lahh] and then we drank and drank and drank.

so bloated we were! [yoda way of speaking hee] and wei ling drank so much lor! like almost 2 litres or something. she drank so muchh! and so fasttt! and i drank more than 1 litre too. was half-dead by then. it was total torture! u noe the japanese water torture? yeah they made them drink lots of water. then stepped on their stomachs, forcing them to throw up the water.

we had half the torture!!!! oh well. it wasn't over though. we were supposed to buy a plate of food. but muz be carbohydrates. that is, rice, noodles and such. eeks. they were going to make us eat the food in the fastest possible time. another way to make sure we have lunch.

well we wanted to buy roti prata, but there wasn't any stall selling that. decided on fried rice, and asked the auntie to cook lesser food. hehe. but it turned out to be quite a lot though.

we were supposed to feed each other. eeks. and the food was sooooooooooo hot! and wasn't very full after the water drinking episode. [the understatement of the year] but the fried rice was nice though. i wanted fish cake, but irmelia juz didn't take any to feed me. ended up me putting fish cake into her spoon so that i get to eat fish cake. haha!

and kim wanted sotong so we gave her sotong. heehee and after that, kim went to buy hokkien prawn noodles. she said she would be hungry later on, bcos water won't make us full for long. quite true, but not in the mood to eat. and guess what the clue is?

exactly the same as the one b4. the "lovated at a big obstructive object nearby"

the station master said that we were at the wrong station. =.=" but then again it's correct what. unless we passed the station 2 along the way there. but apparently not. so that means abi gave us the wrong clue! humph very funny.

well, anyway we guessed it was the lagoon, and apparently it was correct, so we went to the lagoon. with kim lagging behind very slowly, eating her hokkien prawn noodles. haha. well got to the station 3.

we were supposed to put our faces into the flour, and using our mouths, dig up polo sweets inside. find the 15 polo sweets in the shortest possible time. and we saw the other groups looking very funny! haha their faces was covered in white flour. and their nose and mouths and teeth and all. eeks imagine eating flour! and walking around like that. >.<

well we had to do it, and we tried to blow. and blow. and blow. but it was not very useful. u can't use hands. so we blew like mad, but all the flour came up into our faces. and got my shirt and culottes all dirtied!

all white! and my hair too! sigh. well we wasted too much time blowing, so our timing was very slow. sigh apparently we won't win this time. last year my group won! first! and the games weren't this bad. second there were maps around sentosa last year, and also it was not this big. and we knew where to go and the direction, and if we asked ppl they knew the places!

unlike here. we don't know where to go! in addition to that we don't haf directions, only signboards which are useless. they say that the big splash was there. but the problem is [later we found out] it was about 2km away? i think they think we are cyclists. riding bicycles. but we are not allowed to take taxi, not allowed to rent bicycles and roller blades. [not that i know how to cycle or roller blade. but i can learn right?]

and anyway, the clue was something like this:

-e--o- -ow-r: think rapunzel


yeah and we couldn't figure anything out. thought maybe it's let your hair down or something. then we were thinking rapunzel lived in a enclosed room. so we thought maybe it's some enclosed space or room. then kim was like THAT'S IT! IT'S TOWER!

so the last word was tower. it fits too. then how about the first word? we walked on, and asked some cyclist whether there was some tower around. any tower. he didn't know anything. we thought it may be a lighthouse or something. and what's wrong with them? they don't know anythingg. see how big this place is???

then we walked back dunno why, then we met another group. they asked us whether we knew where the yellow tower is, =.=" and that's telling us the answer. it's the yellow tower! i mean they are so weird. they tell us the answer, and we end up going off together. candice told them it's all the way to the end, and it's very far, so good luck.

then we walked back to the 3rd station and met with another group. the three groups went along.

sigh as if our feet were not tired enough. and she was cycling. so it's fine for her. >.< yeah so we walked. and we walked. and walked. [again yes i know we walked alot]

the sun was very hot. again. but it's very sunny indeed. we need a yellow tower! appear appear pleaseee.

well for some reason kim decided it muz be mcdonald's. bcos it's yellow, and maybe it's shaped like a tower. she knew there's a mac's up ahead very far ahead, so it's possible that it's that.

so we walked. for about 35 minutes. and we reached mac's. and we went in. it wasn't a station. so we went to toilet, and i wanted to refill my water, but decided that it's too embarrassing. so i didn't. haha. well one of the groups left first.

my group left, then the second group, but eventually we waited for the second group. i don't understand why. if we are ahead of them, that means we will be able to do the station first! haha i know im evil. but it's a competition after all.

well we walked on. kim was moaning and groaning that she doesn't want to walk anymore. irmelia too. and weiling was putting on her serious face. frowning all the time again. and i was thinking cyndi's honey. haha and walked according to the rhythm. and was singing some songs i could rmb. lalala.

well after almost one hour since leaving the 3rd station, we reached the 4th one. and kim and i were in front, so that's good. our group reached first. haha. we saw a yellow tower, and there's a long stretch of the beach there. and some seniors were there.

we were supposed to take off our shoes and socks, and go into the water to make a group formation. choreograph something based on some theme. yeah and i changed into my shorts, so that later on i can change into my dry culottes. haha. and i borrowed a shirt from chew min earlier at school. in case mine gets wet or dirtied. -i can predict that we will get wet or dirtied. and i was correct for both. first the flour, then the sea.-

then we did based on kung fu. haha yeah. and we were all wet. and there was a dead jellyfish. washed onshore. -poor thing- it's transparent and buried in the sand. so poor thing non? hahahaha. ok nvm. i dun like the sea! i always get wet in the sea with my normal clothes on! i mean never ever ever had i had a swimsuit on in the sea! humph.

then we were supposed to finish a scavenger hunt, and bring 7 of the items to the 5th station. bonus items gave u more points. they are:

a school shirt [other than raffles ones]
5 male chest hairs [photographic evidence required]
a 15-20 year old male TDH


haha right. male chest hairs. >.< and TDH means tall dark and handsome. =P very funny.

other items include:

lipstick stain--[get a lady to kiss your cheek or ur shirt; photographic evidence needed]
a big black ant -alive-
animal remains
a coconut [unopened]
an energizer battery [empty]
a sprite or coke can with the ring on [used]
a seashell [complete]
a pong pong fruit
white sand
ask for a pad or tampon from a lady >.<


something like that. the animal remains! remember the jellyfish? yeah ester and other ppl let it out back into the sea. of course they didn't know of the scavenger hunt yet. but, it's animal remains!!! sigh

well our group got the ant, there was a coconut, but they said it's open, but there's only one leetle crack! we also got a seashell, and white sand [so easy], pongpong fruit, animal remains ie. a dead ant, squished by the brave jane. we asked them whether a handsome guy who looked tall sitting on the beach is eligible.

they said not dark enough. we argued that it can't be helped he's not tanned enough. "can't u see he is trying veryyyy hard to be dark by sitting down there tanning himself???!" a quote from weiling. haha.

we decided on a malay guy, who obviously is dark enough. not very handsome though. not sure if he's tall, but we asked him anyway. and yeah he's eligible. haha that's good. earlier on at station 4, we saw 3 idiots [well they look like idiots to us, so we gave them that nickname] and we wanted to ask them! but we weren't sure whether we want that item yet, so we didn't ask them in the end.

forgot what else we took. oh and irmelia said she has a pad, so she can juz say that we asked someone for it. haha. well not sure if we did use that idea. and we asked a lady whether she can kiss our shirt [which is wet and dirty and why in the world would anyone want to kiss our shirt!?] and unfortunately [fortunately for her] she says she has no lipstick.

in fact, why should anyone wear lipstick at the beach?

we should look for civilisation, like mac's where there's ppl who would wear lipstick. so we juz made our way on. oh and there's this disgusting couple who were kissing and kissing for a longg longggg time since we arrived at station 4. so disgusting. i mean they are like...oh nvm. >.<

well at station 5, the last station [yay!] it's the worst worst worst station ever! we chose a card, which says that we are to fill one and a half boxes of sand. since we only had 5 ppl, they let us fill one and one-third is enough.

we thought that's easy. but. we were supposed to go into the sea and wet ourselves, then roll on the sand to collect it, then scrape the sand on us into the boxes. first, i dun like the sea. second, the rolling on the sand thing is worse!!!

eeks! eeks! sand all over u! and u are wet too! and ur clothes are like sticking to u. it's so eeeeeeew.

well after a long time [or so it seems] we managed to fill one and one-third boxes with sand. we were really dead exhausted and dirty. and i couldn't stand myself. how to go home like that? on the mrt? juz sitting down anywhere? yeah but we played in the sea for a while. waiting for other groups to come. and we were cheering them on. haha. and i had a taste of the sea.

the sea is VERY SALTY. the saltiest water i haf ever tasted! i was going to choke to death on it. and it went up my nose too. and oh yes the water kept getting into my eyes! and my eyes would sting and hurt [bcos of the salt] and i can't see, and i used my hands, it becomes worse bcos my hands are wet with seawater too! and it's so hopeless, except to wait for my eyes to tear and then it will be fine.

and it keeps repeating itself, until i got fed up and got out of the sea. we dragged our seniors into the water and dumped them in! haha. retribution.

i shall not like the sea. ever.

that's about it. not sure who won the challenge. but i think our group was second. not bad. ^^ we ended the challenge around 5pm. or later? well i ate some icecream minies. forgot the brand. but it was nice. and i showered at a toilet. without shampoo and soap, but i had get rid of the salt crystals on my skin and hair! and sand not to forget. disgustingeth.

i muz haf walked at least, AT LEAST 10 km. but the good thing is, i have burnt more calories than i ever had in my life! yay! haha and i hardly ate lunch. but i made up for all those lost calories by eating 5 ice cream minis, and 2 pizzas, and 2 potato wedges. was super full by then. dunno why.

but i had to go home and eat dinner. so i ate dinner at home, rice, veggies and all. was very very full. i didn't eat a lot of the food though. but that's so much of calories back into my body. >.< and today i ate some mangosteens bcos my mum bought it, and some corn [yumyum] boiled to perfection, and half a bowl of herbal jelly which for some reason has too much honey. so sweet. look at how much i ate! and then i ate a slice of papaya after dinner. [muz eat fruits whatt. my mum always cut fruits one.] plus some sort of soup. for dinner. hmm. ok nvm. but so much calories!

and now im totally sunburnt. im darker than b4! as though im not dark enough. and not juz that, my face is no longer fair! it looks horrible. and my nose is red. [think rudolph the red nosed reindeer] haha

very itchy. im sunburnt! ahh...and something dropped from my spectacles, so i am using my blue spectacles. last year when i made my specs, my mum made me a spare one too. so yeah. the blue one. looks weird. i look weird!













Your Deadly Sins



Pride: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Gluttony: 20%

Lust: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Greed: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 20%

You will die of malnutrition, after the Olson twins make dying of malnutrition trendy.

Friday, May 27, 2005

last day of school!

hurray! it's the last day of school! the holidays are coming! yayyayyay! -jumps around the room-

ok. -calm down-. received results today. sigh. unfortunately blaws got higher gpa than me! -wails- humph. humph. i got gpa 3.49. so horrible. a biiiiggggg deprovement from last year! gahhh.

oh well. nvm. and can u believe it. the only subject that i got 4.0 for is chinese. CHINESE. sigh. apparently all my hard work paid off. but chinese was the ONLY subject i studied really hard for, and worked hard, reading chinese books and newspapers, conscientiously trying to improve it. and yeah. it improved. IM ABOVE THE MEDIAN! YAY! IM IN THE TOP 50%! YAY! ok. yeah.

im so motivated bcos i didn't want to disappoint my dad again. every year my dad applies for this prize for good results at 沈氏公会, and there's this chinese prize as well. and i always got the chinese prize in primary school. but last year my marks for chinese was like, 68. and my father didn't apply for the chinese prize bcos he said it's too low.

he said if it's above 70 [or was it 75?] then he would apply for it. and it hurts. it hurts a whole lot. and i really really really regretted not working harder at chinese. and so i really want to get above 75 for overall this year. so this is juz the beginning. there's still semester 2. and it's becoming harder. so i have to strive harder. but yeah. i hope it pays off.

and i shall work harder at all other subjects. esp maths. i compared my results with last year's, and realised i improved in all the subjects except for maths and science. science obviously. maths makes my heart ache. my best subject. always get at least 80 and above, -in pri sch obviously always 91 and above- always get 4.0, get A*. now reduced to only A. 73. same as median. how could it be?

it totally broke my heart. and my heart is still hurting. my pride. my honour. sigh. i have to work harder. i have to be flexibleeeee. not stiff and squarish and cannot think out of the box and whatnot. if the easy qns i can't do, and the diff qns i can't do, then what's the point? gahhhhh.

oh fine. i won't type out all my marks. too lazy too. but the gpa yeah.

english: 3.2
h. chinese: 4.0
maths: 3.6
geog: 3.6
history: 3.6
lit: 3.6
science: 2.8
gpa: 3.49

rather disheartening. but sigh. yeah. er. let's see. i haf sl, rs, chinese pt, maths pt, geog ws for homework. and not to forget reading of chinese books and yue du bao gao. uh huh.

SL! our priority. will start on monday. heehee boonyang lives right behind there. but i can't be bothered to go looking for u, so be glad. haha. meeting! we haf to settle our attire, proposal, and stuff. ok.

oh dear. OS! os haven't given me the photocopies for rs!! then how do i do it? argh.

fine. lots of rantings. gah. shall stop here. happy holidays!

as the french say, bonnes vacances!

Sunday, May 22, 2005

long weekend!

hahaha it's monday. vesak day was ytd, but yeah there's still a holiday today! whee! i watched star wars episode III, and it's really nice. very very nice! it's rather touching too, thinking that it's the end of the star wars saga. no more. sigh.

ah results for the following -which is horrible-:
Chinese EOI: 73.5/100
English Pt: 24/30
History Pt: 13/20
Literature EOI: 23/25
Literature Pt: 5/12

notice the big difference between lit eoi and lit pt? yeah. i failed one and did exceptionally well for the other. sometimes crapping comes in useful. haha yeah but the percentage turns out to be...not very good.

i forgot all the different percentages for all the subjects, but my best gpa [provided all my marks are rounded up] is 3.528571429... which is the same as blaws. worst gpa [if none are rounded up, which is highly possible too] is 3.428571429. in which i will lose to blaws. humph. but nvm since blaws is so li hai, i shall not be upset over this. heehee.

BLAWS DON'T U DARE GLOAT OVER THIS.

at end of year, i wish to get a gpa of at least 3.6. if possible all my subjects aim for 4! but quite unlikely. since sec 2 is very difficult, and the standards are very high! sigh. got to do my best!

i shall go watch inuyasha now.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Friday, May 13, 2005

friday the thirteenth - White Friday

today is friday the thirteenth. i decided to be unconventional and call it white friday. bcos it's not exactly black and unlucky, and i had my pft today.

*note to all: perhaps you want to check my blog on friday nights, because i tend to blog on friday nights. because it's the end of the weekdays, and the beginning of the weekend. yep. and once a week isn't too much is it?

perhaps today im very unlucky. i got back my maths marks which are horrible, for some reason my bag is very heavy today and had a hard time carrying it home >.<, n on the bus, the bus swerved violently n i fell on top of some poor woman! it was SOOOOOO EMBARRASSING! imagine if i had fallen on top of some sji boy or something! im glad i didn't, that is. that poor lady. -patpat- i wanted to disappear into thin air or something, some rgs girls were laughing at me. haha yeah.

ok. i noe that rgs has lots and lots of stereotypes. the most in fact. i haf decided that our batch of rgs will do something about it, and make a difference. we will prove to them that we are not the stereotypes, we will break the stereotypes, and show that rgs is NOT what u think. unfeminine, unmarriagable, un-sweet, rowdy, only confident n all that crap.

yep. and also, i haf decided that i will say the statistics of my results. my academic results and pft results. because i believe that there is nothing shameful about it, and if u think it's good, u probably will come up to me and wail that im soooooo good. if u think it's bad, u probably won't say anything about it to me. yeah n so, for all who wants to noe my results. and also for me to remember and organise my thoughts down here.

i shall not be embarrassed about my results. i should haf done my best, so i should take pride in my work and my results. even if i didn't do my best, or it's really bad, i have to have the courage to face up to the world, and learn from my mistakes. yep and enough crapping about that. you probably get the idea.

i shall start with pft.

1.2.4km: 12.02min - A. [elaboration on it is in previous post]

2.inclined pull-ups: 7 - C. this is horrible. i did 13, but the teacher claimed that only 7 counted, the others didn't touch the chin. HUMPH. but nvm. i definitely haf to train my arms!!!!

3.shuttle run: 11.33sec - B. A is juz 0.04sec faster!!! ARGH i should haf reacted faster at the beginning, but i always lag when i haf to run. the person says go! but i started a fraction of a second later. n i could haf run faster, i could feel it. n i can't retest unless i get below C grade. so nvm. at least better than last year, in which i did 12.3sec. haha!

4.sit-ups: 41 - A. yay! achieved this goal! i wanted to get at least 40, hopefully 50, but i noe 50 is difficult. esp ppl like me who don't train. n credit[probably contributed only 1%]to blaws' blessing! she blessed me to get 41. yeah. n i did 40, then i decided to do 41 in order to fulfill the blessing. HAHA.

5.standing broad jump: 183cm - A. this is the totally UNEXPECTED one! hurray! hurray! hurray! i wanted to juz get A, which is like 171cm? and i used to do 16something at most, and usually juz do 15something. yet, this time, i didn't slide at all, and i did 170cm the first time, then 183cm the second try! ^^ im overjoyed!

6.sit and reach: 48.5cm - A. this is lame, but i asked blaws to push me down. she didn't push me down enough though, i didn't do 50! and she was scared my spine will break. =.=" only my muscle will tear, and good i can skip many many trainings if that happens. and i wanted to do 50! but nvm. and i didn't really stretch. i stretched at the sit-ups there, while waiting for our turn, and that's 2 stations b4 sit and reach, so it's not that effective anymore. plus im the leader bcos im the first index no. in the whole group, so i haf to go first! no time to stretch. >.<

that's all for pft. total i haf 4As, 1B and 1C. 27 points. yay it's gold! next year shall aim for 29 or 30. everything [except maybe ipu] better get As.

next up, my exam results. WAIT. AT THIS POINT OF TIME, I RECEIVE NEWS THAT MY BRO GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP! A* Star scholarship! the NSS[national science scholarship]! yay! -wail- means he will go overseas to study. sigh. will miss him. but that's 2 years later! LET'S REJOICE! -jumps up and down-

ok back to exam results.

English Brochure: 23/30. [not bad. am satisfied...still waiting for eng pt]
Nature of Science PT: 9/20 [yessss i failed! u probably dun understand how i feel though]
Biology Eoi: 21/30
Biology Pt: 17/24
Maths Eoi: 26/40 [wail n i pride in being good at maths! maths is my best subject! or at least was. sigh. how can it beee?]
Geography Pt [the one on zambia and famine and stuff from longgg ago]: 17/28 [sigheth. but we didn't put in much effort for that]
Geography Test: 17.5/20 [sigh could haf gotten 19.5. that 0.5 我心甘情愿. because i really didn't noe how to do it and anyhow crap one. n she still gave me 3.5/4 for that qn! ^^]

We are still waiting for our Chinese Eoi, Literature Eoi, history pt,and eng pt. yeah.

and the stupid lit quiz. i got 9/15! can u believe it? she said those who did below 10 muz do the poetry analysis! and i got 9!!! humph. but im not going to do it until she gives instructions. hah. and the lit choral speaking thingy is a total mess! >.< and the history debate. i don't noe if im opposition or proposition! so how to research??

and i lent blaws timeline. which is reallyyyy nice! has quantun physics in it! ^^ am reading the handmaid's tale now. which is "la servante ecarlate" in french. ["the scarlet maidservant" directly translated.] monsieur quenot was saying that when he saw me reading the handmaid's tale. haha apparently it's some lit book for sec 3s, but my bro was idiotic and bought it according to the booklist even though he didn't take lit in sec 3. haha but it's nice to read. except a leetle disgusting at parts. but other than that quite nice.

there's the optional history essay on linking star wars and jap occupation. i know how to do it. and i can do it. but i don't noe if i want to. and what's the point of getting his personal collection of star wars trilogy? and i may not even get it even if i do write that essay.

tmr is ora day. [old rafflesian's association day] i haf to go bcos i haf to help out at our track and field booth there. 2nd shift, 9 to 11am. at ri. i wonder what we are selling?i haf absolutely no idea what we are going to do! hope i will enjoy myself, and haf fun ppl!

esp those walka-jogathoners. meee wanteddddd to gooooo. but meeeee didn't gettttt the chanceeeeee toooooo! nvm. better off not going. im SICK. plus my monthly u-noe-what is here. on the pft day. HUMPH. and im having a sore throat! probably from singing too much phantom of the opera, if we hold on together, a whole new world, jap songs, cyndi's honey haha, and such. not to forget the ice-cream i haf today!

uhh and here is an excerpt of a super weird convo with blaws. no offence to anyone! esp the "main character" mentioned. it's juz me who is so enthu about jap and wants to use jap whenever possible! lalala...

[22:25:12] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: i should go
[22:25:27] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: daryl-chan suki daewa alimasen yo!
[22:25:53] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: or maybe daryl-chan ga kirai des yo
[22:25:57] The Entomologist: Fortis Imaginato Generat Causum: speak in something i can understand
[22:26:11] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: komenasai, daemo anatawa kirai des!
[22:28:06] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: the above means i dun like daryl
[22:28:12] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: or i hate/dislike daryl
[22:28:21] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: or sorry, but i hate/dislike you
[22:28:30] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: the three lines of jap
[22:28:42] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: but it's not really true
[22:28:45] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: bcos i dun hate him
[22:28:47] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: haha
[22:28:52] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: but it's something i learnt recently!
[22:28:59] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: so im trying to make full use of it
[22:29:01] cherica~[[*65 days* FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH...white friday! me hate ipu!]: and rmb it well


hmm i haf more to say, LOADS in fact. but can't rmb. thankfully for u ppl reading this. uhh then i shall end off? so happy friday the thirteenth! it's not necessarily an unfortunate occasion. it's for us all, both fortunate AND unfortunate. so all e best and enjoy ur weekend! :)

Friday, May 06, 2005

If we hold on together

If we hold on together

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark, we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts … Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I


the music on my blog is the music on "If we hold on together", from the movie Land Before Time. isn't the music nice? so touching, makes me want to cry. -sobs-

ok n so is colours of the wind. really nice. shall put it up next.

n im glad 2.4km is over. but i didn't get what i wanted! i wanted to get less than 12 min, but....apparently the whole class slowerd down. from last year. i suspect it has something to do with the pe we had today. u noe we had such a vigourous basketball match against each other! n so we are tired out. n also i never train for so longgggggggg! so im determined n convinced that i can run much faster.

humph shall try again by myself. ON A PROPER TRACK WITH NO SLOPE WADSOEVER. n beat chloe! she ran 11.18! n last year she ran 11.31! humph. n i heard that xinqi ran 8 min something during pe. 2.4km!? i don't believe it....but i shall ask her anyway. she's so fast!!!!!!!!! -wails-

ok n 5 stations coming up next friday. set lots of goals. hmm.

ipu: 17 -if possible- juz try to get at least c. which is...8 i think. or 7? oh nvm.
sit-ups: more than 40. if possible, 50. but it's too big a jump....
sit and reach: 50cm. of course, to do this, muz ask someone to push me down. chewchew! -patpat-
shuttle run: ai ya juz get A can alrd. 11.3? forgot what it is.
standing broad jump: 177! my lucky no! unfortunately it's mr. kenneth tan. >.<

ok...mainly try to get A for everything. sit n reach, and sit-ups sure get A. probably shuttle run. juz the standing broad jump and oso the ipu. challengingest one is ipu. sigh. my weak arm muscles! shall train it as well!

ok. uhhh still haf my chinese yi lun wen to do. sigh. n the jian bao thingy. n ppl! *RMB TO DO YOUR HISTORY REFLECTIONS! i think i will collect next week. i think it's overdue le, but nvm. remember horrr!

n err. good luck to sec 4s for their pts even after eois. n i dunno if i should go to the rjco concert. >.< blaws is asking me to...

Friday, April 29, 2005

dreams are always weird...

I slept for 1 and a half hours last night. At the livingroom. Then my mum woke me up and asked me to go sleep. So I did. N woke up at around 6:45am. Then I slept again. Then I had a weird dream

I was a character from inuyasha [an anime].

i was kagome
the the main female character from inuyasha lah
n i could shoot very well
even though i don't noe how to hold the arrow n bow properly =.="
n then i got this toy arrow and bow thingy
that was pink and white
dunno why
then me n blaws, who was in the dream as my best friend, were at some place with some fighting competition
n then we wanted someone to win
forgot who
then some bad guyyyy cheated
n harmed the other competitors outside the stage. And then they became sick or something.
n he sent a few of very strong ppl up stage
n when they came up, i showed off my wonderful shooting skills
n shot them
with the toy arrows
hahaha
n they all had a pain in their heart or something
but of course the arrow was a toy
so it didn't pierce them
but bounced off
so they didn't noe what hit them
n they had a bruise on their chest
haha
n then the judge said they were hurt, so cannot fight
then we were very happy
er n blaws was praising i can shoot so well >.< but I don’t noe the outcome of the competition. Don’t ask me why. Dreams are always weird.
then we went home
then we were at a bus-stop near block N. then we saw boonyang and daryl. So we crossed the road and joined them.
n i left my waterbottle at the bus-stop
it was really weird. dunno why we were following boonyang and daryl, and we were chatting happily, then we turned into this large large field full of yellowed and dried grass
n the grass was waist-length
so we were trashing through it
haha
in the dream it was sooo hot n all yellow [bcos of the sunlight at my bed]
n then we came out
to the road again
n i was like “oh dear my waterbottle!”
then i stare at the blocks, n realise it's block M. which means block N is the next block.
so i ran to the bus-stop n came back
n then asked boonyang and daryl why they take such a longggg way when they could haf juz walked by the road
n they didn't answer. i thought that maybe they wanted the fun and excitement, but that field was really lonely, no one else, so quiet, and very eerie. i wouldn't want to walk there. I prefer the road
ok then i woke up
bcos i heard my father SNEEZE very loudlyyyy.

Can’t make the head or tail of the story. I muz be getting obsessed with inuyasha and kagome. Haha. Next week is eois!

Tuesday: lit and Chinese eoi.
Wednesday: maths and bio eoi

That’s all. Then Friday is our 2.4km. sigh. Can’t wait till next weekend. Good luck everyone for ur exams or tests! N good luck to myself too.

N hci won the Chinese debate competition 3-2. but it’s ok. Rgs has done really really well juz being able to get to the finals! ^^ so well done to rgs! well done hci too!

Friday, April 22, 2005

nature week >.<

sigh. nature week is almost over. today is the last day, and it's earth day! and blaws and i finished solving the nature week puzzle last night. the final step is [bolded parts are the answers except for the team]:

The Final Step
Of Mammoths and Maoris and Nature at its best


To: Miss May Tan, Team: 207

Message:
We can’t eat cash! But wait, I know better. The same clues have told me something else.
I know who’s really at fault for all this mess.

Because I’ve seen it before.

It’s man, isn’t it?


sighh. we muz "always remember: money/profits/economic gains cannot subsitute what man has lost in the environment". this is quoted from nicole quah. one of the clever twin-geniuses

ok n today my class got into the nature quiz thingy during assembly. and 3 representitives from the classes are to go onstage. me, blaws and tiddy. with 3 from 210 and 208.

and im a psychic! i predicted that cheryl will smile at me when i go on stage, and she DID! haha.

sigh anw it was soooooo humiliating! haha bcos we don't know the answers, and we juz anyhow guess very unique and creative answers that are obviously wrong. of course, since im sitting in the middle, the mike is with me, and whatever weirddddd answers blaws n tiddy tell me i blabber it, and it's so embarrassing! eeeeeeeee! esp the whole school laughs. >.<

esp "what is the smallest mammal in the world?" and tiddy told me kiwi! and i said that into the mike, and then i realised that kiwi is a BIRD!!!!!!!!

which is so obviously wrong. later on at lunch, when i was thinking of what the answer could be, i thought of mousedeer, or some squirrel, or the smallest dog in the world! but i realised that there's the mouse. i bet many ppl didn't even think of it in the first place. =.=" but the answer is below.

The smallest mammal in the world is a bat from Thailand, Kitli's Hog-nosed Bat, Craseonycteris thonglongyai, being only 2.9-3.3 cm or 1.14-1.3 inches long and weighing a mere 1.7-2 g or 0.06 - 0.07oz this bat is well smaller than many insects and snails.


and then something like "what is the first and largest nature reserve in singapore?" and we didn't noe so i said pulau ubin [im always the one saying the answers or passing. everything is my decision!], the first thing that came to my mind. but it's not even in singapore!!! it's probably bukit timah nature reserve! humph it's so near my home and i didn't even think of it.

and the worst muz be "what is the most common pollutant of the environment" or something like that. and blaws dunno why told me human skin! and i said THAT!!!! it's worse than kiwi!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

ok but i kindof saved the day [and the school, who got very well-entertained and was laughing soooooo hard]. the qn was "what does SEC stand for?"

and blaws didn't noe. and i thought it might be Singapore Environment Centre. but council sounded nicer. so i juz anyhow said Singapore Environment Council [and some ppl were laughing bcos i was anyhow guessing], and u noe what?

yeah those ppl there knows. but those who didn't, it WAS CORRECT. then the whole school burst into laughter and i myself was like "uh? it's correct? wah i anyhow guess oso correct" haha ok it's lame. but it's funny.

ok and for the first round, 208 got 4, we got 6 and 210 got 8. sigh. then the second round, where one person is supposed to draw something and u are to guess what it is. yeah and OURS ARE SO DIFFICULT! NOT FAIR! COMPARED TO 208'S AND 210'S OURS IS MORE DIFFICULT! ok the first one was a mangrove thingy, which isn't difficult. then the second one blaws didn't noe how to draw it, so she was drawing a landfill [which we didn't realise. it was dots all over, how are we supposed to noe it's landfill?!] then she drew a star there! for dunno what reason.

and she used a green marker and drew something i dunno what. then she drew a rainbow n tried to colour the part which is green green. [u noe red orange yellow green? yeah the 4th line then] but we didn't noe it's a rainbow. so we were thinking it's dunno what thing with curved lines! turned out the answer is green revolution! SO DIFFICULT RIGHT? HOW IN THE WORLD TO DRAW GREEN REVOLUTION??!!?

maybe u can colour one part green, so that we can guess till we know it's green, but revolution???? how? tell me!!!! -wails- ok so i decided to pass, [not sure could or not, but juz passed anyway. no way i can solve that] and she drew some earth-like thingy [in e green marker lah], so i thought it's green earth, conserve earth! or something. then she drew some tap dripping water, n i thought it's conserve water, conserve environment. then she drew a skull, u noe those pirate's symbols? yeah that. then it's like, i don't noe what's thattttt!

ended up it's oil spill. =.=" should haf drawn a ship with oil spilling out, and some dead fish floating around. but nvm. i dun blame blaws. she did her best, and we were ON STAGE, and we were nervous and didn't noe what to do. and ppl dun blame us. -wince- yes we are horrible. and should haf let gaosi come. but i wonder if gaosi will rmb the answers under our circumstances. nvm.

well. and today on the bus i saw a girl from my primary school. she's primary 6 this year, and she looked familiar, and she said hi to me and waved to me. and so i sat next to her, and talked to her. n realised she was a fren of a p4 girl i knew [my si-mei! or fourth sister in englishhhh] when i was in p6. so they are in p6 now lah. yes and she was in the musical i was in too. either as a munchkin or as a choir singer. since she's in choir, juz like my si-mei! haa.

it's really weird how i was thinking and missing my primary school life, about how carefree it is, how we were innocent and happy, and not worried at all, and haf fun all the time, and how the time passes so quickly, and now sec sch seems so horrible, the realities of the world is juz too horrible, and time seems to be dragging all too slowly. and then i see this girl from zhenghua primary.

muz be fate. she cheered me up tremendously. she laughed with the purest and most innocent children laughter, and she was very straightforward, very happy, very innocent, and she doesn't worry about anything. and she was licking an ice-cream she bought from mcdonald's. happily.

i miss being a child. i miss being innocent and cuddly and laughing with the purest and most innocent children laughter. i miss my childhood. i miss my frens. most of all i miss my happy days as a child. they are slipping away from me, fast, too quickly for me to hold on to them...

i may be not yet 14. but im alrd tainted. no more a child. no more innocence. im growing up.

Monday, April 11, 2005

sports fest

i was fretting over raffles race for most of the time, so i didn't really enjoy myself for the most part of it. =p thashi -glares- backed out bcos her leg was hurt, n there was no one else except me, n the others all didn't want to run, n i had no choice. i was sooo upset over it. n i didn't haf shorts either. so i had to borrow from the wonderful shuyu! good shuyu! -patpat-

ok, raffles race turned out quite ok lah, u can even say it was fun. rgs girls were the first runners, then, ri boys second, rjc girls third, rjc boys fourth runners, n it was juz 4x100m, so it wasn't that bad. ok, n my ill-fated team who had to team up with me, i really pity them. feeling guilty for not running faster, but nvm. anw, the my team partner, the ri boy, he came up to me n shook my hand, n he introduced himself, n asked for my name. i told him. n that was that.

i was surprised, bcos i thought that everyone would juz be ignoring each other, n get it over n done with, but oh well. then i thought he was a lecher, but then again, maybe it's juz sportsmanship. making frens everywhere u go, promote team spirit, n so on. ok, so that's that.

then, after a longgg time, n my knee was practically breaking off and was all red n painful from kneeling on the hot track, finally the gun went. -yikes- i hate the gun. i always lag for a while in shock b4 running, yeah n i guess that was what i did. =P then i ran lor. then i was sooooo slow! i think i was last, sigh, my poor team. sigh. anyway, that ri boy was cheering me on. which is soooo nice of him. i mean if i were about to run, i wouldn't haf the time nor the courage to be cheering my team mates on. i would be trembling with nervousness, n probably drop the baton.

first time in my life the second runner was actually cheering me on. as in the person i was about to pass the baton to. which is really nice of him. :) n thus, i feel sooooo guilty of being so slow. n pulling the whole team down. sigh. the ill-fated team i was in, i think got last. so yeah. poorrrrr team.

sigh, n i didn't haf a chance to go n say sorry to him. nor thank him for being so nice. bcos i was occupied with andrea! n was talking to her. n i hugged her twice. really miss her. i probably would never see him again, but it doesn't matter. at least he gave me hope that there are still really nice boys around.

many boys were very nice in primary school, but once they go to secondary school, they change. the succumb to peer pressure n they change so much, they are hardly who i knew them to be anymore. sigh. it's the same with girls. but girls are not that serious. at least they show their true selves.

n well done chloe, chew min, lynette and wei ling for winning 4x100m! and chew min, who didn't get first, but second, she tripped at the beginning, so she will always be first in my heart! n weiling, she did her best, and she tripped at the beginning too, so well done! n chloe who as usual, got first for 400m! yay! n xinqi, well done! u won 400m too! n eunice, she was 4 seconds behind her in the heats, but this time she was only 1 second behind her! so well done! u really did ur best! im sooo proud of u! hmm. anyone else?

n well done thea, lihua, rachel and irmelia for raffles race! i want to do mass dance! i didn't do it last year, cos i was participating in sports fest, sigheth. ah, n i want to hug blaws and qw! -hughug- all e best everyone! :)

Friday, April 08, 2005

hurray for the long weekend!

hurray! im happy that it's the end of the week! n monday is sports day, and that tuesday is a school declared holiday. although i have to go french. sigh. but hey, look on the bright side! we may be watching a movie on that day u noe! :)

tomorrow im meeting up with my ex-piano teacher for dinner! im so happy. it's been so long since i met her, n i really miss her. she was really nice. ^^ she got married to some german guy n migrated there, n she finally is coming back to singapore. yep. so it's like so long since i saw her...-counts- since december 2002, when i was going to p6. so it's 2 years and 4 months! sooo long. i rmb i cried when i found out that she was leaving. hmm.

anyway, the past few weeks i haf thought through about my life and plans for the future, n i haf come to a conclusion. n so i am not that upset anymore. i feel like somewhat some hope. as long as i haf frens, i will survive.

recently, quenot played a movie for us! though we had to answer qns on the worksheet. in french. n the movie was a la folie pas du tout! thought it's all in french subtitles too. so a lot of ppl needed explaining. i watched it b4, so i understood everything. hee. so i was like explaining to my frens. ^^ but it's funnn. n we did a review of the movie after watching it. in french of course.

he made a list of movies n asked us if we watched them b4. i believe n hope that we are going to watch more french movies! yay. n we are faster than all the french classes i noe, so we haf the time to watch these movies! n we muz prepare a scene from a french book n act it out. we haf decided on peter pan or some disney book. :)

n in the movie, this song appeared lots of times. n it's in english, though i can't understand y it's in a french movie, but here it is anyway. i was singing it in school today all the time to everyone around me! heh. everyone muz think im mad or something. >.<

Love was made for me and you

[L] is for the way you look at me
[O] is for the only one I see
[V] is very, very extraordinary
[E] is even more than anyone that you adore

Love is all
That I can give to you
Love is more
Than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart
And please don't break it
Love was made
For me and you



haha. n me n my fren were translating the lyrics into french. which is a total mess. nevermind. well, looking forward to the weekend. but there's a lot of homewk. shall make a list.

-history pt
-geog ws on dam
-geog ws on flooding
-rd geog textbook chapter 9
-study for geog formative test
-maths ws 5
-maths ws activity
-maths ws optional activity
-maths ws 1
-eng brochure/pamphlet ws.

ok that's about it. some of the stuff i would probably give up n don't do, n wait for teacher to go through, but oh well, juz as wad miss ha loved to say, "attempt your ws and be prepared for lessons". yep.

n all e best to all who are having syf soon! plus the choir ppl, cheer up! it's human nature to be evil. >.< and also, we are having cross-country on wed. sigh,i dunno if i want to run or not. maybe i should. maybe i shouldn't. shall wait n see. im one of the 8, but mr. tan is going to choose 6 on that day. -yikes- good luck to myself then.

And happy birthday to daryl! Bon anniversaire! :)

Thursday, March 31, 2005

give up

i give up. i give up give up give up! dun ask me wad im going to give up at. im going to give up at everything!! i feel horrible right now. no it's nothing to do with u all. nothing to do with anyone at all. except the whole world.

ok im contradicting myself. sometimes it's like that whole world is juz against u, n u want them to go according to ur will, but it's impossible, n yet they are not against me on purpose, they are juz normal, being normal, while im the one who is becoming unbearable. what is the problem with me?

it's been only one week since school started, or even less. juz 4 days, n im so frustrated alrd. what's wrong? am i missing the holidays that much?

that's not it. im juz tired of life here. everyday is like this. i wonder how i managed to survive 3 months at all. i wonder how i survived one year n 3 months. i wonder how i survived for 13 years and 8 months!

life in singapore is horrid. so stressful. other countries dun haf ccas. they dun haf all kinds of projects and loads of homewk. they dun haf to worry so much about going to jc or going overseas and wadnot. im so tired. so sick and tired of everything being wrong.

everything has been wrong since forever. i had grown to accept it, and get used to it, while having some hope that it will become fine in the future. the future came, n went by, n it's still wrong. n so now im fed up with it, n i totally give up. im going to continue trying to get used to it. to continue the same thing. over n over again. n not to lose patience. time will pass quickly, n yet slowly.

i hate competitions. n yet i haf so many. not that i haf a choice. i simply can't let everyone down. there is nothing i can do but participate n do my best. i haf national juniors track competitions soon. it's so near, n is taking up so much of my precious time! i need to do homewk, n projects, but my cca, my 3rd lang n my so many commitments are taking up too much time. im going to burst soon. that's y i can't help it but blog. there's nothing i can do but juz break down.

what's wrond with the world? what's wrond with me? im wishing for all idealistic things. which is so impossible. never going to happen. it's juz a dream. never to be reached. n so i know that. n im so frustrated. but i still haf my friends. they are the only ones holding me up, pushing me on, encouraging me on. then again, they are the ones who pressurise me, n make me feel horrible for not doing my best when i should. i also feel horrible when i treat them horribly, though they were so good to me.

i haf realised that everyone is so nice to me, so good to me, n i haf been taking them for granted. but i can't help it, i juz can't treat them well all the time! y can't i? what's the problem? when i dun think about it, i go and hurt someone again. i know they dun show it, they think i don't noe, maybe they are not even hurt, but i feel so guilty, so guilty, so guilty for not treating them as well as i can. to do make an effort to be good to them, rather than losing patience at the tiniest things and losing my temper at them.

i feel horrible. i need confidence. but i realise that i haf been taking everything for granted. everything could be juz gone overnight. n so, all my confidence is lost. no more confidence that i haf a bright future n all. is going to a uni a bright future at all?

i haf asked this to myself many times during this entry. what is the problem with me? perhaps u dun understand what i was talking about throughout the whole entry. but it doesn't matter. i juz need to relieve my stress n frustration here. sorry to all for being bored to death, n thanks for reading to the end. :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

weird eurasian man...

ytd i was on the bus, and the bus was practically EMPTY i tell u, n then this eurasian guy boarded the bus n he came right over n sat next to me! n he's very big-sized, so he sat soo close to me that our legs were touching! n so i inched away from him as discreetly as possible but he is taking so much space that he is sitting on part of my seat! gah.

n then, after some time, he started talking to me. he asked me if the bus is going to sixth avenue, n i said yes. n he was like nodding his head n saying yes i saw on the bus it said it went to sixth avenue. n so i thought that he's going to sixth avenue. which is good. bcos he won't be anywhere near me when i alight. >.<

he asked me what secondary i am in, n i told him im in sec 2. then he asked me about the subjects i took, n also about the education system in singapore. n he was talking about how u muz study hard n score well, bcos it's a very tough fight out in the market n u need a certificate n all. pah. he's pretending to be some advisor izit, n like-it's-so-tough-out-here-muz-study-hard kind of person. i wonder wad he's up to!

n then, he asked me if i took up any sports. n that it's good to take up sports, n not juz studystudystudy. n i said i did. n he asked my what kind of sports, n i said running. n he was like ohhhh that's good. it's individual isn't it? n i said there's relays too. n he said i ran 4 x 100m? then i said no, i dun run sprints. i run long distance. n he nodded his head.

i was sooo nervous n wishing im home alrd throughout the whole trip! i mean, it's right after the battlefield trip, with all its depressing history, n im super tired n my legs are aching like hell, n when i was on the previous bus, i had to squeeze, n had no place to sit, n had to stand for 25 min! my legs were breaking off.

ok, then as i was nearing my house, he asked me if i lived nearby, n i said yes. n he said so around hillview area? n i said yes. then asked me if it's the next stop. n it was! how did he noe???? could it be it's juz a guess, or he knew everything about me??? n why is he asking me so many qns? why did he sit beside me when there are other seats? n so close to me too? izit juz curious about rgs pupils like me? or izit he's a...crime-committer?

he's so weird, i was so scared, even more scared than a previous incident where a man in his 40s leaned so close to me on a bus that he is blocking my way to anywhere at all, n i could feel his breath on me! but nothing happened that time, bcos i "escaped" in time n crawled out under his arm. so scary!

anw, then he said that he's alighting at the same stop as me! he's visiting a fren there! n i was wondering if it's true, or was it juz following me? i thought he's going to sixth avenue! or izit he's supposed to take a bus that goes towards sixth avenue? i was so worried n terrified, i didn't dare imagine wad would happen. i stretched my legs in case i needed to use them to run or to kick. but my legs were so tired n i was so scared, i didn't noe wad to do.

then we alighted, n luckily my dad called me, but i wasn't really listening to him, but was too occupied with thoughts about that weird eurasian guy. i juz said ok, ok, ok, yah. bye, absently to my father, as im frightened. n the guy he took out his phone n spoke to it too. maybe it's juz an act. to pretend that he's occupied too, or maybe not. maybe it's genuine. maybe he's innocent n is juz curious n everything was a coincidence. i held on to that hope. although a lot of evidence is pointing against him...

i waited at the traffic light, n i looked around for anyone else. no one. juz the cars passing. wad if he grabbed me? or stole my bag? wad to do??? i kept thinking that i could kick him at a certain place if he dared to touch me. [=p] n slap him. or anything. i was so desperate.

then as we crossed the road, he put out his hand like he wants to shake my hand, n yet like he wants to touch my hand like that, n he said he's something something, i was too nervous to hear wad he was saying. was his name andy or something like that? then he asked me wad my name was. n i was shocked, n didn't noe wad to do. so i was like a fish or something, with my mouth open n my heart pumping soooooooo fast n i said, "er...my name? um...my name? ah..." i said anything but my name.

n he was like smiling, n i refused to shake his hand. but juz smile awkwardly n nervously. n i was thinking of saying im clara. the first thing i thought of. it's the name i felt is very nice. n i want to call my daughter clara. but b4 i could. he took his hand away n probably thought that i didn't want to tell him my name. n then he smiled n said, "I think my friend lives there. Bye."

how did he noe i lived on the other side n i was going to turn left? he turned right n walked in the opposite direction n taking out a piece of paper, he glanced at it n looked at the condo ahead of him. did he knew everything about me? wad's wrong with him? why did he sit beside me, why did he come here, why did he talk to me, why did he ask for my name n wanted to shake my hand????? so many qns, he could be innocent, maybe not. maybe he was up to something, but he decided to give up? which is weird.

regardless of wad, he had frightened my out of my wits, n i kept glancing back in case he followed me or anything. so scaryyy. if it's juz his culture, or habit to be so friendly with strangers, n particularly students, it's definitely weird. veryyyyy weird. it kept my mind occupied as i walked up the slope.

maybe i should haf used cherica, n talked about how frenchy the name sounds, n that i haf french blood in me, n my great-great-grandfather was from france or something. n that i know a leetle french only. haha. it's only then that i could laugh out. at least im safe, n nothing happened. but im on the lookout the whole night in case i saw him again. i never want to see him again.

oh, n when he first came up the bus, i thought he looked like atticus. n i was thinking about how i would tell him about to kill a mockingbird, n tom robinson, n harper lee, n the great depression, n the prejudice, n so on. which was weird. bcos he started talking to me right at that moment. this shall be a traumatising experience to me. i shall never trust weird men with weird looks.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

half a tu outing...

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that's the banner that blawsie made for The Uncatchables [TU]! yay! currently there are 11 ppl, n we need only 1 more. hee. they are:
1. Me [sunshine]
2. Blossom [spider]
3. Qianwen [moonlight]
4. Guoling [tulip]
5. Leican [skater]
6. Yinfei [raindrop]
7. Eelyn [wind]
8. Carmen [element]
9. Ck [shadow]
10. Bhuvan [ripple]
11. Xinying [flame]

today lc n i went ice-skating, n not bad for me, as i only fell once! yayness. although many times i almost fell, thx to the group of kids [esp their kiddies thingy!!!!!] n oso the grp of guys who were swishing past at full speed all the time! heh.

went to watch movie afterwards. it was a half uncatchables outing! bcos bhu, see, me, blossom, lc, n qw were there! hee. 6 of us all from tu! watched a series of unfortunate events, n it's really nice! for those who haf read the books n for those who haf not, the effects are really fabulous, n it's realllllllly nice! one of e best movies i haf ever seen! hee.

anw, blawsie lent me le papillon! the butterfly, a frenchy movie. yay! shall watch it sometime tmr. tmr im going downtown east. hah. some track n field outing. dunwannago. but i promised my fren to go. sighh.

n today qw, blawsie n i went to mcdonalds, n haf ice-cream, n then we ate the savoury tempura chicken thingy under my influence, n then blawsie insisted it was too spicy n went to get more water. n we ended up getting 6 CUPS of water. they smell n taste dentisty, like those water the dentists would give u like that. n it's awfulllll. like there's some disinfectant in it or something! n we used our straws to blow bubbles, n we had bubble-blowing competition to see who can blow for the longest, n i won! yay!

but i think qw should haf been the winner, bcos she was blowing lower, n it takes more strength to blow as u need to blow the bubbles all the way to the surface, while if u blow at the surface, it's easier. haha. nvm. we shall be draw! -patpat-

Friday, March 11, 2005

swim carnival

yesterday was a memorable swim carnival indeed.

i was a helper for swim carn, the touch judge for lane 7. waddle won some races -yay!- but best of all, guess what? 207 won the inter-level relay!!!!!!! yayayayaya! kat, ame, sal, and see, u all RAWK!!!!!!!

WE WON THE SEC 3s AND 4s!!!!!!! even one of the sec 4 classes which was faster than us in the inter-class relay was slower than us! fortunately ame's fall earlier that day, a poor painful trip over blossom's bag and falling face flat on the floor didn't affect our results! yay!

poor ame has a biggg bruise on each of her knees, and a graze on her left knee! -patpat-

basically i got 3 hours for being a helper! n so i haf enough hours for the year! yay. all i need is the sports fest attendance and a representation. sandwich making is over, so cannot. but there is inter-house netball, basketball and soccer later on. so i shall go join the netball one. or maybe basketball. im never good at soccer, so i shall not go. haha.

n hurray it's the holidays! there's homework for goodness sake!!!!!

THEY PROMISED, THEY PROMISED THERE WOULD BE NO HOMEWK, AND JUZ BECAUSE THEY PUT THE DEADLINES ON LIKE, THE TUESDAY AFTER THE HOLIDAYS AND LEARNING JOURNEY WEEK, OR THE END OF MARCH, WE WON'T HAF TIME TO DO IT DURING SCHOOL WEEK, N THEY KNOW IT! N SO WE DO IT DURING THE HOLIDAYS, AND END UP STILLLLL WITH HOMEWK. HUMPH. MENTEURS ET MENTEUSES!

anyway, please do not think im going mad or is very agitated. im juz very upset that they didn't keep to their word. humph. now i haf:
-maths revision
-maths ws 2
-chinese newspaper thingy
-english assignment => advertisement [do at urine's house]
-orientation for sl project at the bukit batok thingy [time yet to be decided]
-piano!!! n oso piano master class! n the stupid performance class! i can't play for anything!!!! -wail-

to do. by end of march holidays. ok. n it seems quite little. but i haf no time! im really busy during this march holidays. i want to finish reading those three chinese books, so i can start on my yue du bao gao book. then can read it n do my first yue du bao gao. ok. n oso if i haf time, i shall read that english book. A handmaid's tale. haha. oh well.

it's learning journey after march holidays! which means one whole week juz fieldtrips and nooooooo school! yayayayay! last year was e-learning week, but i think they decided that fieldtrips is better and more effective. haha. n i get to miss my third lang! im not sure if i want to go on thursday. maybe i will, maybe i won't. we r released at 2pm, but i shall see if i feel like going first. hee. -grins evilly-

oh, n happy birthday shirleyyyyy! i noe it's very belated now, but since im blogging, i might as well say it. i sent an sms to u anyway. u were at camp though. haha. ok. bon anniversaire! shall sing french version of birthday song. -sings- ok.

all e best. n happy holidays everyone!

Friday, March 04, 2005

no training today! ^^

hurray! there isn't training today! bcos a lot of the ppl in track ran in sports fest yesterday, so there's no track today!

yesterday is mostly finals for 800m, 3000m, and 4x400m relay. n heats for 200m. everyone who participated, well done! ^^ especially xinqi and chloe! it never cease to amaze me, how fast they could run! especially xinqi, who is juz a sec one! she runs like, so much faster than most of us sec twos lor, and we trained for more than one year leh! it's soooo amazing that she's going to catch up with chloe soon!

chloe muz work harder le! but she is super fast too! i bet she n xinqi ran like 58 or 59 seconds for 400m yesterday lor! oh nevermind.

yay waddle won 2nd for sec ones 4x400m, and we got first for sec twos 4x400m! u noe we were like 30 metres behind tarbet, who is leading so fast that we really gave up hope that we could get first for 4x400m, then chloe was last runner, and she caught up a leetle bit, which is juz a few centimetres faster, and we all thought no matter how fast chloe is, she can't catch up with the tarbetian.

n shockingly, miraculously, she caught up at the curve, as she sprinted all the way with such amazing speed, and at the last hundred metres she caught up with the tarbetian n overtook her all the way to the end! it's really wonderful how fast she can run! im so prouddddd of her!!! she's got so much talent!

n i watched à la folie pas du tout, or he loves me, he loves me not! it's the best movie i haf ever seen! it's got a super interesting storyline, and there are so many twists n surprises! there are even surprises within surprises! it's in french, since it's a french movie, but there's english subtitles. btw, if u want to watch it, the third lang ppl can borrow it from the moelc library at the french section, where the vcds are. for one week. others can borrow it from those who borrowed! u muz watch it, it's simply too nice! =)

n tmr is founder's day!! yay, im looking forward to it! n next friday is swimming carnival! our class got first for inter-class relay!!! n so they r competing with the sec ones, threes and fours, in the inter-level relay! well done and good luck to kat, amelia, sal, n see!

well, this is a really long post, since i didn't post for so long, so yeah. all é best everyone!

p.s. bon anniversaire tabbi [pour hier] et serene! =)

p.s.s. please please please ppl do tag! my posting thingy is getting really dead. =p

p.s.s.s. i changed my blog music! it's full moon's eternal snow, her second single! nice? ^^ n for those who haven't hear full moon's myself, which is her first single, which was my previous blog music, n oso for those who miss it, or want it for their blog music, here's the url! enjoy...

http://animevisions.net/mp3/Full_Moon_Myself.mp3

Sunday, February 27, 2005

flunked my maths test...

hello.

i haven't blogged for more than a week. n so i decided to blog. basically, for the past week, i was rather depressed about practically everything in my life. but im better now. yeah. n i was flunked my maths test, n didn't even finish it. i did till the last qn, the frequency curve, which was horrible n totally not a smoooth curve it should be!

n so 5 marks flew away. for certain. n there are other qns too. so i will probably flunk it. n i hope i dun fail it. -hopes fervently-

n there's the scientific investigation, which was a total mess this morning with my father and brother around making things worse. sigh. but at least the experiment is somewhat done, and all is left is the report. 20 marks. n a rather high percentage too.

well. i think that's all. need to work on my homewk. all e best everyone! bye. :)





Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male



Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve


Thursday, February 17, 2005

tmr is pi...

hello!

tomorrow is half-day! because it's prefect's investiture! lalala...n im going to the band concert play'05 at 7.30pm. meeting up with lc n eating dinner b4 then. haa. looking forward to gl's performance! haa. plus cheryl's!

i dun like going to rjc. bcos i get very dark. firstly, there's at least a 30-minute walk under the hot, glaring sun to rjc, which makes us perspire like mad and a little sunburnt alrd. by the time we reach rjc, even before we started training, we r drenched through, with wad else? our perspiration!

then, we haf to go through the tiringgggg training, under the scorching hot sun!!! humph. n at the end of it, we r all sunburnt. n tired n wadnot. gahhhh.

however, interestingly my face doesn't get as sunburnt, so it's still rather fair. i guess it's because u dun stay there with ur face to the sun when u r walking or training right? n so my limbs r like so much darker than my face. haha. i dunno if this is a good thing or not, but never mind. i shall look at it in a positive way. at least my facial complexion isn't ruined! =)

i need to get some ideas for my science investigation! n the proposal is like, due tmr, but im not going to hand up tmr. on monday. the alternative but not encouraged dateline. =p

also, i need to do -lists-
1. chinese compo 说明文! I TOTALLY HATE THAT!
2. history assignment
3. science proposal
4. english summary
5. bring interactive geog 3 on monday

that's all. yay! i finished my maths. when im free i shall look at the textbook 3 thingy. as revision. haha.

n ppl, there isn't a tagboard here, but the posting comments thingy is a tagboard kind of thingy, so there's no need to put one up here. so go post comments. all e best everyone! :D

Saturday, February 12, 2005

back from hiatus...

hello!

I am back from my longggg break. aka hiatus. but im not abandoning this blog...yet. =) Cherica is back with a new look! this is my new template. i know it doesn't look nice, but it can't be helped. i think it's the best templates from the blogger site. and the colour is nice, so yeah.

so, do you like the music? it's from full moon wo sagashite, a jap anime show. it's one of the ending theme songs, n the first single of full moon! it's really nice, right? here are the lyrics and wad they mean:

Title: Myself

doushite doushite suki nan darou
konna ni namida afureteru

ano koro wa ushinau mono ga oosugite nani mo utaenakatta
sukoshi hanareta basho soko ga watashi no ibasho datta

kimi no hitomi no oku ni ano hi samishisa wo mitsuketa
futari niteru no ka na? Fuu
kizukeba itsumo tonari ni ite kureta

doushite konna ni suki nan darou
kimi no koe kanashii hodo hibiiteru YO
ima made nani ga sasae datta ka
tooku hanarete wakatta yo

nakinagara sagashi tsuzuketa maigo no kodomo no you ni
kedo soko ni wa eien nante aru wake nakute

"dare mo shinjinakereba iin da yo" tsubuyaita ne
futari niteta no ka na? Fuu
ano toki kimi wo mamoru to kimeta no ni

doushite omoide ni dekinain darou
toosugite chikasugite todokanai yo
"wasureyou" tte omoeba omou hodo
kimi ga ookiku natteku yo

doushite konna ni suki nan darou
kimi no koe kanashii hodo hibiiteru YO
ima made nani ga sasae datta ka
tooku hanarete wakatta yo

doushite kimi wo suki ni nattan darou
kantan sugite kotae ni naranai

English translation:

Why, oh why do I love you so much?
My tears overflow this much

Back in that time, there was so much to lose that I couldn't sing anything
A place just a little ways away, that was where I was

That day, deep in your eyes, I saw the loneliness
Are the two of us really alike?
If I'd realized it, you were always by my side

Why do I love you so much?
Your voice rings inside me so much it makes me sad
Just what it was that supported me so much
From afar, I realize it now

Like a lost child, crying and searching
But there was no such thing as forever

"It's okay if you don't believe in anyone" you whispered
Were the two of us really alike?
And I decided then I would protect you

Why can't I turn them to memories
You're too far, too near for me to reach
The more I tell myself "I will forget"
The larger you loom in my thoughts

Why do I love you so much?
Your voice rings (inside me) so much it makes me sad
Just what it was that supported me so much
I realize it now from afar

Why do I love you so much?
It's so easy I just can't answer


so romantic right? the singer has a very special and unique voice. not many people have such a strong voice and yet can sing with such emotion. i can drown in this melodious music...anyway, it's a very nice anime. maybe i will put the next theme song up here the next time. the name is eternal snow. very nice right?

anyway, i won't be able to blog very often, so just bear with me, k? but do check regularly, but not like everyday lah. maybe every week? or if u r in love with the music, u can come everyday juz to listen. haha.

here is the story of full moon wo sagashite.

A 12 year-old girl, Kouyama Mitsuki wants to be a singer to fulfil her past promise with Eichi, a boy she likes in her childhood memory. Since she has a tumour in her throat, the dream become impossible. She can't speak or sing too loudly, if not her throat will hurt and her condition worsens.

Mitsuki's life suddenly changed when she saw two shinigami(s) - spirits of death - in her room and they tell her that she will die exactly one year later. She now has a very limited time to reach her dream.

Somehow the two shinigami managed to help Mitsuki to become a singer. With their help, 12 year-old Mitsuki transform into 16 year-old Mitsuki, fit and completely healthy. And so she has double identities now. When she got home, she's 12 year-old. When she sing, she's 16 year-old idol named Full Moon.

Full Moon or Mitsuki has very kind heart. She become a popular idol and help many people solving their problems. She really wants to touch everyone's heart with her songs.

This is a great story about the true meaning of life. A 12 year-old girl is fighting hard for her life. Not to be sad with her future death, but to use her limited time the best way she can. Recommended for all ages. I think this anime is very nice! ^^

haha. this is becoming like an anime blog. haha. fine. dun be bored to death yet. read on! =P

oh, and post ur comments! there is a link at the bottom of each posts, so post ur comments! anything u want to say, juz say there. it's fine. n if u like this music, u can ask me for the url. i can give it to u. hee. see im so nice! lalala...

that's all for today. happy belated chinese new year everyone! and happy valentine's day in advance! "Can you feel the love tonight..."

p.s. im feeling very bubbly today! n im feeling like singing all e time! lalalaa...

Sunday, November 28, 2004

downtown east...

harlo.

downtown east.
coasta sands resort.
bbq.
wild wild wet.
escape.
swimming.
watching tv.
playing poker cards.
playing uno cards.
seeing sly. getting his autograph.
sleep.
beach games.
flour. dough. sand. sea.

that abt summarises the track n field sec 4 farewell camp at chalet. in downtown east. at coasta sands resort.

we were exploring the tv n the x box that was there. however, it doesn't play pirated stuff, vcds. it only plays original dvds, n even so, it needs some dvd compatible connecter n receiver thing. n so no movies.

thus we played card games. thx to the poker cards and uno cards i brought.

we had bbq on the first night. prepared items for sec4s. plus presents for them. our presents r lovely. they loved it. it's a hamper kind of thing. nicely wrapped n everything was hand-picked n chosen n argued over. haha.

then we heard that sly was here. we didn't believe it. thought it was some joke. then a senior showed us a picture of her n sly. we realised that it's true. sly was at downtown east. n so all the sec 1s, even the taufik fans, were running around looking for him.

eventually we found him at the entrance. signing some autographs. we went to the counter n asked for some paper n a pen. then we tore the paper up. n shared. n asked for the sutographs. we didn't haf cameras nor handphones wif us, so we couldn't take any pictures. that's on regret we had.

n then the taufik fans who aren't supposed to be so excited, were screaming n jumping n skipping n giggling all the way back to the chalet. quoted frm a particular sec 2 taufik fan aka leanne:

can u believe it??? can u believe it?????? we got sly's autograph!!!!!!! can u believe it?????????


the idea is somewhat there. i believe that they haf somewhat liked sly some more ever since. they were calling up their brothers n families exclaiming that they saw sly n got his autograph. n thus i called my bro too n told him i saw sly n described everything that happened that day.

finally went to sleep. some others[who alrd got sly's autograph] were discussing abt going to jurong point at 3am on sundae to get sly's n taufik's autograph.

the next day, a saturday, we were supposed to wake at 8am n go to the beach at 9, but we woke earlier at 7.30am. was all ready by 8.30am, but no sign of seniors [who were in the other room, n apparently sleeping soundly], so we played cards.until 9.30am, still no sign. so we continued. evemtually peered out n found out that they went to the foodcourt for breakfast.

yeah n all of us except for 3 others stayed in the room playing cards. n soon we went to the beach, which was dirty, full of litter [n had lots of green men picking up garbage], the sea is not nice, the sand not nice. i prefer the beaches at sentosa. haha. ok. then we played games. which was horrid.

we sat in a circle n everyone had to close their eyes. then one person was to walk around n paste some dough [which was flour mixed wif water] on someone. then both of them muz run one round n see who sits on the original seat first won't haf to continue. n so on.

moments later, everyone is splattered wif gooey dough n flour was thrown over us. then we went over to the sea, n the sec 4s were dumped into the sea by the sec 3s. we were told that the sec 1s were safe n won't be dumped in, but alas!

we were caught unexpected n the sec 3s ran over n pushed eileen n i in! grrr. while andrea n wei lin ran away. we scrubbed the dough off in the meantime n decided it wasn't that bad after all. then we decided to push andrea n wei lin in too. so we chased after them n pulled them into the sea! haaa. n we cleaned the dough off our shirts.

then we couldn't possibly walked in our shoes bcos we will dirty them, so we walked all the way back to our chalet barefooted n dripping wet. imagine passer-bys' reactions. sigh. then we oso had to pass through the barrier too. how embarrassing.

then we went into our room n we ranted n complained how lucky the three who stayed in the room were. then we showered together wif our clothes still on, n helped each other pick bits n pieces of dough off our shirts. n andrea's hair was scattered wif its of dough lor. her condition was the worst.

n we hated all that dough! how long did we spend scrubbing those dough n picking them our? the dumping in the sea was fine, but the dough???

andrea bathed first, so eileen n i went to the swimming pool's toilets to bathe. then we were done in a jiffy, n others were still dripping wet n dirty n waiting to use the toilets. hahaa. the cleaning up was terrible.

after that we played cards while waiting for others to bathe, n ate apples [we were hungry]. then we went kfc for lunch n we shared. haha. then we went back n played more cards while waiting for our food to digest somewhat, then we went to escape to play!

it was fun, n the 360 degrees revolutionary ride was the scariest! we were in separate seats which are in a circle, n one side moved higher n the other moved lower until it's almost perpendicular to the ground, still spinning. n i was holding on so tightly n hoping my specs, my slippers, my watch, n myself won't fall off!

we were practically upside down n then right side up again n then upside down again! but i wasn't screaming. i was muttering to myself, somewhat comforting myself. haa. then i heard a coin falling frm someone's seat. i thought it was gone, but juz as i turned upside down n plunging to the ground [to rise up again] the coin hit my head n bounced off to my fren's seat next to me. haha. that was funny.

after the ride stopped, my hands were so tight around the bars that there was a red line n my palms were sweaty. haha. we oso took some teacup ride, which was equally scary, except u didn't haf to worry abt ur shoes falling off. :)

n there was the viking ship, which makes u feel like u keep plunging downwards,
n the alpha 8, which was the indoor roller coster n it was rather dark n i kept bumping the the sides,
n the rainbow ride, which brought u high up into the sky n was really fun,
n there was the wet n wild ride, where u r in a canoe wif one or two other frens floating along a water path n then u will go up then slide down n splash! into the water. n be drenched through. haha that was fun.
n the go-kart drivers haf to be at least 18, so we couldn't play that, but there was another go-kart thing that we cld play, but the queue was too long, so we didn't try that.
n the ride where u lie next to ur fren on ur stomach n hold on to the bars in front, then the machine turns round n round rising higher into the air n u feel like u r flying. however we became very dizzy after that n felt nauseous. fortunately, that was the last ride we took, so it was ok.

there was some train ride for little kids, so we didn't take that,
there was some floating on the water thing n u shoot water at each other, we didn't take that,
there was some aeroplane thingy that went round n round, we didn't take that,
there was the ferris wheel which was like cable cars in a wheel n it moved sooooooooooo slowly n it's more for enjoying the scenery so we didn't take that either.

yep. then we went to wild wild wet. it was so fun! although there aren't much rides. n i saw shirl there u noe! wad a coincidence lor. her cousin was dragging her along n her sister was following behind her. haha. i could recognise her even wif her braces lor. haaaaaaaaaa.

anw, andrea, eileen n i took the ular lah, it was a big round plasticky-rubbery inflatable "raft" for abt 8 ppl. we slid down the big blue slide bumping here n there n eventually landing in the water.

there was a purple slide that was verrrrrrrrrry dark, so dark that one really can't see ur five fingers, u can't see a thing, n all u can do is lie back n slide all the way down the tube-like slide. eventually u see reflections of light n splash! u land in a pool.

the other slide which was yellow was open-air, juz like the ular lah one, n it wasn't so scary, but it was still fun.

then we tried some sliding up n down thing. the instructors were guys, n they were so pervertic lor! n they kept teasing us. crap. n they refused to tell us how to sit on that weird inflatable thingy. n after some time then tell us.

anw, we slid down the verrrrrry steep slope n came up the other side, then slide down back to the other side again, then slide up again, n down again, that kind of thing yeah?

then there was this wave pool that goes in a circle around the playground. we went along wif the tide n waves n was running or jogging n walking n some others were swimming then we went one round then entered the playground.

it has many slides n it has many ropes. u pull the ropes, some pour water down on u, or shoot water to ur fren n so on, then there was water spouting out frm the playground so it was like raining, then u climb here n there n many slides n that's abt it.

oh n there was the sky rider. it's like two bicycles together n is for two ppl to ride it on the railing above the wild wild wet grounds n pool lah. so it was very scary like u will fall off any moment, esp for ppl who are scared of heights like me. thought wasn't so dangerous mah, but turned out so scary lor. but fortunately, i survived. haaaa.

after that, we left bcos the place was closing [at 8pm]. andrea went back to shower, while eileen n i went to the chalet swimming pool to swim around. i was learning how to swim [btw for ppl who dunno i can't really swim] n i realised i cld somewhat tread water n somewhat swim breast-stroke[bcos my eileen is not a free-styler, so she didn't want to teach me free-style or back-stroke too] but i cldn't come up for breath properly lor n i kept sinking no matter how i kick my body start to move vertical then cannot swim properly. weird lor.

but i heard beginners r supposed to learn free-style first. crap. haha. then we showered n went back for dinner. n tv. the next day,sundae was last dae, we were supposed to wake at 6am n go to haf breakfast at the beach at 6.30sm, but no one bothered to wake to early, so it was kindof cancelled. n the games were cancelled too.

oh n everyone except for andrea, eileen n i stayed. most of them went to jurong point for taufik n sly's autograph, then went home. some went straight home. so the three of us shared the king size bed. haha!

we ate breakfast n packed up n played cards n watched tv [some movie abt underage ppl drinking alcohol n smallville] then we checked out n left the chalet. wif some time left to spare, we went to arcade to play, but bcos we didn't want to spend so much money [we spent $5 in juz minutes!] so we didn't play anymore.

n was hanging around that area for 10 min. then andrea waited for her father to pick her up, while eileen n i took a bus to pasir ris mrt. we went to the library at white sands [some shopping centre next to the mrt] n then ate lunch.

then we took the mrt home [lugging all those heavy camp stuff, clothes n so on. poor us. esp i live in the "west" at bukit batok there. opposite side of the line lor. sadddddddd.] eileen lived at tampines, so it's so close. she was to watch the incredibles wif her bro, n he is treating her! not fair! my bro doesn't treat me to movies! -wail-

that's the end of our camp there. it was enjoyable n fun. n for those ppl who has not fallen asleep reading so much, thx for ur patience. :)

all e best n haf fun this hols! im looking forward to my next trip...overseas! im leaving on 7th dec, n coming back on 14th, so dun miss me! ;D